Yikes! Help! Johnny Carino's in the lunch room. :mad:

Well, I was able to resist the pasta dishes in there, but I went in after everyone had cleared out and grabbed a piece of the chocolate cake they had for dessert. I am really feeling like a failure lately and I don't like feeling that way. It wasn't even worth it because I couldn't taste it....I was wolfing it down so my co-workers wouldn't see me eating it. They are always so interested to see what I'm eating.

You hit the nail right on the head. I often don't even really enjoy when I indulge/binge (depending on the situation). I don't think you're a failure. You've just opened up something you need to focus on. That's a good thing--especially when you know what you did and how it impacts your goals. I love chocolate cake and had one at a retreat. I thought I could indulge as I'd walked so much. The next morning I binged on many many sauages and fake maple syrup. I was cramming and cramming when no one was in the room (we were all scrambling to pack and leave as our group's reservation was over after brunch). Anyway, I actually use those moments to help me keep on track.

You've already made some great accomplishments and a cake will not create failure. Giving up or continuing the indulgence to binge will. Keep up the good work.

well i didnt eat any cake today at lunch!!!!!

cause I was too full from the blueberry coffee cake I ate.... I bought it on the way to work and was suppose to take it home with me...... I ate so much of it and then threw away the rest out of disgust........... sighhhhhh now i will stay on track rest of day which probably mean eating nothing for the rest of the day as I am very full......

Feeling tired today. I did Leslie's Walk off Belly Fat. I remembered enjoying this one the last time I did this workout but today it just dragged by. I have to admit I was disappointed to see Leslie by herself. I enjoy her workouts more when she's with a group.

Two funny stories. Dad was telling me he was helping Mom with a broken DVD player and grabbed a DVD to try it out. He opened the case and this long red thing jumped out at him! It was a workout DVD with a stretchie band. Kinda like a 'can of worms'.

Second funny story. Hubby asked me to make a cake for our Anniversay. Okay, so I decided I didn't want a cake hanging around temping me so I would make cupcakes, and freeze the rest. You know when they tell you to crack and egg in a little bowl then put it in the mixer. New reason why. I dropped the egg in the running mixer. Shell and all! So I had to stop the mixer and dig the shell out of the dry mix. I think I got it all, LOL:p

Annie, Hang in there. Its no one's business what you eat. I wasn't sure what was going on because we don't have Johnny C's here.

Thank you all for the kind words and insight.:grouphug:

Iaradajnos-I really did need to see this. Thank you! "You've already made some great accomplishments and a cake will not create failure. Giving up or continuing the indulgence to binge will. Keep up the good work."

And, PP, I did need that giggle I got when I read about the red band popping out of the DVD box on your Dad.:)

Thanks everyone- being a parent is so hard!

Yesterday we hiked & walked for 2 hrs, it was nice. Today I feel worn out from it still, legs are sore. We walked for 30min. today and made sure we did no hills, that would have hurt! Went over my calories, I was so hungry today. I ate 6 cookies & 3 mini P.B cups, almost went to the store to buy more. I was too tired and sore to go to the market & walk again, so i stayed home. Gosh, I couldn't even go 3 full days without candy this time. I think the stress around here is getting to me.

Had a busy day today and a friend over for dinner tonight. Made a smoothie for breakfast so I could pass up the pastry/danish they were serving at work breakfast today ... it worked (after I had the pastry on its way to my plate and put it back - oh well, that's progress) ... lunch option was pork or beef which I don't eat or fried chicken, so went for that without a bun. Dinner, however, was three slices of thin cheese pizza - it's actually not tooooo much of a splurge - there is no grease spots on the box, etc. One slice left in the fridge taunting me. I'll leave it for hubby and have to tell him it's there or I'll eat it before bed. He's working nights so it'll be there for him in the morning. Hopefully.

FL - so sorry to hear all the daughter drama she's creating - how stressful. Sounds like the good walks outside are good for the stress relief as much as the activity. Good for you!

Annie- don't worry about the cake - it's hard sometimes to not just shove it in to satisfy something inside but not wanting others to see us. I think that's why I overeat the nights he works ... he doesn't monitor what I eat at ALL - in fact i think he's a food pusher. So why do i eat more when I'm alone at night? I wish you could have enjoyed it though-

PP - great stories! :)

off to bed and hopefully get up early to workout.

Good morning, all.

Two days sugar sober! It really helped again yesterday to just focus on the decisions I had to make that day concerning my eating. Down two pounds. Water weight, from the sugar, but I'll take it. Still doing poorly on my exercise, but I am going to the gym to meet my exercise buddy this morning.

I only have one more day with him--Monday, his office moves to another town thirty miles away. Meeting up in the morning isn't going to work anymore, logistically. Not only will I miss my friend, but I really benefit from having an exercise buddy. I need to find someone at my new job, but I'm still getting to know people.

Whine, whine, whine. Okay, that's enough. I'm off to enjoy a good workout session, and today I choose not to eat sugar and I will continue choosing so all day long.

Have a great day.

Kitteh, sorry to hear you are losing your friend. Good job on the 'sugar sober'; I like the sound of that!

penguin, love the egg in the cake mix story, for me that would have been a way out of temptation!
Took the grandkids to denny's for dinner last night so thier parents could go pick up a dressor. Ordered a fried chicken ranch sandwich, big mistake, I almost never eat fried food and don't struggle with it, (sugar is my thing) so anyways they were having a bacon celebration! And I saw a picture of a sunday topped with maple syrop and bacon, gross or what, I mean i love bacon and I love icecream but together?????

I have sensed a slight shift in my thinking as when my body is not full i really feel good emotionally, mentally and love being active. I would love and am trying to continue living this way, food seems to get in the way sometimes and of course when I eat to much I don't want to do anything else. For years of my life I was bored, single and lonley and that is when food came in, it was like a calming I don't want to do anything fix. I don't want to feel like that anymore as there is so much to do know, cause now I am married and have grandkids and would rather play tennis or take the kids to the park instead of veggin on the couch cause I ate too much. Anways just an observation on my part.

Walked 45min, went to the market & carried the bags home. Legs still feel a bit sore, I'm going to try to rest them, yeh right! that never happens! At least I'm not craving junk today, I should do good on calories. Beautiful weather, gonna try to get outside & read in the sun!

I did 65min of weights today. {Cathe's High Reps DVD} I almost skipped the abs but stuck with it. I had equpiment everywhere. I kept it neat in the beginning but about halfway through I just dropped everything where it was, unless I had to move it. Good thing Hubby is late coming home of he might have tripped over the barbell walking in the door.

so unbelievably upset right now I want to eat e
verything....my daughter FINALLY is dating a guy that both hubby and I love...then she accepts a phone call from the ex and lets him see her son...the ex is NOT my grandsons biological father and all he does is tear her down while the new guy is SOOOOO good for her and my grandson...ugggggg.....

boiled two eggs,lightly salted..I am ok now...just a little grrd...why cant our grown kids listen and avoid the heartache we foresee happening...