Well i'm going to stop beating myself up over it, and start saying to myself this is who i am, i feel good and i have lost over 65pd's and that's something. I'm in good health i have quit smoking almost a yr traded smoking for running, never in my life did i think i would ever quit smoking (almost 2 pk's a day) nor did i ever think i would take up running and like it no love it
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Good for you! Self acceptance/love is a wonderful thing.