I can't even believe I just typed that. I...a person who use to be so tiny needs to lose 150lbs. I need to lose the weight of another adult woman. That scares me. I feel like I've been in a trans and someone just woke me up. I sit here and wonder how in the heck did I gain that much weight. What happened to me. I allowed depression and taking care of other people to make me forget about myself. I am can't confess these things to the people around me so I'll confess them here. I'm depressed and I use food to mask my emotions. I enjoy eating most when no one is around. I hide my food consumption. In public I eat very little. I have a very unhealthy relationship with food. First thing that needs fixing for me is how I view it and why I run to it.
Being overweight is what has happened but food isn't the core issue. There are many underlying issues that cause me to use food and I've got to solve those problems or this is just going to be a vicious cyle. I need to let go of all these stressers. I either let go or continue to be dragged. How do I fix this issue within?