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Old 07-30-2003, 08:24 PM   #1
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Default Where does one begin????

Being new to 3FC I have been reading some of the posts in here and have to say I like the feeling I get that you are all on the same page. I have had a fight with my weight all my life but don't think I realized how out of control it has become until I received the pictures from my sister's wedding. She got married Saturday before last and it was beautiful...but I was not. I knew that I had gained alot of weight this past year but don't think I really SAW it...know what I mean??? Now I have seen it, really seen it and am a bit freaked out by it. I had a really, really rough past year and a half(bad, bad relationship with a man who weighed a buck forty wet!) and think I ate my way(weigh) through it. Last time I had a check up, about 4 months ago, I was at 305 but that didn't even hit me like seeing the pictures did! In 1 1/2 years I have gained over 100 pounds!!! What the heck!?!?!?! I know what I need to do and what it will take for me to acheive my goal weight of 150 but sometimes feel so alone with my battle I just give up and shove that next sugar, sweet, carb, or whatever into my mouth...knowing it is just harming me. I hope to find the support here from others who are or have been in my friends can sympathize but they have never been they don't really know. My self-esteem is in the toilet and I am tired of well-meaning friends who tell me they have a guy for me who likes bigger women...I just want someone to loves me for me...but that is a whole other story!!! I used to have such wonderful eating and exercie habits but that just disappeared and I am having a hard time getting them back...any 'pearls of wisdom' or just to say whatever is welcome. I just wanted to say hi and give a bit of an intro...hope that is OK.
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