prazn,
I told my mother and she told me not to do it.....that's ok, she won't remember anyway
I have been avoiding one person I told that I might look into it and one of my best friends hit the roof when I told her a few months ago. BUT now that I am progessing towards the surgery and she saw the reasons behind my decisions, she is very nearly darn....cooperative!
I stole this from another board and found that it gave me alot of strength. Perhaps it will do the same for you!
Alice came to a fork in the road and wasn't sure how to handle it. She asked the Cheshire Cat up in the tree what the cat thought she should do. The Cheshire Cat asked, "Where do you want to end up?" Alice said, " I'm not sure, I just don't want to be here anymore. " The Cheshire Cat said, "Well, then it doesn't matter which way you go then does it?"
You need to decide here and now where you are going to end up. Focus on that goal. When you get distracted focus once again. and again. and again.
Always choose faith over fear. Always.
Refuse to contemplate anything but how you want it to end up. Period.
You Focus on your actions, your decisions, your attitude and soon you will find yourself where you want to be.
peach