300+ And Ready to Try Again...#710
 

Good morning!

Just a quick post since I started a thread.

I was glad to see Scott sent home just because of his attitude. I think at times, both Anthony and Scott can sing well but they are not Idol material. IMHO

I finally got up to do morning exercise. 20 minutes of pilates and 22 minutes on the spinner. Its a start at getting back to my routine.

I didn't get anything done last night. DH sold his scooter yesterday and wanted to go look at a show saddle for me. Fine but the lady in the store drags out this awesome saddle that was more than I had wanted to spend. We ended up taking it out to put on Tanyah to see if the color is right and if it fit well. That pretty much killed my evening of productivity. I will be glad when DH gets this business off the ground and is busy all day and WANTS to stay at home at night. :lol:

Food was okay even though we ended up with pizza last night. It was thin crust and I do light cheese. I dipped into my flex points some but that's what its for. So yay me.

Julee - Got your PM. Great loss!!!

Okay, I have to hit the shower now.

Welcome to all the new faces!!!!

Still here
 

Hi. I'm still here (new, but still hanging around).

I've had a horrible time of it lately, but I thought if I came here, it might inspire me.

I was on vacation recently and my eating started going downhill a few days before vacation (talk about a girl gone wild). I have gained 7 pounds in the last 2 1/2 weeks! (I can't stop myself.)

Does anyone else sabotage themselves? Do you know why you do it, or how to stop?

I'm really annoyed because I had been doing really, really well. I do this all the time. As soon as I realize I'm doing well, I blow it. It's like a reflex or something. It's crazy! :dizzy:

I guess the fact that I'm still coming back is a good sign though.

Oh well. That's my 2 cents worth!

Happy day, everyone.

HELLO ALL! I would love to join in, share the successes and help motivate! I'm from NYC, lived in NJ most of my life. (I'm 27) Now I live in the UK with my hubby (Hey can someone tell me what DH stands for? and SH etc? lol) I picked up the dh means partner somehow.

Anyway, As you can see from my signature I have a mighty long way to go. I can't believe I was nearly 300 lbs! I'm only 5'3" and I didn't think I looked that large. But my fear of scales kept me in the dark on that one for quite a while.

Tasha, I have spent most of my life sabotaging my dramatic promises to lose weight. I think it has to do with fear. We are so afraid of feeling out of control and failing that we take control and DECIDE to fail! It sounds so stupid but I do it everytime - except this one. I have this ridiculous fear that I will deprive myself of chocolate, bread, sweets, and rice, exercise like a maniac and still not achieve any weight loss. Ludicrous, I know! But, I've reached the point now where it's a medical issue. I already have a bad knee with arthritis, I developed sciatica and am in a great deal of pain on a daily basis. A few months ago I started to feel sharp chest pains and I was getting out of breath from just walking and talking. At my old job, I worked on the 5th floor. We had a fire drill and had to take the stairs. I nearly passed out at the top and felt I couldn't get any air in! I'm only 27!

I realize that Exercise helps relieve the pain in my leg, it keeps me less winded, and makes me feel more in touch with my body. Eating a well balanced, refined sugar low diet makes me feel better, more energetic, and less depressed. I have reached the point where I am focusing more on these non-scale related benefits. Whenever I feel the urge to sabotage I concentrate on these things because 147 lbs is such a long way to go! I also concentrate now on mini weight loss goals like my 5lb May challenge. Whether my brain can believe it or not, with these changes, I have a better chance of losing weight than stuffing 4 cookies in my mouth.

Tash, I hope you find your motivation soon - aim to lose 1 lb in 2 weeks or something. Even the smallest thing helps!

Good luck and best wishes.

Hey guys -

I'm feeling rather crappy today, mostly because I think we're closing in on yet another 2X2 challenge and I doubt I lost anything. I've been exercising religiously though, go figure. Fitday has been helping me keep track of stuff more though. I NEED TO EAT LESS CARBS AND SUGAR, LOL. I know that is why I am not losing and just hanging around at the same weight week after week, because I'm only eating about 1700-1800 calories a day.

Catherine I know you went through this..gah...do you suggest I eat more or less or what because this is so frusterating to me, I am just so disgusted with myself because I feel like yet again I am failing.

Ok, sorry for the negative vibe but GRAH! I am just SOOOO pissed off with myself.

Good morning everyone. :wave:
Welcome to all you newcomers !!!!

Biggirl... DH usually stands for "Dear Husband". But sometimes it stands for "Dumb Husband" :lol: SO stands for "Significant Other" ....TTFN stands "Ta ta for now" ... LOL is "laugh out loud" ... WI is "weigh in". There is an ongoing joke here that includes that WI stands for Wisconsin so often you will see "WI (not Wisc)"
There is also DD "darling daugher" ... DS "darling son" ... DIL "daughter in law" etc etc.

I am off to a good day. Will check in more later.
Make it a good day !!!

2cute thanks for that... my head was reeling with all the acronyms!

Morning everyone! :wave: I just wanted to get this information out while I was thinking about it. Some time ago there was a discussion going on here about what to do with the irratation that occurs in our crevices. Anyway, I went to the Women's Expo here last weekend and I got a sample of a new product called Smoothing Care, Chafing Relief Powder-Gel. It's made by Monistat. I have not tried it yet as I don't have any of those "areas" right now, but I'm sure they'll be coming as the weather heats up.

Gotta get some paperwork done. See ya later.

Oh, I almost forgot,
BIGGIRL: Welcome. Glad you joined us.

Twinkled: Welcome to you as well. No, you don't have to redo your tracker every time. Make your tracker and copy the URL like it tells you to. Then you can go to the upper right hand corner of the screen and you'll see "userCP". Click there and then you'll see some choices along the left side of the screen. Choose "edit signature". Then you can paste the tracker URL into your signature and it will be there until you change it again. Hope that helped.

Ok, now I'm really going. Later............

Good morning Ladies....one more day til Friday Woohoo!!!

I know what you mean, Tasha I tend to sabotage myself too. It starts with thinking how well I'm doing (which is fine) then moves to I'm doing so well, I should treat myself (which is also fine) then become I'm doing so well, I should treat myself with food or skipping exercise (which is the point, at which I sabotage myself). It seems to come from two places...habit and fear. Even as a kid, 'treating myself' tended to come in the form of food. I think I kind of picked it up from my mom and I find that I do it with my residents too...for instance, when I feel like treating them, it's generally a trip to Baskin Robbins for ice cream. I know it's an ingrained habit and one of the things I'm working on. Not that I think I should stop treating myself, I just need to work on the treat being non food related, maybe going out to buy a new book or going to a movie *leaving extra money at home so I can't be tempted by the popcorn stand*. The main problem with that is that I can be a bit lazy and the fridge is much closer than the bookstore lol.
I agree Big, it seems like many people (myself included) are, subconsciously, afraid of change. It's almost a two edge sword, if you try, you may fail, which is a scary enough in itself or you might succeed, which is frightening in it's own way. No matter how much you might wish for something different, doing things the way you have always done them,deep down, just feels right even though it may not be best in the long run.
Since it's thankful thursday, I am thankful for my residents (I mangage a group home for 6 adults with developmental disabilities). It's a bit like having children and it gives me something outside of myself to think, care and worry about. In a way, they are an inspiration because they generally take life as it comes. When it's time to get up they are up. When it's time to go to work, they are walking out the door. It doesn't seem to occur to them to complain or procrastinate (unlike me...I set the clock a 1/2 hour early so I can hit the snooze a few times). :s:
Anyway, time to get some paperwork done, so have a good day everyone.

BTW Thin, I'd be very curious to hear how well the anti-chafing powder works. I saw a commercial for it a few days ago and I was thinking about picking some up the next time I'm at the store...No problems at the moment but summer is coming and I live in Southern California so I do run into problems sometimes.

Good Morning Ladies!

First, let me say Hello and Welcome to KecharaEQ, Biggirl, Shadypurple, Futurediva, TwinkledPink and any other of our many newbies I may have missed in the past. This is such a great place. I'm so glad I found this group and I'm sure you'll find the support you need here!

Now, I seriously need a kick in the butt! It could be the fact that I've been losing or maybe that my clothes are getting big or maybe it's spring fever, but I'm getting lazy. DH actually suggested we get back on track by going to the Y last night, and I said no, we have yard work to do. And we did do some yard work, but first we went out and had our usual fajita's for dinner. So not only did I not exercise, but I ate junk in the middle of the week. In all fairness to myself, I ordered chicken and only ate 1/2, and brought the other 1/2 for lunch on a salad today, but still! :mad: Not happy with myself today!

Okay, so-what am I going to do about it? I don't know.

It was actually a somewhat productive evening. We did tear up this flower box we've been needing to get rid of and made some headway with our re-sculpting of our lawn. We never even turned on the TV last night...(which actually means we missed Lost and I didn't realize it until it was too late.) I'm not sure I screwed up my points, since I only had 16 to start with so I had 17 or so to eat, plus flex. And then we had a nice time, sitting by the firepit and drinking our favorite wine. But I can't be doing this stuff mid-week and expect to meet my goals, darn it. I already had a fattening weekend! And I've become very exercise apathetic since Vegas.

Okay, today is another day. I'm going to watch my points as best I can, since I'm not sure about that chicken, and drink my water - which is another thing I didn't do yesterday.

But I still need that kick in the butt.

Ugh..I woke up this morning at 6:30 am with the most painful leg cramp...not a normal charlie horse in the back of my calf but this one was in the front and for the life of me I could not get it to release...I finally hobbled to the bathroom and somehow sitting down helped it..but wow what pain. Then my leg was sore and I decided to go back to bed for a few minutes...which somehow became 2 hours...oh well.

Kechara...I'm in LA...where in SoCal are you?

So i need to get my tush in mostion and get some breakfast and shower. I think that today is the day they are supposed to be filming a McDonlads commercial around the corner so who knows what sort of mess will be out there when I leave.

Have a great day...welcome new chickies!

Originally Posted by Tashabella:
Hi. I'm still here (new, but still hanging around).

I've had a horrible time of it lately, but I thought if I came here, it might inspire me.

I was on vacation recently and my eating started going downhill a few days before vacation (talk about a girl gone wild). I have gained 7 pounds in the last 2 1/2 weeks! (I can't stop myself.)

Does anyone else sabotage themselves? Do you know why you do it, or how to stop?

I'm really annoyed because I had been doing really, really well. I do this all the time. As soon as I realize I'm doing well, I blow it. It's like a reflex or something. It's crazy! :dizzy:

I guess the fact that I'm still coming back is a good sign though.

Oh well. That's my 2 cents worth!

Happy day, everyone.

Hey, you have almost the same goal I do.

Anyways, I weigh over 300lbs and am ready to get healthy...I don't want to get any bigger than I am already.

Tashabella-Self Sabotage. That used to be a biggy for me. I think the main thing is just a feeling of avoiding change. Fat is at least familiar. Sometimes I would tell myself that I deserved to eat what I wanted. Sometimes it would be that I felt so worthless, what did it matter. The worst part is that right now I can not tell you how I stopped doing it. It is like a light came on. I finally, really feel like I deserve a better life. I have often described it as finally growing up and being able to tell myself no. It is embarrassing that I was in my 40's before growing up. Abuse survivors, alcoholics, addicts, etc. are often said to have stopped their emotional development at the point of their trauma or starting their addiction. I believe that happened to me. It was as if everytime I looked in the mirror, and saw myself large, I was emotionally transported back to that point of my childhood where it first hit me that I was different or damaged. It is hard to deal with major life changes while emotionally reacting to the situation like we were still a child or teenager. I also had the advantage of moving away from home. I am away from all of the places and things that remind me of that past. Recovering alcoholics and addicts often have to do the same thing. Give yourself some slack, and try to be gentle with yourself. Then view your decisions as if you were making the choice for your child and not for yourself. We will often give into ourselves about something that we would never allow our own children to do. I think that's how I was finally able to start telling myself no.

Missmeliss-Plateau horrors. I had 5 months of it. If I had cheated, it would have been so much easier to endure. I worked so hard, and had nothing to show for it. Unfortunately the beginning of the plateau coincided with my cutting off communication with my mother. I was truly convinced that God was punishing me for breaking the 5th commandment. One week I would refuse to go to church out of anger, and then the next week I was practically doing the Liturgy of Hours everyday (long Catholic prayer usually only done at big things like ordinations or pope funerals). I saw two shows on tv that helped me understand what was going on. An episode of Celebrity Fit Club and one of National Body Challenge dealt with this very issue. The first one was a guy who was exercising like crazy and not losing weight. They figured with him that he was converting fat to muscle. The second was a woman that they figured just wasn't eating enough calories. I had been losing steadily on 1,200 a day. My plateau hit right after I started walking. I was converting in addition to needing more calories. I finally settled at 1,650-1,850. I think the biggest difference has been the pool. I don't know why, and don't care. You have to tinker. Everyone is different. Just don't give up. I am embarrassed to say that I never considered giving up because I had the notion that I was being punished. I can think of no greater punishment than to work like a dog, and have nothing to show for it. It is so demoralizing. In the end, it is like cleaning out an old garage. You just have to endure it, take it one piece at a time, and know that eventually it will be clean. Hang in there.

Thinthinker-I've always called it "Fold Irritation." When you get to be 600 lbs., you can't clean like you should, and it can be pretty bad. I always used diaper rash ointment with zinc oxide. That worked for years until last summer. I was doing over 1,000 sit ups a day because it was the only exercise I could do at the time. 4 hurricanes tend to cause some humidity issues, and the ointment didn't work. I had to get a prescription for an anti-fungal. One thing that did help, was freezing dry washrags, and then taking them out of the freezer and stuffing them in the fold. It had a cooling and drying effect. We used to use cut up t-shirts to do the same thing when I was a kid and had prickly heat.

Now for me, I am having a very thankful Thursday. I had an eye exam late yesterday afternoon. My roommate had agreed to drive me since I had to be dialated. She decided to overmedicate instead. I took the bus. I also missed the bus coming back. I couldn't read the schedule to see if another was coming, because I couldn't see well enough to read it. So I started walking. It was about 2 miles. The longest I had walked was 1 mile. I still weigh 380 lbs. I have a really bad knee that doesn't have an ACL or cartilage any more and is arthritic. My back was injured so badly that I still can't stand up completely straight. I tore muscles, tendons, ruptured disks, and have much sciatic trouble. With all that, the biggest mountain I have is still fear. I am constantly afraid of getting somewhere and not being able to make it home without help. Eight years of depending on a wheelchair have left me without confidence. The wheelchair was a powerful safety net. I stopped having to worry about whether a restaurant or movie would have a seat for me. I took mine with me. The walk home from the eye doctor was like flying a trapeze without a safetynet. It wasn't real hot, but very humid. By the time I got home, I was drenched and dripping. I told my roommate that no amount of her being angry or disappointed in herself for letting me down could take from me my triumph. Every step gave me a boost of confidence. It may be time for me to donate my wheelchair to charity. I can't imagine going back to it now. How many of you are hanging on to your fat clothes? I remember how hard it was to part with them the last time I had a big weight loss. God has given me such a wonderful gift that at first seemed like it was going to be a horrible crisis. I'm going to be in pain today, but I don't care. I earned it.

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A brief history, I've been dieting for the last 10 years straight and have lost the same 10 pounds over and over and over (I've been overweight for 25 years). I went to a shrink last year and found out some interesting stuff. Now I know why, but I still can't stop. I even joined a gym last year.

I did learn that the only one who can do it is me -- the answer is not in anyone else. I am healthier on the whole and I know I'm making strides because I've been able to set limits with people who trigger my eating and I was recently able to stay OP for two weeks straight (I haven't done that in years).

I also have health problems and HAVE to get this weight off (I have a heart disease gene). I am having trouble walking, pain, etc. I know the drill and that should be enough, but that doesn't do anything for me either.

I'm encouraged by the fact that I keep getting back on the wagon, but it just isn't going anywhere. It's very puzzling!

Thank you guys for your support. I really need your encouragement right now. I'm at a loss (and not poundswise).

By the way...
 

By the way, Catherine, you are one heck of a motivator if I ever saw one. You have come so far!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey ladies!

I have not been around on this board much lately, so I wanted to stop in and say hey. My schedule is still insanely crazy (leave the house at 5:30am and get home at 11pm 4 days a week), so I apologize for the major slacking in posts. I'm still hanging in there, thgouh. I'm down another 1/2 pound this week, which brings me to 299.5--BELOW 300!! It's only been 11 pounds total loss since I began in January, but as long as the scale is staying the same or going down (no matter how slowly), I know I am not doing any further harm to myself, only good.

Catherine, as soon as I begin actually dropping dress sizes (and not just fitting into my current clothes a little better), you bet I'll be getting rid of my bigger clothes! There's no need to keep them around. If they are there, then I will always think, hey, it's okay if I gaina few pounds back. I've got clothes that will fit. NOT GOOD! So do it...get rid of the wheelchair! You certainly don't need it anymore, as you just walked 2 miles in your stronger, healthier body. Buh-bye wheelchair, hello independence and confidence!

Hello to all the newcomers (not that I'm really a familiar face around here myself anymore)!

Have an appointment for my hair in a few minutes, so not enough time to really catch up.

I wanted to share in re: Dogpal's story about fitting into seats. One good, one bad. Bad first: My EH and I used to go to a restaurant where the seats were kind of rickety, and I would always tell him I was uncomfortable because I was afraid I would break a chair. He pooh-poohed my worry, but one day it happened, out of nowhere--chair just collapsed under me. Good (and Thankful on Thursday): The weight I lost last summer has let me fit more comfortably into a number of seats that used to be a tight squeeze. Every time I sit in one and find I fit, I get a moment of happy-happy-joy-joy. I use that thought as a motivator now, every time I find myself NOT fitting somewhere else.

Welcome, TwinkledPink, and others!

Jilly! Hi there! I've been wondering about you! Boy, you are busy...but, YEA for you! Welcome to twoterville! :bravo: Feels good to not see that "3" doesn't it?

Catherine: As always, you are an inspiration! I am sure that two miles felt like 20, but, know what? I'm not at all surprised you made it - you strike me as a very strong and determined woman. :bravo: to you too! Doesn't sound to me like that wheelchair has any place in your life anymore.

I'm considering your tale the kick in the butt I asked for-Time to get real again. Taking it easy is what got me fat in the first place.

Tashabella: Virtually every person in my family that is dead died of some sort of heart disease. A year and 1/2 ago I was in the hospital for four days when my blood pressure jumped to 210/135 and my heart arrythmia went nuts. At 41 I now take three different blood pressure meds to control hypertension. I've always known that my weight was making things worse. This is no longer something I can ignore. I have found a lot of support and encouragement here and I'm sure you will to. No more sabotage - we can do this!

Freakshow: Welcome! :wave:

Look, new smilies! :tantrum: :woo: :ebike: :wl: I just had to be the first to use them!!!

On the subject of giving away your fat clothes. I did that last time I lost down to a size 18...gave away, sold or had the most expensive ones altered. I now have a closet full of very nice, too small, clothes. I suppose I'll give away the fat clothes again-but it will be harder this time. At least I won't have to buy new skinny clothes! Funny really, you keep the skinny clothes because you are sure you'll get back in them some day-what are you hoping for if you keep the fat clothes? :dunno:

Well, back to work - later 'gaters!

Originally Posted by BIGGIRL27:
I have this ridiculous fear that I will deprive myself of chocolate, bread, sweets, and rice, exercise like a maniac and still not achieve any weight loss. . .

I think you just nailed my #1 problem.

I shortened my regular workout a little today at the Y because I had to do the neon blackboard before I could go home. As I was working on it up front, an older gentlemen walked past me on his way out. I see him on the track every day and one of the directors once told me he had joined the Y to improve his health after suffering a stroke. He stopped to give me a wink and tell me not to give up with the track and the "reject room" (the smaller workout area where they keep the old, leftover exercise equipment) because I was bound to see progress. I really appreciated the encouragement; it wasn't something I expected to hear from a stranger. He told me he could barely last ten minutes when he started and now he works out for a full hour. He's lost about the same amount as me, but it's a lot more obvious on him since he was a lot smaller to begin with.

That's another one of my frustrations. It's silly, but 30 pounds used to make a huge difference on me, and now that I've gotten so big, I can't notice much of a change at all. That can get a little discouraging when I've had to work so hard. That's why it's so easy to revert back to those old, bad habits. It's the mindset that why should I give up the things I like when it doesn't seem to make any difference? So I have to remind myself that it will make a difference over time.

Well, I'm gonna hit Aldi's for some groceries tomorrow. How long have they had those new healthier snacks now? Man, I really missed out on some good deals by skipping that place in favor of a store with a larger selection!

Thankful Thursday what a concept!!
 

Greetings gorgous gang. Today Im thankful for today! So far I have kept up with the my personal changes and an pleased with my self. I find evenings to be a challenge due that being the time the family starts in with food. I have some demented subconscience fear that even if I dont want something at the time that I have to eat some so I get my share before its all gone. This is not a childhood teaching because my mom was very generous but I do remember that still being the feeling I had even then. I dont have to eat much of it, just enough to feel like "they didn"t get it all" I'm doing alot of self talk that I am cheated if I do eat it. I bought snacks and sugar free candies for myself but when a family member eats something "diet" i feel angery. Thats mine and you don't need it. That is still a sick thinking. Any ideas?? I have to cut this thinking out and I know it will push me forward. This is a BIG baby step for me. But I am thankful that I know what Im need to replace to make things better.
Welcome to my friend Twinkled Pink. She is a very close friend and I had to share you great people with her. She is awsome and fighting as hard as I am. We're making babay steps together .
Cathrine: you make me feel like I CAN do this. You describe me almost in every word you write. Thank you for telling OUR story. I also have a wheel chair for ventures out side home. I take my chair that fits with me too. It was my moms chair and I have to get rid of it because I know its not the legasy she wanted to leave me.
Have a powerful day of strength everyone.

Catherine..and here I thought I was the only one watching Celebrity Fit Club. I actually liked what they did because they set reasonable goals for them and they were in 2 week intervals. They had them eating the correct amounts of food as well...and not trying to have them starve themselves on grapefruit and meal replacements. Kudos to you on your walk...it's amazing what we will find ourselves doing when we are left to our own devices.

Last night our WW leader said something interesting about numbers..she said that the number we weigh on the way up seems much larger than it does on the way down. For example...320 seems huge when you are starting there...but suddenly you weigh 315 and wow!

I only posted a .8 loss but I am now down to 275 (and a few tenths) and compared to where I began..and where I feared I was going to end up..I really feel great. I know I still have a ways to go...but I'm geting closer to my driver's license weight..so that's something.

You each have such amazing stories and I am thankful today to have people to help me along in my journey. Last night we talked a little about our "aha monets" when we realized that enough was enough and it was time to make a substantial change in our lives. One woman talked about her husband having a back injury and she had to carry a 50 lb. bag of rock salt...and then she realized that she was carrying that around..and then some...every day of her life. Then I realized that I had about 3 bags of rock salt on me....wow.

It is a very scary concept to lose half your body weight...or more as the case may be. On the days when you get stuck and frustrated...stop thinking about the lopng term goal...baby step it. It will never all happen at once, so thinking that it will cannot possibly help. Take it 5 lbs...or even 1 lb at a time. Keep your goals and your mini-goals, but praise yourself for each step you take towards it. And remember...ANY loss is a loss...losing .1 is better than gaining anything. And on weeks that you do post a gain..ok...so you gained...look back at your week and what happened...own it and fix it..and start the next week with a blank slate. The other thing you have to remember is that your end goal is not going to be the end of your wight loss struggles. Committing to a new lifestyle where you are eating and living better and losing weight is a life-long commitment. Hopefully the good habits we are developing now will stick with us down the road...but don't fool yourself into thinking that when you finally reach goal that then it will be fine for you to go back to eating the way you used to.

I thought about having a burger from Burger King the other day...I looked at the Points values for different things and said to myself "yeah, I can afford the points and I'll just stay totally on core for the other days" but then I also realized that i wasn't sure that if I ate that one burger if I'd be able to stop there...or if I would want another one the week after and so on...so I decided not to. But those are my choices. The more comfortable I get in this process, the more willing I will be to eat those types of foods in moderation..but for now...I'm just not there. And I'm OK with it. And no I really don't feel deprived...I have eaten chocolate, cheese (and not just fat-free), pepperoni, cookies, ice cream cones and lots of other stuff...cause I can assure you...if I had to wholesale cut out those types of foods...I'd just cut off body parts to lose weight that way instead :)

Ok...that was my afternoon vent...talk to you later!!!

Hello everyone. :wave: A special welcome to all the new chickies. You will love it here.

Thankful Thursday has been a good day for me. I went to swim and stayed there quite a while. I always feel so much better after a good swim. I have lots of homework to do and should get to it but I wanted to say a quick hello to everyone. Hope you all have a wonderful night.

Blessings,
Dogpal

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Hi chickies,

I keep telling myself I will post more often, but then I read the other posts and let it slide.
Shadiepurple, Dogpal, Tashabella, BIGGIRL27, KecharaEQ, TwinkledPink and anyother newbies, Welcome, Welcome!
I too, tend to sabotage my efforts. Then I have a sit down talk with myself and remind me I can do this. I had a counselor several years ago tell me I used my weight
like armour. I could protect myself when people were mean by thinking they were mean to this fat body not to the real me. But if I change and lose my armour then I will be exposed to the world. I keep reminding myself that I should “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter, don’t mind.”
~Dr Seuss
And I start chipping away at that Armour again!

2cute- we go to OKC to see family and usually go down I-35, but sometime when we have extra time we can come through the tulsa area and hook up for a bit.

Jill- glad to see you are still around!!
Everyone else, have a blessed evening.
I have to go cook something healthy.

Oh, for thankful thursday, I am thankful for you all.

sabotage
Wow, did you call my number!!! That's the story of my life, and I wish there was a magic pill I could take to stop it. But until then, I guess I just have to keep fighting it.

Barbg

Hello ladies! Im up bright and early to start a long stretch of workig days:(, but i wanted to tae the time to welcome all the new posters:). For my thankful thursday, i am thankful for the following:
My family
My friends
My choice to acheive better health
This board:)
I hope everyone has a great day. Thanks for all the inspiration.

True, true, true
 

Everyone's words hit home with me. And I also found some motivation that I wasn't expecting when I got winded walking in the grocery store last night -- that has never happened to me and it was an eye-opener.

I have changed my signature to reflect a short term goal (I'm going to need a lot of little ones along the way to make it).

Thank you guys so much for your support. It's so nice to be where people understand.

Julee -- You are right. This is a lifetime thing. I've been battling my weight for 25 years -- I'm crazy if I think the battle will be over if the weight is lost. Even if I weighed 105 pounds, I'd still have to exercise and eat right to protect my heart from heart disease. Thanks for your help in putting things into perspective.

I knew I would find the help I needed here!!!

Wish me luck. Today is my first step toward the 200s.

Good Morning Ladies!

And a beautiful morning it is! It's FRIDAY, it's casual day and it's a 3-day weekend!!! :goodvibes How much better could it get? Get through my four hearings this morning and it's clear sailing!

For once I'm actually checking in in the morning! DS has to be at school early on Fridays and so I have to leave the house early and therefore may as well be at work early. You'd know that the one day I actually could be early enough to catch the employee shuttle and not worry about parking would be the only day I really need my car because it's WI day.

I'm feeling okay about WI today. They make great cheese there. :lol3: HA!

Seriously, I know I haven't been the best this week. I know that I need to shape up, and fully intend to starting today. But even if I maintained, I'll be happy and if I lost I'll be estatic, so it's a win-win situation. I'm pretty sure I haven't gained. But on the off chance I did, I'll live and learn. So, WI is being faced bravely today. :yes: It'll be fine.

Planted my veggies last night. I have snow peas, chives, spinich, lettuce, cucumbers, cantalope, green beans, zucchini and basil. I still have to put in tomatoes and peppers. I also planted marigolds and bachelor buttons, just for some color and to draw the bugs away from the veggies. That sounds like a lot, but there will only be 2-5 plants each after thinning and that ought to be perfect for me and DH. The only thing DS will help us eat will be the cantalope! Maybe the beans and cukes, but I doubt it. Wish I could figure out how to make him like veggies. He's a skinny little kid now, but I'd really like him to stay that way when he grows up!

Well, I'm officially late for work, after arriving 20 minutes early, so I best get to it! Wish me WI luck and I'll check back after.

Have a happy, healthy OP day!

Tasha...glad that I could help. I take very very little credit for the things I write. I get so much of it from my WW leader because prior to February they are not thoughts that I ever had in my head.

Lilion...if your boys won't eat your veggies I wil be glad to come over and help you with them...especially the fresh basil..YUM! Maybe you can out some good WI cheese on them...LOL.

Tomorrow moning is the Revlon Run/Walk...wish me luck!

Boy, this board is slooow today! Everyone must be enjoying the lovely spring day, or else they are actually working and don't have time to post. Three of my four hearings ended with a no-show, so I have time to burn...although I suppose I really should be working at work. :sssh:

On the weight-loss front; another 2 bite the dust! :goodscale Like I said, estatic! :D

I will not take this as permission to continue to eat the way I have this week and not exercise. Rather, I'm looking at this loss as proof of how much I used to eat, if I can do what I've been doing and still see a difference. That doesn't mean I don't need to be more healthy too! I'm looking at this as a life-style change, not a short-term quick fix for my lack of clothing options. I'm not trying to look good, get a man or impress anyone-all reasons I've used before for dropping weight-I'm looking to be healthier and live longer. (And if I happen to get sexier and be able to buy off the rack as a side effect, then good for me! ;) ) :lol:

Julee: :goodluck: Feel free to drop by for veggies anytime!

I just realized that I passed 10% with this last drop! :D

Later you lovely losing ladies!

Congratulations Lilion and Julee for more of your weight loss...I haven't seen the scale go down in weeks, I have no idea what I'm doing wrong...I hope I'm converting fat to muscle or something, because this is getting depressing. I'm glad I have fit day though, now I can at least see my trends and tweak my diet and see what will work and what won't.

Bah...I'm annoyed with myself so I'm going to go read. I'm so down, I don't even feel like exercising today because it seems to not be doing me any good.

:p Yeah I know, boo hoo poor Mel, :lol:

Hello everyone!
sorry I haven't posted in a while :( I've been feeling like **** lately.
my ulcer has been acting up .its amazeing but for the last 30 yrs when ever I start to lose wt. my gut rebells big time.
At one time I had the scope put down my thoart and the Dr said that my stomach was the largest he ever seen! so when its empty for long periods of time it hurts so bad. went to the DR's and got a new RX i SURE HOPE IT HELPS.
so when do we wt. for the challenge? I'm going to go now I still feel so bad!
Audrey

Time to notice the little changes!!!!
 

Happy day to all!! I'm feeling very strong today. I have 2 awsome control days and have started my third with gusto. I send out strong vibes for all my fellow fighters here. I'm sooooo fighting the disire to go weigh myself. I want a suprise not a "oh well" for my first weigh in in a year. I plan to weigh in every 2 weeks.

I'm so happy for the loosers here. A BIG YEAHHHH for you all.Your succsess lifts me up almost as much as my own. Please keep sharing. :D

Julee: you were talking about wanting a burger, and you even check on you points first. Think back to when you wouldn't even think twice about a burger or two, maybe fries, a shake?? and now your brain told you to check first! WOW good for you. That is very powerful. You chose power over being a victim to mindless eating. I am soooo guilty of this myself. Eating something and reaching for another bite only to say "hey, where did it go?? I didn't eat it all already, did I?" I want those to be actions of the past. The feel empty. Thanks for helping me identify that I do that to my self. More power to you baby!! :cool:

I guess I've blabbed enough for now. Strength to us all today..Baby steps :smug:

Hello everyone. :cb: I was not feeling very good this morning and noticed that I started to think about what I could eat that will help me feel better. :( So, I decided to come read the boards before I give in. Thank you all for sharing. I know that I won't just eat to be eating today thanks to your posts.

Tashabella: Good luck to you on your step towards the 200's. I myself am stepping towards the 300's :faint: which I haven't seen in many years. Someday I know that I will be where you are and I can't wait. I know it will be so amazing and wonderful when you see less than 300 on your scale as it will be for me to see less than 400 on mine!

Lillion: Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! "Weigh to go" :goodscale I am so happy for your loss!

Julie: Good luck in the Revlon Run/Walk. You will do well. Just that you are going to tackle something like that is so inspirational for me. :bravo: Brave ladies.

MissMelliss: I know how it feels to be working your butt off and following a diet plan thinking that you are really loosing based on how well you have been doing it and then you weigh and the scale doesn't change. :?: Hang in there. I don't know if this is true or not but a weight loss person once told me that if you plateau sometimes it is because you were at that weight for a while on your way up and your body feels comfy or familiar there. Either way. You will break through and just don't give up. Keep on going. We are all here cheering you on. :cheer:

Audrey: So sorry about your ulcer. Don't you just love it when Dr.'s tell you lovely things like that. I mean, I know they are donig their job and all but they could put things in a different way. What did it help for you to hear that you have one of the largest stomach's he has ever seen. He could have just said, Your stomach is large or something. Try not to get too discouraged. I know when you are sick it is so easy to get down and depressed. Hang in there. :^: I will be praying for you to get better soon.

To everyone else, keep your heads up. We will achieve our dreams and goals if we just don't give up. I love all of you here so much and I thank God for this board where I finally don't feel alone. I could never before feel any good feelings about myself. I was very caught in a downhill spiral of thinking I would just die this way. Not anymore. I will not die this way. I will continue to work hard :wl: and take this weight off. AT someone's suggestion I changed my 1st goal from 497 to 180 to a shorter goal 1st. Thank you for that suggestion. It feels less scarry.

Blessings to all of you,
Dogpal,
Andrea

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short goal

Hi,

Well, I thought I better post. I haven't in awhile. I joined um last month sometime. I was sooo excited to join and then POW! I just have no motivation. I hate that I am sooo overweight and yet I just can't get myself to make the effort. It's so very depressing. Especially that I'm over 300 # and that I'm single. I know that if I could just lose 30 # I could do it all. The first 30 is the ones I'm having the hardest time with. I can't get on an exercise routine. I walk on my new treadmill like once a week if I'm lucky. It's right here in front of me... I'm just so unmotivated and feel like it'll never happen. I'm really tired of being fat. So, basically now that that is down in words. *smiles* I need some motivation. Does anyone wanna be an e-mail buddy? I need someone to talk to every day for motivation, SO that weight is ALWAYS on my mind. Calling for help!