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tlujan1 07-29-2006 12:15 AM

Hey you all, I want to write about what I am eating but I feel like I am going to be chastized my the person that thinks thin. But, reagardless to what she says I am going to post.

I went out to dinner tonight with the folks to talk about the upcoming trip to Dallas to see the specialist. It has been a long week trying to decides who was the best specialist to take Camdon to. We finally decided. But, the food was so good tonight. I have been so stressed out, it was nice to let go for a night. I had some scalups (huge and sweet) with pasta, some calamari and salad. It was so filling. We also had some Gelato, I had the sugar free chocolate. I needed the fix. This was a splurge for me, and a treat...so the rest of the week I am really going to have to watch it.

I have no plans for Sat. so I am thinking about taking Camdon to the museum or the park. It all depends how hot it is. I miss you Dusty and Night owl, where have you been? I am going to PM you all, don't make me track you down.

Well, Alison you are doing great on your WW and thanks so much for being there for me thru all this craziness.


sweetbaby 07-29-2006 12:26 AM


I will always be there for you and your family!! You a genuine person!!

I wish you and your family the best.

Do not worry about what others think when it comes to critisizing....everyone has there ups and downs.......EVERYONE!!

Nightkatt 07-29-2006 07:25 AM

Hiya all

Im relatively new to the board here (almost a week now) .. but just wanted to stop in and say Hiii to you all from New Zealand.

Tanya, Im so sorry to hear about Camden .. it definitely is a hard thing for family members to go through as well as for the child, its really a case of needing to be able to control something in your life when such a big thing is out of your control, and for people with weight issues .. its food. Dont be hard on yourself at this time, you have enough on your plate without feeling like you have to be accountable for what you eat as well .. I know you want to be healthy etc, but you also need to be able to cope and everyone has different coping mechanisms.

My oldest nephew was diagnosed with Leukemia when he was only 5, we were so shocked and it was a tough year worrying about finding donors etc and him surviving all of the treatments, but last Xmas we were told he had the all clear at last after 5 years ... only as we were warned would be a possibility of happening .. Lil T is back in hospital again now as a different strain of Leukemia has come back :( We almost lost him a couple of weekends ago, but he is a fighter and we just keep on prayin that it all works out .. I kept myself busy fundraising for Child Cancer Research, it was all I could do for him, I couldnt donate or anything like that cos I wasnt a match, didnt half make me feel useless ... and chocolate and McDonalds were becoming family members by my side allll the time. I dont regret doing it either, I coped through the worst and was able to be strong for my mum, brother and sister in law and to me that was more important at the time.

So please dont be hard on yourself .. when you are under so much stress you need moments in your day or week where you can let your hair down and not think about numbers or things like that .. I know some would say that its times like this you need to be stronger and stop using food as a comfort thing, but hells bells .. sometimes there is a really good reason why counting just isnt a possibility in your life.

Okee .. anyway ...

Alison - way to go on your goal being reached :) And Im sure you will reach your next goal .. esp within 9 weeks :)

Hope everyone is doing ok, keeping cool in what I have heard is really hot weather over there in the US (we are in winter over here in NZ lol).

Oh .. just about forgot to answer the 3 questions ..

1. What diet plan are you currently on?
Im doing Jenny Craig .. one week so far.

2. What do you find motivates you the most?
Im not really sure lol .. I know I want to be able to sit on a plastic chair and not worry about it collapsing .. and I want to get swimming again ... wouldnt mind spending time at a foreign beach wearing togs and a sarong .. and even getting a little sunbathing in!

3. What can I do to help you stay on track?
For me its all about being real .. if you foul up then foul up and get over it, beating yourself up over it definitely isnt gonna make it go away .. but that doesnt mean you dont acknowledge it either .. mistakes are great to admit .. cos then it helps others to work out what to do when they do the same thing lol .. Also keep the faith .. each day is a new one ... yesterday is a memory .. tomorrow is a dream .. but today is a gift .. thats why its called the present :)

Hope thats ok? Kia Ora all .. keep well :)

tlujan1 07-29-2006 06:36 PM

Katt, thank you so much for your encouragement. It has been really hard. Been wanting to eat burgers and a lot of junk food...the crazy thing is that I am really not of fan of junk...but, I guess I am looking more for comfort food, more then anything. Munched on some carrots today...they lie about them satisfying the need to munch, I had to eat some popcorn after that.

I know I should allow myself to let go somewhat, but I really don't want to go backwards, which I have been doing. I gained 1.6 lbs this week. I followed and counted, but the stress is getting to me. My whole body has been tense and I have been taking pain killers just to make it through the day, because my arms, back and legs have been hurting. I don't think I am getting restful sleep.

I hope things get better. We are headed on monday to Dallas and really looking forward to meeting the doctors. We have 5 apt. scheduled one after the other.

New Zealand, do you get hard summers? Sounds nice...I love the winter. So when is the best time to visit? Visit TX during the winter, that is always the best time, because during the summer, you just bake. Winters a really mild.

I am glad to see a fellow tall person. Don't see many tall people in my culture, I am hispanic and most of the women are short, well, so are the men. Went to Spain a few years ago and I was a whole foot taller then the men there. My husband (6'4") and I stood out.

Talk to you all later, James is taking me out on a date because we are not going to see each other for a while.


Nightkatt 07-29-2006 07:27 PM

Hiya hun

Stress is a real killer to weight loss, when the body is under stress it cuts back on certain things and losing weight is one of them in case it arises that you need the body fat to survive .. I remember discussing those sorts of things with a few doctors etc .. and one of them mentioned some sort of thesis thingy being done but I cant remember where .. but its like a safety mechanism .. this of course also triggers the headaches.

Good luck hun

Yes NZ has good summers, we are told we have more tropical summers cos we have more humid ones which makes the temp seem higher than it is .. as in the heat aint high (about 30C on average), but the heat we do have isnt usually a dry heat but there are the hotter days .. it depends on what part of NZ you are in ... the East Coast of the Nth Island is usually the hotter coast (also sees the sun first in the world each day). More care does have to be taken in our sun than in your hemisphere tho cos apparently the ozone hole is mainly over the pacific and the burn times are a lot quicker - The best time to come for a visit is in Jan/Feb usually ... and if you come over you are more than welcome to stay with us while you are travelling round the area of NZ Im in ... I dont have lots of room, but we can make space for you and your family no problem :)

LOL .. yes I am one of the tall ones :) Its not overly common over here either, my mum is only 5'4" and dad is 5'7" lol ... so lord knows where the height came from .. but my daughter is catching up to me too, she is going to be 15 this week and already she is 5'7"! My hunny is a little shorter than me too.

Keep in touch hun, you can rant to me as much as you like :) Sometimes it helps to get it all out of your system .. well ..at least those thoughts that run round in your head when you are lying in bed out in the open :)

Take care and BIG kiwi hugs :)

tlujan1 07-30-2006 11:32 PM

Well, tomorrow I leave for Dallas. I am so nervous but excited at the same time. Camdon knows something is up.

Wiggles: Well, we will be back to see them on Wed. The cool thing is that I contacted their PR people, and told them about Camdon. I am hoping that they will allow Camdon to come back stage. I have already gotten one reply from one of their people. So, keeping the fingers crossed. Camdon would just flip out. He is the 24/7 Wiggles kind of kid.

Katt, Thanks for the reply. I would love to visit you in NZ. I am going to look up info tonight. We will not be able to go for a while. James is finishing up Grad school and soon will be getting his Phd. So, I will be busy raising Camdon and hopefully another one.

That is funny about your family, because my dad is 5'5" and my mom is 5'6". Both my sisters are 5'5". Well my younger sister wears 6" heels all the time, even to cook outs. She is crazy. I wear flats most of the time. Not worth the pain.

Well, girls got to go to bed. Have a nice week.


sweetbaby 07-31-2006 08:34 AM

well hello ladies!! I hope everyone is doing well!! This past week has been a very weird week for me. I personally do know that I did not do well, I just was not eating and when I did I just did not care, I did not write ANYTHING down at all this week. My nerves just got the best of me. So I thought I was going to either maintain or gain this week when I weighed in sunday.....to my surprise I lost 8.6 pounds!! I have no clue as to who, what, when, where or why, but it happened that way. It has me remotivated....lol......I would not be surprised though if I gain some of that back this week since I will be eating more. We will see.

I also am going to start exercising, I was suppossed to start awhile ago, but i just have been busy. So I am going to start slow and work myself up to it.

Alrighty, well that is it for me right now. I hope everyone is doing good.

youwin67 07-31-2006 01:30 PM

Hi guys!!!

I'm alive, just a little less than kicking. I don't think things have ever been so crazy for me as they are right now. I haven't forgotten you all. I love you guys, you are my rock, if only I'd visit more often.

I'm still dieting--sorta. I have;t lost any weight lately, it's been 3 weeks of high stres. I was on my lunch break just about 30 minutes ago. And I got into a car accident!!! just 30 minutes ago. Don't worry I'm ok and we the damage is minimal. I just can't stop shaking. I decided not to go back to work. I need some time to chill out, but there is no time. tomorrow I have to give my poetry reading, and trust me, this isn't helping!! I'm scared, nervous all over, and simply not ready yet.

My birthday is in 5 days, then 3 days after that I am moving to Florida. I am only going to be there for 4 months. Because my brother is handicapped and finally ready to go to school, so I am going to go with him and get him on his feet, then come home for christmas and resume my schooling. I can only take enough stuff that I can carry back with me on the plane. I am not too happy about that--living out of a suitcase for 4 months will be hard. On an upside, I will finally have time to relax. I wont be working, I am only taking 2 classes (long distance) at my university, and I am going to work my big butt off like a mad woman. ALSO, the best part is, I will get to catch up with all of you.

I will get to make my CD's I promised Nightowl years ago!! And I will get to talk to you guys all the time. Right now, I am still shaking from my car accident, I am gonna go take a bath and try to make myself chill a little.

Sorry I haven't been on in so long, I will be making a comeback soon, and you will wonder if I ever shut up!! Love you guyys, keep up the good work!!!

mwa mwa mwa

Get n healthy 07-31-2006 03:39 PM

Hello all,

I am a 32 year old newbie around the 300+ mark...seems like a good spot for me.

What diet plan are you currently on?

Well, i am on counting calories. I did weight watchers before and lost 110 pounds only to get off ww and gain 90 of it back. So that is where i am now, starting over from scratch almost. I seem to be losing it slowly this time around.

What do you find motivates you the most?

Someone above had mentioned when they feel good they can stay on it and when they are having a bad day they cheat...OMG i am the same way. Especially if i wake up and weigh and havent lost or worse, gained...you would think that would be motivation but all it does is make me say to heck with it all. It is so frustrating to know that you eat 1/2 of what some average size people eat and weight twice what they do. Dr says it is my insulin resistence but gosh that sure makes it hard.

Hearing success stories and seeing pics of me when i had lost the 100 really motivates me.

What can I do to help you stay on track?

I dont think there is anything anyone can do to keep me on track...with me, it all has to come from within...either i am on my game or i am not even at the ballpark...sad sad. I never stay the same weight...i am either gaining or losing.

Well thanks for this little campsite. I look forward to being a "regular"...or even better...a maintainer, eventually.

thinthinker 08-01-2006 01:02 AM

Tanya: I'm sorry you felt you were being "chastized". It certainly wasn't my intention. What I was trying to point out was that even though the cookies in one serving sizes are 0 WW points, they still have calories and so we can't have say 6 servings in a day and still count them as 0.

I only brought it up because my WW leader told a story about a gal who would eat a whole carton of Fat Free Cool Whip and then come in and complained that she hadn't lost anything. When the leader looked at her journal and saw the whole carton listed over the course of the week she pointed this out to the gal who said, "well, it was 0 points per serving". My leader was just trying to point out, as I was, that when eaten in multiple servings throughout the day, or even week, the calories will mount up and you might not see the results you're looking for.

You have alot on your plate right now. :hug: I'm impressed that you are managing the stress as well as you are.

thinthinker 08-01-2006 04:52 PM

Just in case you didn't see the announcement above, don't forget to weigh yourself today, August 1st. Write it down somewhere, not necessarily here and then at the end of the month weigh again and report your loss. It's a SITE-WIDE weigh-in. Prizes will be randomly awarded. Don't miss out. Let's see how much EVERYONE here can lose in a month!!! http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/announcement.php?f=124

Mrs.Kandi 08-01-2006 05:36 PM

Hello...I'm new to this forum area. I'm not quite 30..I'm 23. Me and my husband started a dieting program (LA Weight Loss) on July 14th and I've been looking for an online support team for myself. So, I think I finally found one. Maybe when I have the courage I'll post our picture. I hope to get to know a lot of people here :)

Nightkatt 08-01-2006 06:12 PM

Hi there Mrs Kandi ... WELCOME to 3FC!! Im sure you will do well . looks like you are doing pretty good so far already! 11 pounds .. well done!

Hope we see you on the boards too .. Im a relative newbie as well .. but already I can say the support and help on here is AB FAB!!

Huggies all .. Ive done my weigh in for the August count .. so will hope that I can do well for the monthly total :)

tlujan1 08-02-2006 12:22 AM

Hey girls just wanted to post really quick. Just got back from Dallas not to long ago...Camdon will need two surgeries to currect the problem. It could eliviate his seizures, but ofcourse it is not gurenteed. They are going to confrence with the other doctors and then get back to me on the surgery date.

I said, "to the **** with it, with the dieting." I have had a lot of coffee...the fatning kind, yummy. Didn't go to much over the edge. I just hope I didnt gain to much back this week.

Welcome every body...will do a formal welcome later. Sorry ThinkThin, I have been beyound stressed out, and touchy lately.

Good news, the Wiggles contacted me and Camdon is going to get to meet them before the concert tomorrow. Just a side note, I think they are hot, but it is for my son. He is just going to flip out. I will tell you all about his reaction.

Take care...Tanya

thinthinker 08-02-2006 12:32 AM

No worries, Tanya. :hug: There is NOTHING worse than worrying about your child. Take care of yourself as you take care of him. He needs his mommy healthy too. :)

dolfingirl2000 08-02-2006 08:34 AM

Hi everybody :wave:

Just wanted to say hi to the people on this thread. :) Tanya--I am 38 years old, I have no children of my own, and I love the Wiggles too. ;) I will actually watch children's programming sometimes because I get so bored with whats on and the Wiggles is one of the best kids shows that I've seen. I even went to the website LOL. Anyway--I am so glad that your son is going to be able to meet them. They seem like genuinely nice people.

Good luck with his surgeries. I can't imagine having a sick child and he'll be in my thoughts and prayers. :hug:

I have to go so I can't comment on more. My bf has a wake to go to and I have to work. Have a great day.

Vicki :)

Good luck on the

youwin67 08-02-2006 08:55 AM

Poetry reading is today, in a few hours. It's go time. I'm so stressed I can't make my hair sit down on my head. The big dilema was what to wear. I am a person who simply doesn't own nice clothing. I really don't like the idea of looking like a slob, I have always felt that, for me, dressing up nice was like putting lipstick on a pig. It just didn't matter, in the end you still have a pig. but now I am hurting for that lipstick!! I put on a nice shirt. I am not one of those girls who has large breasts as a side effect of being a large woman. No, I am blessed with the breasts of 98 pound woman who desperately wishes she could gain some weight. UHG! So most shirts made for plus size women just hang down on the front of me. It's embarressing! I have an air bra from lane Bryant...btw, they DO make you look better endowed, they also heat your chest up to a nice temperature of 108 degrees and stab you in 12 places if you attempt any crazy manuver, such as breathing, walking, bending slightly. Then the air bags move slowly all day, as if they had a mind of their own until you find them in your armpits half way through the work day. Then you run to the ladies room and adjust them in the mirror only for 3 of your skinny co workers to walk in and find you wrist deep down the neck line of your shirt. FUN! But still...my breasts look slightly larger...WHAT'S THE TRADE OFF HERE?!? This is why men suck.

Andyhow, despite that tirade (and I'm sorry) I am forced to wear my best pair of jeans as pants...my best pair being the pair I bought before losing 30 pounds. I like the occasional hoist of my pants when no one is looking, but in front of a large audience it would be a little sad. So I am just gonna have to hope and pray that the God of slap stick comedy doesn't choose me as his unwilling victim once again...i.e. Dear God, please don't make my pants fall down in front of everybody. Please? I'm asking nicely. Spare me this one embarressment. And if that does happen, grant me the ability to go into some sort of coma until everyone has left the building. ok. Thats taken care of.

So as you can all see I am a little wound but today is the last day of this godawful summer long project, and once it is done, I vote we all go out and get drunk on nasty tasting low carb alcohol. Actually no, the skinny women in those commercials piss me off. Let's just eat slices of cucumbers and tiny carrot sticks and celery (Natures floss--ew) and pretend we love it!! Ok it's a date.

Tanya, Oh my God!! Meeting the wiggles!! Cammy is gonna flip!! I can't wait to hear his reaction. How FUN! You are the best mommy ever.

Kandi, I am doing L.A. weight loss as well! Now that I am back on here, feel free to contact me or talk or anything! To be honest, I don't really care for the L.A. Weight loss board here. Everyone there is super nice, but I didn't feel as good about them as I do with these ladies. Now this group is great, they understand me (and tolerate my rants!!) So Welcome and P.S. I am 23 too, or I will be in 4 days!

Get n Healthy, WELCOME! Wow you did it once before you can do it again. Losing 110 pounds is REALLY impressive. Also I know how you feel. No matter what anyone does, I'm the only one who can motivate me. But having these guys on here really helps so I do hope you will stay and be regular. Like I was saying, I'm much like you, it's all about how I am feeling at the time. Though when I have a bad day I don't eat....actually when I got in my car accident I had mcDonalds....OH MY GOD I DO DO THAT! shucks. Ok we're all in the same boat...a boat that is surrounded by scary sharks (stupid Shark week on discovery) and giant electric eels...so no one do anything stupid (like I did), and we'll get ourselves to shore!!!

Sweetbaby, 8.6 pounds!! holy moly! Hmmm can I join your specialized eat bad, don't keep a journal diet program.....honestly you'll be a billionaire!! hehe good job, I love those kind of weeks! Though they are inexplicable.

NightKatt, I don't beleive we've met! Nice to meet you!!

Ok guys back to the bump and grind,

Nightkatt 08-02-2006 07:40 PM

Tanya - Great to see you back hun .. and the guys in the Wiggles are lovely ... very friendly and caring .. definitely some of the good guys .. Im sure Camden will be absolutely stoked to meet them too!

Dusty - Lovely to meet you too ... I must say you put a smile on my dial today reading your post ... Hopefully the god of slap stick (who must be a man in your case) doesnt misbehave for you. I want men to wear heels and bras as they created the darn things .. definitely want my top part to shrink so I never have to wear a bra with a wire again ... livin in hope that they will go down that much .. but one is entitled to hope occasionally lol .. as for heels .. never ... I scared of heights and I hate looking down from 5'9.5" without adding any more inches (not to mention Im a real clutz with minimal balance as it is .. lol .. so medically for the sake of my bones I wont wear em anyway lol).. Hopefully I will see you on the board some more ... I think your attitude is fab! :)

youwin67 08-03-2006 09:29 AM

OK the poetry thing is OVER! woooowoooo!! It feels like someone just lifted a ton of bricks off my shoulders (I should probably go weigh in now..)

Also it went swimmingly. Everyone really loved the presentation and I got lots of laughs! I couldn't not have asked for a better reading!

Also there is talk of a position opening up in my office that would be a real job, not a student job and the pay starts at 50k a year. *falls over* I am buzzing about that right now! However, the chances of me getting it is slim to bupkis, because I am sure a young, already established professor is going to jump in and snatch it from me. oh well I will cross as many fingers as I can!


youwin67 08-03-2006 09:32 AM

Oh and I forgot to say HI VICKI!!! :hug:



tlujan1 08-03-2006 10:59 PM

Hey girls here's the dish. We met the Wiggles. Talk about a bunch of hotties, and the nicest group of guys too. They went down to Camdon's level and kept talking to him. Camdon had a melt down...he couldn't say a word. Poor guy was in shock. After hanging with them for about 30 mins. we went to the concert. They traded in our tickets for better seats and a free one for my sister. I think she had more fun then some of the kids. We were right on the floor in the center. They guys were great, and would jump off stage and walk around the stadium. Murry and Anthony (Camdons favorate wiggle) kept coming up to him during the concert and tickling him and talking to him. It was great. When we left the Concert, with Camdon holding my hand he looked up to me and said, "Mama, I love da Wiggies." That was worth it all.

He had such a rough day, the day before, when we went to Dallas. So it was great for him to come home and have a blast like that. I have been getting all of Camdons doctors to send me release forms, just finished filling them all out. I only got half his doctors, It would take way too long to get all of them. So I am hoping they will send Dr. Genecov all the records before Monday. Monday is the big day they have a conference and decide when surgery is. Camdon has been doing something new, he has been poking his eyes like they hurt him, so Iam a bit concerned his optic nerve is being squished. I am sure they have some big scientific unpronouncible word for it.

Well, I am up 4 something pounds. I am cracking my own whip (Kinky!) and counting points and well, counting points. I am going to really work on things this week. I feel like a blob...Like the show that came out in the '70's, the big blob that rolled around town and swallowed up people. My stomach (we call her torpedo) she is happy these days because I have been feeding her junk...so back to the colon friendly health food.

I am a bit tired, and I need some sleep...Dang!!! just looked at the time and it is not even 10pm yet, I am getting old, If I think it is getting late.

I am so happy to see everybody here, especially the new comers.

Hey Vicki, I have looked at you Myspace, haven't been there in a while.


tlujan1 08-05-2006 01:19 AM

Okay girls the whip is out and I am kicking butt!!!! I have been staying on track so far. I had plain yogurt for breakfast and salad for lunch, dinner I went and had chinese, but stayed with in my points. Doing good and feeling better about things. I really hope I go down this week. I am tired of going up. I know I do not change my trackers...I choose not to. I change them only when I lose. My rules.

Okay hope you all are doing good. Took my husband shopping today to get him clothes. He had to quit his job this week and got a new one today. We are trying our hardest to keep Camdon's Medicaid. We can't afford to pay for the surgeries. I think once every thing is done with, finally my hubby can get a job and get paid what he is worth. I am going to start doing my stuff too...photography and graphic design, see if I can sell it on ebay.

I have been in a better place and have been painting. I hadn't painted in over 3 years. I was super depressed. I will post a picture of my work some day.

Dusty: I saw a book the other day it was "Poems of a young brother" Everybody has some sort of twist to sell their work. Maybe you can publish a book called "Poety of a big girl." I would buy it. There needs to be more liberating stuff out their for us big girls. Hey you were saying that your brother is disabled. What is his disablity? Is it the same brother that was trached? Why did he need his trach in the first place? You could email me if you do not want to put that kind of detail on here.

Has anybody talked to Nightowl?

Have a great saturday, especially you Alison...Happy Birthday again girl!!! Have fun.


youwin67 08-07-2006 12:49 AM


You are right, poems of a big girl would be a pretty good seller. I had a prof my freshman year who called me aside to his office and told me I had to get rid of my negative image and stop writing poetry that wasn’t nice to myself. I tried not to be negative about it. I think for a book of big girl poems to work, I would have to make it real empowering! As you can imagine, it is a little difficult for me not to be a smart ***.

Sounds like Cammy had a great time! How nice of them to be so great with the kids!! My heart goes out to you and your husband and of course little Cammy for all you are going through. Keep us all updated on his progress!

My brother is the one who was trached. He had a brain bleed at 15. It was really unexplained—which is the scary part. Now he is 21 and ready to leave the nest! He walks with a cane and has really bad balance, and of course a few other little things. His speech isn’t quite the same, he switched from right to left handed, and he still writes with a shaky terrible handwriting. He is nervous, we all are. I really hope he can do this!

Here is a sample of some of my old writing. I know, it is not the real uplifting stuff you are supposed to post on here, but I think it speaks a little to people who are in the same boat like we are. I hope no one is offended!! :

Diet Diet Revolution!
I hesitate in the parking lot, as I often do. Staring at the building before climbing out of my car and walking in as briskly as possible. Weight Watchers is in bold red letters in the middle of the strip mall, right between Radio Shack and that all-you-can-eat buffet. I figure when people see me walking up, they probably make bets on which door I’ll go through, I am sure no one ever guesses it will be Radio Shack.

Once inside the building the thin employees greet me, I have been coming long enough that they all know my name; I can’t remember theirs for the life of me. In order to work at weight watchers, you need to reach your goal weight and maintain it. I wonder how they check, I mean, do they weigh in as they punch in for work. If they indulge one weekend and gain that extra pound…are they fired?

I walk up to the counter after getting past the greeter and fill out a little nametag, even the nametag says weight watchers. I find my card and stand in line to get ‘weighed in’ by one of the overly cheerful spokespersons. This time it is a bird-like woman who I know probably joined twelve years ago to lose the extra eight pounds she put on after having her first and only child. She acts as if she has been there before, and I smile at her sweetly because strangling her would be impolite. “How was your week?” She asks, a parrot. I smile and say good. I listen to the other women around me responding to the same situation by going into a twenty-minute speech about their eating and exercise habits. No wonder this process takes so long.

I take off my shoes, because you weigh less without your shoes, and then I remove my wallet, keys, cell phone and any loose change in my pockets for the same reason. I didn’t wear earrings today on purpose. “Good job!” the bird-woman squeaks and claps her hands, as if she really cares, “You are down 1.6 pounds this week!” I smile and try to seem excited about the miniscule loss. I hand her the twelve-dollar weekly fee and try not to think about how much I could be saving if I stopped coming to these God-awful events.

If you have never been to a Weight Watchers location, you probably don’t know that they keep the meeting room hidden behind a wall. I am sure all those chairs filled with overweight people is not the image they want to portray to the public eye. The meeting starts when the leader comes in and greets everyone like it is a cheerleader reunion. I glance around the room filled with fellow pathetic souls and realize I am at least twenty years younger than everyone else here. Great.

First the leader claps her hands and asks everyone in the room how their week went. We all share our stories of triumph and failure, clap our hands some more—there seems to be a lot of that, perhaps it burns calories. Then the product placement begins. Did you know AppleBee’s now has a Weight Watchers menu? Have you tried our 2-point bars? Only $1.50 a piece! Don’t forget the twenty-three dollar ‘getting started’ pack that has everything you need to be successful in your weight loss journey. If you have trouble using the paper journal you get every week with your membership, try buying the monthly journals right here in our lobby. Smoothies, candies, cookbooks, food scales, exercise tapes, planners, carrying cases, pedometers, jump ropes, bracelets, the official magazine, and anything else one needs to lose weight successfully.

After half an hour of talking, trading ideas and recipes, and learning the weekly lesson, we all waddle out, a newfound sense of ability. I get in my car and drive home, another week, another meeting. I could have joined the Atkins revolution, or Jenny Craig, LA Weight Loss Center, South Beach Diet, Dr. Phil, E-diets, Hydroxicut, Slim Fast, The Zone, or good old Bulimia, but they’re all the same. My leader tells us to visualize our goal and it will help us make the right choices throughout the week. When I close my eyes, I imagine a Monday night where I don’t have to walk through that door.

Ok back to the bump and grind,

tlujan1 08-07-2006 01:08 PM

Dusty, I love it. My thoughts in your words.

I want more, please!!! I am telling you, a book. You rock. I know that so many of us big girls go through all this....skinny women weighing you in, and all they origianlly had to lose is 5 pounds. I can gain that is 1/2 a week and lose it in three with WW.

I am home watching Camdon distroy room after room. I have no motivation to run after him and clean it up. I found fire ants in his room. We had a rain here in SA and now the bugs want to make my home theirs. Maybe if I cleaned this damn house it wouldn't be so tempting. Got to go...I need to clean.

I would love to say WW is going good but the thing is much of the time I can eat the right stuff but still gain weight, so we will see on Thurs.


Nightkatt 08-07-2006 08:47 PM

Dusty you definitely have a talent for sure! I think your writing is fantastic .. as for your professor or whatever telling you that you need to change direction .. DONT! You have an amazing talent to be able to put into words what a lot of women (and Im sure men too!) think but cannot express ... and although there are millions of self help books out there, they are all these positive vibe things that dont take you on the full journey, it tells you to think positive and express yourself in a non-negative fashion so that when you do think negatively you feel like you have failed or done something wrong!

On the other hand .. when you read your words you stop and think and realise that those sorts of thoughts are what is REALLY going on inside you, but you just never knew how to give a voice to them .. that is where your words are amazing. Hunny, if you ever get a chance ... bind them up and go to somewhere that can publish them ... heck .. make it a serial in a magazine even ...

Im so sick of reading all these positive stories (great that people have achieved them so please dont take offence) .. but they are usually the end of the journey, not the whirlwind of emotions that buzz round like a rollercoaster ... its making it clear what we larger than life people really think and feel, how we see the world and that no .. we arent all jolly fat people and our insecurities arent made any easier by the way society looks at us either.

Keep up the fantastic work .. and dont let anyone tell you to change it .. its raw and its honest .. and we need more reading like that to wake us up and get us thinking and expressing ourselves :)


youwin67 08-10-2006 07:33 PM

Thanks for the encouragement guys!! it's nice to have some readers who appreciate. I will put more up eventually. For now, I am off to Florida, and we are driving all the way. Unloading the 17 foot truck in the florida heat....NO THANKS! But also no choice! Uhg! Everybody do a sexy fat lady rain dance for me. Thankfully--fat dancers always get the attention of the gods! Someone should have told those men who always sacrafice the tiny hot virgins eh? ok enough of this discourse! I am off. Hope to see you all in a few days!! I will update you on my life as soon as I have a keyboard at my ready steady go!

A lit bit off from the bump and grind, but gyrating nonetheless.

tlujan1 08-11-2006 01:09 PM

Hi you all, I am finally back down to 346. I have a thing, I am not going to change my ticker when I go up, I refuse to. I lost 6.4 lbs this week. I was really hoping that I went down, I was sick of gaining. I will keep tracking and see what happens.

Camdon has another appointment on the 28th in Dallas. Fun. I hate the drive, but I think we are finally getting somewhere with his problems.

Dusty, stay away from the gattors...they bite. Best wishes in Florida, you might meet some fine hot Latino there. Best wishes for your brother...coming from a mom that has a child with special needs....YOU GO GET THEM AND SHOW THE WORLD WHAT YOU CAN DO!!!! Society tries to hold them back, I hate it. I have a friend who has a son who has to use a computer to write with speaking, and she said it was so hard to find a college that would accomidate his needs. It sucks. I know there were a few times I had to be in a wheel chair...no fun. I have a bad back and sometimes it is so bad my legs give out and I can't walk. My spinal cord get swollen. Thank God it only happens every once in a while, and not all the time. I can take drugs to bring down the swelling.

Enough about me. I hope you all are doing good. See you in a couple of days, off to the beach this weekend for a get away.

I will do my little rain dance for you Dusty.


Nightkatt 08-11-2006 11:59 PM

Great work Tanya .. keep up the great positive work :)

Sevryn 08-12-2006 03:32 PM

Hey gals... um, can I come in? I'm not in my 30s yet, but my 30th birthday is in less than four months now. :yikes: :fr:

ryanmi72 08-12-2006 05:26 PM

Hello Gals,

I actually was posting here a few months ago, but fell off a bit, now I'm back-OK if I join you once again? I'm Michelle. I'm 33 and work in Higher Ed. I am looking to lose about 120 lbs-I probably should lose more, but my goal is to be healthier and feel better more so than a specific number...

Looks like there are lots of new faces here since May...very exciting!

Nightkatt 08-12-2006 07:32 PM

SabrinaFaire & Ryanmi WELCOME BACK AND IN!!! Great to see you on the boards and Sabrina you are more than welcome to join in as really you ARE in your 30th year of life :)

Hope to see you both posting and letting us know how things are and what you are doing (which plan if any) .. highs and lows etc.


tlujan1 08-14-2006 02:34 PM

Hey girls, back from the beach. Had a great time. Went up with some friends of ours and had a great time. It was really cool there for a change. Got a little more tanned but my legs and butt are still as white as a ghost. We ate dinner early and then took a strole on the beach. The water was warm...so nice. I think it was the nicest time we ever had there on the coast.

I have been doing good on WW. Been tracking. My new doctor started me on Byetta, and it has helped me so much. My sugar levels have been really good. The main problem that I have is the dropping of my sugar, it gets really low and then I eat and then it spikes up again. By the end of the day you are so tired. With Byetta, it keeps you level. You get slight ups and downs, but not drastic ones. I was sweating like I was going through menipause...now that has stopped. Hopefully this is all I needed. It is also supposed to help me lose weight. We will see.

Welcome back Michelle, and welcome Sabrina. You do not need to be 30 to be part of our rockin group. Feel free to post and have fun.

Well, my schedule it packed with doctor appt. for Camdon. I have been trying to get Camdon in to see a Neuro-opthamologist, because he is losing his sight because of the stroke he had and because of innercranio pressure from the fused sutures. Really frustrating, because they just are not as urgent as I want them to be. This poor kid has gone through so much. I have to remember to fill out the paper work for his service dog. The rate things are going he is going to need the dog for his sight and seizures. But, he is still the cutest boy you will ever know. He is so cute...not just because he is my kid, of coarce not.

Well, until later...take care.


tlujan1 08-17-2006 12:06 PM

DOWN 4.8 POUNDS!!!!!! I am finally over this hump, or going back and forth. The true test is when I go out of town next week. I need to stick to it.

Just wanted to post that.


tlujan1 08-25-2006 05:41 PM

Where is everybody????

Sevryn 08-25-2006 09:44 PM

I'm at my computer ;)

Obsidianbbw 08-28-2006 06:56 PM

hiya...A newbie Here
Well I have been looking for some place I felt comfortable on the boards that wasn't a challenge. You all seems like a nice bunch of folks.

I am not on any specific diet plan, more trying to cut out bad habits (ie no fast food, more water, more veggies, less eating out). I have started back with my walk away the ponunds tapes yesterday and still feeling ok. I refused to get on a scale because it is always so emotional. Me just knowing I had lost and the scale telling me I had either not lost or horror of horrors I had gained......so I my goal right now is to be consistent with the exercise and eating for a month and then weigh myself.

My Current motivation is my boyfriend says he wants me around for 50 years and he loves me just the way I am. I just feel like on the road I am on I will be popping pills for high blood pressure, or diabetes or something else and not be around as long as I could be. Also a more selfish reason I want to be able to get on a roller coaster with out having to worry if I can fit...

As for support, I think it is what others have said an ear to bend and the occasional shoulder to lean on. I always hate when you tell people you are trying to lose weight and if you fall off the wagon they give you the sad face.

Well anyway...Hiya....:carrot:

chubbystress 08-29-2006 01:43 PM

turn 30 this year hope it is the year i get down in size
hello ladies hope it is not to late to hop in here a join your group....;)
i have a problem how can i eat healthy when my family won't, they bi*ch if i fix something good for them..... any one have this problem...:dizzy:

Obsidianbbw 08-29-2006 01:57 PM

Hope this Helps
I would try out recipes that are healthy and taste good and possibly not tell them them it is a healthy dish so they aren't biased before hand. Or make something for yourself that smells wonderful while the eat something they have had before to get the curious. What kinda of foods are you trying to eat?

Obsidianbbw 08-30-2006 09:38 AM

Well I didn't work out yesterday and I realize I don't really want to work out everyday....so I am aiming for 4 days a week. Mon and wed are done. I had an uncle in the hospital so yesterday was a trip to sit with my aunt and grandmother. Also while I didn't work out Tuesday I managed not to get the snack I usually get on the way home from grandmas house. I am realizing there are certain things that I am just used to doing....One is grabbing something while I am in the car...as if it doesn't count while I am in the car. Also I notice if I eat breakfast at home I want to eat as soon as I come out of the train station. Anyway, so working on changing the bad habits.

Hope everyone else is having a good week.

tlujan1 08-30-2006 12:26 PM

Welcome to the group girls, It is nice to have new people to talk to, and get support from. There has been a lot of women come and go, but there is always somebody on here.

I have been really stressed out. Driving back and forth from San Antonio to Dallas for my sons doctors appointment. I have been eating like crazy, so I am sure I am going to go up this week.I went up 2 pounds last week. I am sure I went up this week. I dont feel the weight gain...you know how you can tell when you gain...i just know that I have been eating like crazy.

I am goign to work more on the next week. Just as long as I do not put everything back. I am still down 20 lbs. I do not want to go back.

My hubby loves fast food and junk...real high fat foods. I prepare healthy food as well. I would just keep preparing it, and let them complain...if they want something different then they have to make it on their own or not eat. For my DH and son, they eat what they get...if they dont want it then eat something else but I am only preparing one meal.

Well, I have tons to do today. Tanya

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