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Old 04-13-2011, 02:56 PM   #1
MusicalJess
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Default Am I a crazy person?

I'm 20 and have been with my boyfriend for 2 years. We've been living together for just over a year. Today I got a huge shock.

I wentinto University to hand in a piece of coursework. I had to put the work onto a DVD disc to hand it in and so before leaving I just grabbed one off the shelf that was in a clear case and looked blank. When I got to putting my work on the disc I put it in and a video popped up. It was his wedding video. I panicked. Cried a little because for some reason it upsets me. And then ejected the disc. I didn't watch it. Just the title page came up to show me what it was. I text my boyfriend and told him what had happened and he said not to be upset, to snap the disc and forget about it. I sorted myself out, and put the disc back in my bag.

I've just got home and, I dunno why, I watched it. Not it all. I saw where she walked down the aisle (and it cheered me up a little to see that she looked dreadful-I hope I look prettier than that on my wedding day!!), I saw them sign the register, I missed the kiss as I skipped it. Don't think I could bear that bit. But I landed on where they cut the cake. He was stood behind her, they looked so happy, they were holding hands...and I couldn't take any more. So I've ejected the disc and can't stop crying.

I feel like a crazy person and don't think I can admit to boyfriend what I've just done

I don't know what I'm looking for by telling you this. I guess theres no advice you can give as I've already done it. I can't unwatch what I saw. I just feel really horrible now. I feel like not doing any exercise and just going straight to bed.
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