So, about two months ago I joined a gym. However, I have not been there. Once. I know my fears are irrational, but they're preventing me from going. I make a lot of excuses. At first my excuses were legitimate - I was very sick for a month. Then I got better...
However, they take a picture of you the first time I'll go in. I don't want them to take a picture of me, but they take pictures so they know who everyone is - and I don't want to confront them either.
Also, I wear a crocheted hat every day. I love my hat. Its my "comfort item". I cut my hair off, and its growing out oddly, so I wear a hat until I'm satisfied with my hair again. The problem is that they don't allow people to wear anything except baseball caps, and I don't want to have to do my hair to go to the gym!!!
In addition, my friend works there... and I know she's been checking the system to see if I've been there, and I feel guilty - even though that's not what she was trying to do. The idea of having to explain everything to her makes me anxious, and the idea of her "watching me" if she's working bothers me.
I guess I need someone to just tell me I'm being ridiculously irrational. I think I'm just really nervous to start all this... and everything seems like a way bigger deal than it is... my anxiety gets the best of me.