(I was bored and reading the message board today and ran into this message from 2010 and I thought it deserved to be revisited)
I know this sounds strange but there is a thread about what you hate about being fat. Well Don't get me wrong 99% of the changes thats happening I LOVE!!!! but there are a few I hate! Do you have any you hate? Never even thought I would say that...lol
I don't hate my boobs or clothes getting smaller, per we, but I DO hate the remeasuring and resizing to find out where I'm at NOW. I don't shrink in the proportions of a clothing label, so figuring out where the ten or twenty pounds came off when I'm trying to buy new, flattering clothes can be a big challenge.
I also hate the awareness that comes with being healthy. Even when I want to, I can't indulge like I did when I wasn't watching my weight or caring about my health - I know too much now and can't help but keep mental tabs on the calories, nutrients, preparation, etc. I can't turn the educated part of my brain off and it informs and dictates how far I'll let myself go. Most of the time this is an excellent victory and a great change, but sometimes I secretly think it would be nice to be ignorant and not care what I'm eating for a day. But I can't - now that I know and am used to using thought and moderation regarding my food choices, I can't go back to the way I was.
... Which sucks when I really want to eat my feelings and my brain won't let me
I miss having big boobs. My pear shape is really taking hold of my body now and my chest and arms have shrunk but my hips, butt, and thighs are still large.
Anxiety about how different I look (for pure vanity!). I still fit into my clothes just fine, seriously WHERE did my weight go, it couldn't be all from my head! Wondering what I'll look like at goal weight.
And my family's comments. I am an adult now and I am a much stronger person than before but I am very triggered by my family's nitpicking. Now, I get really defensive and riled up, I think to sort of...protect myself from them. But anyways, at least I recognize that its THEM and not ME.
I don't hate my boobs or clothes getting smaller, per we, but I DO hate the remeasuring and resizing to find out where I'm at NOW. I don't shrink in the proportions of a clothing label, so figuring out where the ten or twenty pounds came off when I'm trying to buy new, flattering clothes can be a big challenge.
I also hate the awareness that comes with being healthy. Even when I want to, I can't indulge like I did when I wasn't watching my weight or caring about my health - I know too much now and can't help but keep mental tabs on the calories, nutrients, preparation, etc. I can't turn the educated part of my brain off and it informs and dictates how far I'll let myself go. Most of the time this is an excellent victory and a great change, but sometimes I secretly think it would be nice to be ignorant and not care what I'm eating for a day. But I can't - now that I know and am used to using thought and moderation regarding my food choices, I can't go back to the way I was.
... Which sucks when I really want to eat my feelings and my brain won't let me
Watching Food INC did that to me. Now I wake up super early to go to the Farmer's Market for eggs and meat every Saturday LOL. I am sooooo sleepy but I can't turn back.