So first I was like,
Then I was like,
But then I went back to,
And I want to be more like,
But I'm not.
Ok, I had entirely way to much fun playing with smileys. Sorry about that. Ok, not really.
Seriously though, after a week or two of my weight stalling, I got on the scale this morning and it was 2 pounds lower. Making it the first official 10 pounds lost. But for some reason, my brain was just didn't believe it. Like, how can that be? Is that possible?
Maybe I just don't want to believe it, because the second I do, I'll get lazy again. I've done it so many times. Like somehow, because I lost weight, it's permission to eat more. It doesn't make any sense.
But yeah, even with that, I just don't believe that ME, I, MYSELF could ACTUALLY be LOSING weight.
I'm probably weird, I'm sure everyone else was or will be like, when they hit the big markers. Did the, "not believing it" happen to anyone else?
It took me awhile to believe I was actually 'doing it', since I had hver really set out to lose weight before. But trust me, be consistent and your own progress will make it real to you
I empathise so much with you, Gold32! My S.O. is constantly tell me I look like I'm losing weight, and occassionally the measurements I take reflect this, but the scale is not really budging that much. And I know (on a logical level) that just because the scale doesn't move doesn't mean I'm NOT losing weight, and the measuring reflects this, but I still don't believe it. I don't feel like I've lost anything at all (except when I wiggle into my Spanx, but that's another story entirely ).
I know how you feel...I still can't believe I dropped almost 100lbs. It feels like just yesterday I was laying in bed 300lbs thinking to myself "how am I going to lose all this weight..." I almost have to remind myself I'm not 300lbs anymore, and I think wow...in another year, maybe less, will I be thinking this same thing about my weight now? I really can't wait for that moment! haha
Congrats on your first 10lb loss, you will be at your goal before you know it!
Last edited by JennieLovesKisses; 04-20-2010 at 05:56 PM.
I get bouts of not trusting the scale like that, especially after a stall or on weeks when I feel I "didn't earn it." Give it time to catch up to you. You'll be doing this eventually. And until then, keep working hard because it IS paying off!
I always feel that way on the scale. In my fat pants, which are now sliding down m backside whenever I am walking through walmart or somewhere else, not so much. I guess I believe my clothes more easily than I do the numbers. And I feel like I have such a long way to go. Each one or two pounds doesn't seem like very much to me. BUT it does all add up, little by little. And thankfully, the total looks *bigger* to me than the weekly amount. It's really crazy, huh? I can't even bear to think about how long it will take to get to goal, just keep moving through it day by day for now.
i feel the exact same way!! especially the whole losing weight and eating more thing! like this morning i was down 2 lbs and had a doughnut! why?! bc i'm losing weight so i can indulge? sometimes the brain works in funny ways!
yes yes yes yes. i still think this all the time. i hold up my own clothes and think, these are too small, they wont fit, i must have shrunk them in the dryer.
i wonder if it ever goes away because i still have total fat girl self esteem. maybe the last few will help.
You'd think after losing 80 lbs. in a year, I'd believe it, wouldn't you? Nope, every month (except the one that I only lost 1 lb), I think I just happened to catch a good day...
I have been trying to make sure I get rid of clothes as they get too big, BUT have a hard time judging the "too big". My beau and a male friend often have to tell me it's time to retire something from the closet. And I can't tell you how many items I missed the chance to wear because I didn't try them on, thinking they'd still be too small.
It is a very weird process. These last few weeks especially for me. The faster the weight comes off, the more confused I get. On one hand, I see that I am down 35lbs and think GREAT! Then, I look at myself in recent pictures and still see a fat person. I see myself looking thinner in the mirror. I have dropped two sizes, but its still hard to wrap my head around it. I guess for me, I had two black and white dichotomies - I am either fat or thin. There isn't a middle. Well, now I am in this middle and not sure what or how to think about it. I will say that I am SUPER excited about the next 35lbs!! At that point, I will think of myself as thin. It's still not goal, but it will mean so many awesome things.
That first 10lbs was such a great feeling. It was the, "Oh my gosh, I am doing this!" feeling. It was starting to sink in that all of my goals really were possible. There were so many great things floating through my head and I just loved seeing the clothes fitting differently. I probably felt more beautiful then than I have this past week. All of the possibilities and wonder and expectations swept me away. Maybe I'm just in a bit of a lull now, I'm sure that will come back soon.
CONGRATS! on those first 10lbs! You CAN do this!!!
I haven't had batteries in my scale for about 6 months. On occasion I would use the doctor's scale where I work...in the afternoon, clothes on, shoes on...Anyway, I just started CC a few days ago and hubby put new batteries in the scale last night. When I saw 212 this morning I was like I moved the scale to five different locations throughout the house with the same results. I feel closer to my goals. YAY
I know how you feel, I'm still there! I apparently have lost 25 pounds, had to get new clothes, people tell me I look good, hubby tells me I feel different when he hugs me... but I look in the mirror and all I see is fat! The logical part of my brain is slapping me upside the head for being a dummy, but the emotional part is screaming FAT!!! I know I am still over weight but the emotional part of my brain still thinks I'm 185 insted of 160. I wish I knew what the cure was for this.
Anyone else "not believe" when they lose weight?
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I guess I believe my clothes more easily than I do the numbers. And I feel like I have such a long way to go. Each one or two pounds doesn't seem like very much to me. BUT it does all add up, little by little. And thankfully, the total looks *bigger* to me than the weekly amount. It's really crazy, huh? I can't even bear to think about how long it will take to get to goal, just keep moving through it day by day for now.
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I moved the scale to five different locations throughout the house 
with the same results. I feel closer to my goals. YAY
