[EZMONEY]

OK...so I was milking it to get your attention...guilty as charged

I am a little bit more than down about my weight at the moment I also am not looking for sympathy

I will keep this brief...I promise

I just need to post it...I need to have it out there...to be accountable

On July 23, 2007 I weighed in at 201....I had never been over 200 in my life. I knew that I was getting much heavier than ever...I grew up most of my adult life at 6'0 and 155-160 pounds....

but after 40....I grew....a little at a time...I am 56 now by the way

Anyway so as not to lie and keep this brief .....I will speed it up

July 23, 2008....after 1 year of being on a journey of better choices I weighed in at 170...proof is in our archives....

On July 23, 2009 after 2 years of being on my journey I weighed in at 184 .. proof also in the old threads....

Yesterday July 23, 2010 I weighed in at .....drum roll....

191.....dang....

2 years ago my wife and I celebrated at a little Italian place across from the beach with a light dinner, probably something fish and veggie ....

last night Angie and I took the dogs down to the BBQ joint and ate outside...fun...but I had a big BBQ burger with 1/3 pound hamburger and 3 hot links on it with fries and beans... sad...so freakin' sad

Now my wife did not know it was my 3rd anniversary until I told her. She didn't say a word negative...she never does..but I want to get the look in her face that she had in the picture below...the one taken 2 years ago on my first anniversary of better choices....

I like that look on her face ...

I want to see it again

[skygirl]

hey hang in there, you've done it before and you can do it again. (and no that's not sympathy, since i know you said you don't want any sympathy. )

great pics, both the one in the avatar and the one from your 1 year anniversary of healthier choices! sounds like you have a wonderful support system.

i'm cheering for you to get where you want to go!

[EveLHaelf]

You two look so stinkin' CUTE! I agree with skygirl you know how to get where you want to be. You've done it before and you will certainly do it again!

I'm also cheering for you!

[Cglasscock1]

Ok, accountability noted. No big deal and happens all the time to the best of us.
The two of you will get this thing done ... together, just like you did before.
That's a great goal ... to see that look again!
Good luck!

[asharksrevenge]

Anniversaries can be a time of self-reflection, happiness and despair. You've taken the step toward accountability by telling your wife and reporting it here. Now that that's done, it's time to get into action. You're not far from your last weight at all and it won't take a lifetime to get there. Keep going, you're doing great!

[JayEll]

I know just how it is, EZ. I don't have any sure-fire answers for you because I'm struggling with regain myself.

The only thing I can offer is that the "journey of better choices" never ends. A huge BBQ burger with links AND fries AND beans just can't be on your list. And I bet you had a beer with it...?

So, I'd say that you need to get your head back in the game. Be smart. Eat smart. You know that that lunch was just dumb, no matter whether you weigh 191, 170, or 150! It's like any other "drug"--the high wears off and then there's only the remorse.

Good luck, EZ...

Jay

[rockinrobin]

Better choices, eh? Well - yes - you and I both know that.

So start makin' em' - one at a time. Back to back. One after the other. Again and again.

Remember how good you felt when you were lighter. Remember how pleasurable it is to #1 make those good choices & #2 the outcome of those good choices.

"Life is very short, choose very carefully"

[Losing It 2010]

Oh my you both are so cute, please do not be discouraged

[toobig]

Hugs

[EZMONEY]

Thanks ladies....you are, as always...THE BEST!

[Shannon in ATL]

You can do it Gary.

It is all about choices, absolutely. While I'm sure that the BBQ was great yesterday, was it worth feeling bad afterwards? If you are anything like me you felt a little unsettled in the stomach and a lot unsettled in the mind after the meal.

Get back in the habit of the better choices. Remember the great recipes and lighter foods you enjoyed - I remember some fantastic recipes that you posted in the past, some of which are in my kitchen now as a matter of fact.

I also remember that you used to talk a lot about 5ks - get back into those, those dogs of yours will dig it! Do a little yoga with Angie - I bet you would enjoy it. If you could do it without making her crazy!

Move back to the healthier happier Gary we all remember. You can do it. I know you can.

[motivated chickie]

I read this thread after having my second lunch for the day. Sigh.

But if you can get back on the horse, so can I.

I'm with you.

[EZMONEY]

Thanks ladies....

But let me say this in my defense....

as far as the BBQ goes....in the old days I would have eaten all of it...but I didn't the other night...not in one sitting....

I cut the burger in half and split the fries...boxed that and had it for lunch the next day. Which is what I do with so many of my eat out meals now...

I haven't forgot everything I learned

I think my point with the BBQ wasn't so much as the food itself but the comparison between a night out for a HEALTHY dinner....when I was doing good vs. a night out for dinner when I'm not doing so well

I have had way too many of the not so healthy meals out since I completed my goal.

It didn't sneak up on me...

I have seen it coming for a while now....

just kept hoping it would magically go away....

[EZMONEY]

And I also continue to do my 5K's SHANNON...

the difference now....

What I still do 3 or more miles with the dogs most days...

what I don't do is jump on that treadmill for another 2-4 when I get back home...

I just can't find time in the afternoon either for it...

I do find time to watch Judge Judy though...

not burning too many calories there!

[MisfitRycher]

Hmmm... Maybe run the treadmill during Judge Judy? Indulge both your pleasures at once? I know some of the chicks here who do that and they swear up and down that it's a great way to do it.

Good luck!