Congrats on the "moving" scale! Stay positive! YOu are doing a great job!

Yay!! scale is still showing 314lbs. woo hoo! :)

oooooohhhhhhhhwwwwweeeeeee! I know, I know, that is not the most classy saying, but I am very happy this morning (amidst my irritability)---my scale shows me at 312lbs! (or so). Yay!! I am just 3lbs away from being under 310lbs...which is such a huge goal for me. If I can make it below 310lbs, then that is such a good move in the right direction!

Also, it has been 2 weeks since I started my healthier lifestyle, and if I can make it to 3 weeks, then I know this will be something I can stick to. :)

Ok, so I have lost, so far, between 4-6lbs. woo hoo!!! :) And some old jeans that I had stopped wearing because they were too tight---now, they are a bit saggy, I must admit. Yay!! Not so great fashion wise, but oh, well! :)

I am having a bit of a hard time with my food cravings today. I woke up thinking about the first dates I had in my previous relationship and how good things were, and just wondering how I am ever going to jump back into the dating ocean (right now it just seems too scary).

I have been craving bacon like mad lately, even though I am trying to abstain from eating pork. Sigh.

I have been bringing healthy food to work and I am just trying to keep my insulin stable so that I don't get too hungry. I did reduce the amount of cream I put in my coffee and switched it with milk instead.

I pigged out on 2 bags of doritos yesterday, but, I don't feel so bad about it because 1) they are made of corn and ok on my food plan, in small amounts and 2) I wrote down that I ate both bags and 3) I first picked up the large familys size bag, then opted for 2 individual bags so I could be more concious of the calories and keep track of them better. I do think I should probably not have those types of chips in my house, even though I currently have corn chips in my fridge that have been lonely for quite some time! :)

I am focused on making it to 21 days of no sugar and no flour or grains. I am feeling a bit pms-y and so I am just feeling a tad bit fatigued and with stronger food cravings than usual. :(

Well, you slipped up...we all do. Just don't let it get you down. Go forward with your plan on the next meal.

Just so you know...corn is considered a grain depending on how it is used. It is also a starchy veggie. Also, depending on the type of doritos...some contain wheat flour!! Seems like they shouldn't, but some flavors do. Scarey especially when you are trying to avoid that stuff!!

Hang in there! :hug:

Believe me... I know exactly what you mean. Just keep doing what you're doing and try to ignore the ignorance around you. Stay focused on your goal of losing weight and try not to be discouraged... YOU CAN DO IT!

Thank you so much! :)

I don't feel bad about the doritos, but I do know that they can't be any kind of consistent part of my diet.

I think my cravings are hormonal (I am a bit crabby today), so I am going to try and comfort myself without resorting to bingeing, or eating off of my plan.

Thank you everyone for your support. It means so much to me! :)

I feel ya, on the PMS stuff. TOM was AWFUL for me this month...cravings, constantly wanting to eat, huge urges to binge. I fought it and stuck with my calorie budget, but I gained 1 pound anyway and then the scale stuck there for a week. I knew it was water retention, but I was really getting discouraged. Happily, the scale started moving in the right direction this morning. :smug:

You are doing really well, all things considered!!! At least you opted out of the Family size bag. I wonder how many servings are in that "family" size bag? I know my family isn't that big!!

It is so hard to not eat when you are depressed. So many of us are right there with you. I had a horrible day today and was in tears. didn't turn to food. Took a Xanax and am just chilling. Still depressed, but am making it without eating.

Congrats on the moving scale!!!

I am feeling a bit upset now. The whole relationship thing has been weird, and at times I feel like my bf is completely avoiding seeing me. He has been texting me every single day---sometimes more than he did right before we broke up. But, everytime he says he is going to see me on a specific day, then his plans change and he has to do something else.

It is hard. I am trying to deal with it, and still be friends, and also deal with the fact that he is texting me everyday and seems very concerned and caring towards me, but also there is the issue of not being sure when we will spend time with each other as friends. Sometimes I feel like he just doesn't want to see me, or is worried that seeing me would be emotional. It is weird and confusing. It has been 3 weeks since we have seen each other. :(

Bless your heart sweetie. :hug: You know that you deserve better than this. I'd stop the texting and the chatting. I wouldn't be mean, I'd just be "busy". If he really wants to be with you, he'll wake up and realize it and let you know in a very clear way. If he doesn't want to be committed to you, he'll go away. Either way, it's a healthier thing for you.

And really get busy! Don't leave yourself any time to think too much. :hug:

Hi Blairsey!

How do you get the avatar pic of pounds lost?

As for the relationship, I think we will always be good friends. I do think that we need to spend time together as friends, though. I dunno.....it is confusing. Sigh. He is a good person, just maybe we are not marriage material for each other, ya know?

Food today is going good----didn't overeat and my hunger is oddly at bay. trippy. But to be fair, I have had a ton of protein, and less than 30 carbs today, so that could be the issue.

I am trying to not get discouraged, even though I am feeling that way now.

The scale is at 314lbs. TOM is visiting and that may be the reason why, but I am still frustrated.

If I can make it through tomorrow, I will have made 21 days of eating healthier and getting back into a lifestyle that helped me to lose weight previously. :) Yay!

I woke up this morning feeling somewhat empty. My ex didn't text me last night like he usually does, and for the first time (as we have been texting every day since our talk), I really felt like I will have to live my life maybe not talking to him as much as I used to. I know that sounds weird, but when you have gotten used to talking to someone every day for an extended amount of time, it becomes part of your life. So, this morning, I just woke up kind of empty and sad. I also looked in the mirror and wasn't happy with that image, and I was upset at myself for being so open with my ex. Maybe I should have been more chaste? Maybe that would have kept the mystery more? Sigh. I feel like there were so many times when I should have dressed better or worked on looking my best. I think maybe I got too comfortable with him and forgot that as a man, he is still a visual creature. Maybe I am just thinking all of this in error and we are not together simply because it isn't meant to be. Sigh.

Getting this weight off is so important to me and is so imperative for me.

I am so happy about today's significance! If I can make it through today without eating the not so good foods, then I will be on my way to making healthier eating a habit and a part of a healthier lifestyle!!

I am soooo happy! I was going to celebrate by going to eat at a healthy restaurant, but everyone is busy, so, I may just wait until later in the week.

In the situation where I felt that my talents were being overshadowed by my weight, I noticed that there was a situation where appearance is key. It made me realize more that yes, my talents or skills are being overlooked and it is very possibly due to my weight. There is a situation where someone who has less experience and less knowlege on the topic is given a lot of responsibility. They do have a certain image that seems to be preferred in this situation, so, in my mind, it was decided that they would prefer to have image over experience or talent. It was a bit disheartening. :(

It is so imperative that I get my weight under control.

I am upset a bit because the scale is still hovering at 314lbs. I am hoping to get under 310lbs as soon as possible. I think that once I get under 300lbs, then my weight loss will be a bit more noticeable.

I do worry that maybe for some reason I won't be able to lose weight, and that scares me.

I also need to stop eating after 7pm. That is a huge problem for me. So, I will stop eating after 7pm, or try to keep the calories below a couple of hundred when I do havve to eat after 7pm.

Omg!!! The scale is being so nice to me today and showing me at.....drumroll please.....311lbs!! Woo hoo!! I am sooo freaking happy! But I am also scared that this just may be a ruse by my scale, so I am going to focus on eating even healthier today and really watching my calories so I can see if tomorrow the weight is the same.

This really cheered me up today. :)