Good Morning Ladies! And Hello all the way from Scotland
I am soo sorry for being MIA, I went on holiday to Portugal for a week which was fantastic

and then I started my new job which has been a bit crazy and very very tiring for the most part.
Good news is, Since starting my new healthy lifestyle I am at the lowest weight. I have now lost 21.6lbs which has been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. While on holiday I put on 8lbs :O but managed to get it back off again in just one week, I think it was just all fluid or all cocktails lol.
SamIam: I am sorry that you have been struggling. PCOS is a big B word! It makes everything much harder to deal with. fingers crossed you get a nice boost in confidence which boosts metabolism. Have you tired My Fitness Pal? I know you keep a journal, but MFP is the ONLY thing that keeps me motivated on each meal choice everyday as it shows me exactly how many calories I take in. Every time I stray from it, I gain or maintain.
alyssarof What makes you think that you don't fit in? I am interested to know. Coming from Scotland I used to think that I didn't fit in either, all the food recipes were garbled to me because the UK sells such different meals. If I didn't work in the states for 4 summers as an International Camp Counsellor, I would of had no idea about half the stuff everyone talks about. We even use different weight measurements and clothes measurements and shoe size measurements. However, while the community has been rather quiet recently, we all have one thing in common. That is, that we are willing to listen..... I hope you start to feel a little better about the community.
Opeha: First of all WELCOME!!!!!!!
My Advice..... Start slow, one thing at a time. You say you eat healthy for the most part and drink mostly water each day, that's great!!! If you haven't already, maybe first move to drink only water or tea all day. Maybe treat yourself to a Zero calorie soda at the weekend? If you haven't started tracking your meals, start now! I use my fitness pal, at first just track.... find out roughly how many calories you normally eat every day. Then start to reduce the calorie intake until you start to see movement on the scales. I work in an office environment, I am also awaiting surgery for really bad elbows (both of them) which really affects my exercise. I can walk/try and run, do sit ups and stuff like that, but a lot of things involve my arms and it is very sore. This means that just now I need to rely 100% on my food intake. I still lose weight when I don't exercise. Maybe if you went 100% food like me just now, then maybe you can start with a small 10 minute walk every night, then up it 5 mins every week or every other week. It will get you moving, but will make you concentrate on your calorie intake everyday.
Its a place to start anyway. I really hope you find the motivation to change your lifestyle and start feeling great!