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I decided I needed to be seasonal! Hope everyone likes my new Sig and Avatar, even if they are only here for a few days! :D
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Wow. I just checked my post history. I hadn't realized that it had been that long since the last time I was here. I thought it was just a month or two but it has been FIVE months. I don't regret it though. I needed a minute to kind of get myself together in a sense. Mentally, I was not in a place to lose weight and so I was losing and re-gaining the same 15 pounds or so over and over again. The more I tried to lose, the worse I felt about myself until it got to the point that I was sick of trying. So I decided to take time off of anything that would keep that pressure on me.
I kept telling myself that because I was overweight, I was unattractive. But lately, I've been putting so much care into my appearance. I've been getting compliments and hit on left and right. My weight didn't change but how I carried myself did. I feel pretty and so I move differently. So now that I've figured out that I can be fat and pretty, I'm shifting gears to focusing on what I can't do...like run for a train without feeling like any breath might be my last, or climbing stairs without my knee feeling like it is going to give out or wearing stilettos (one of my biggest goals). Losing weight is so much more to me than just "looking good" because I have proven to myself that I can do that now. I need to be a healthier, and younger, me. I'm only 27 and sometimes feel like such an old woman. So I want to live my best life. I remember when I was on here last wyllen was struggling to get under 200, the scale didn't seem to be moving and now she is a svelte 177 (if my memory is correct). And Ammi has lost a huge amount of weight as well. You go girl!! Seeing the difference in all of you is just so great. I'm obviously back because I'm thinking about my weight again but seeing your progress is really a huge encouragement to me. Maybe I can encourage someone else the same way someday. |
Sharon: Get Well soon.
Jilly: I am so proud of you for all of the wonderful choices you are making when temptation is basically right in your face. Excellent job. Luan: Great NSV's Lilion: Yea to you for a smaller bottom! You are so pretty and when you see that your bottom is smaller as you have, it makes you feel all the more pretty. Molly: Welcome. I know you will love it here. Everyone is so kind, loving and supportive. Brandnewme: Glad to see you post Teahoney: Welcome back. Come as often as you can. You were missed. Zelma: I loved your story about the dog food. Then your next post about going home for Christmas made me so excited for you. You have to tell us how it felt to look so wonderful and be so slim when everyone first sees you when you get home. Have a wonderful Christmas. Ammi: So sorry that you are still hurting. Did you get your pills from the Dr. for your tongue? I hope they help. Mechelle: That is good news that your car is being flown to Spokane. There is a pass from Seattle to Spokane that you would have to cross. I myself have never been on it but It is on the news constantly in the winter as being closed. It is called Snowqualame I believe so you won't have to cross it. Littlebumblebee: Welcome. We are glad to have you here going on this journey to better health with us. Shadie: Congrats to you on having your sweet nices becoming yours. They were already yours but now they are legally yours. I'm so happy for you. Come back more if you can. Hugs. Everyone thank you for the beautiful Christmas Cards. I adore each and every one of them and consider all of you my dear friends. To those of you who didn't do the Christmas card thing, I just want to say big hugs to you and Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. Blessings and hugs, Annie |
littlebumblebee -- WELCOME!!! There's a lot of support and inspiration here! Feel free to jump in here and talk talk and learn learn! I find that trying not to let myself get too hungry does help control binges. It's not the whole answer, but for me, a part of it!
Zelma -- I loved your story! Ammi -- I'm so sorry to hear about your mouth. That is really distracting!! Lilion -- The Snow Miser! That's a great one. A good lesson from it: "Put one foot in front of the other... and soon you'll be walking 'cross the floor. Put one foot in front of the other, and soon you'll be walking out the door." BABY STEPS, just like in weight loss! Jill -- awesome choices! I was like that last year -- this year I seem to be not quite on my game. I really like reading when people ARE doing well! Tracy -- Welcome back! We have missed you. I love hearing you talk about how you can look great at your weight! I think that's an important part of this process. I am actually a little up from 177 -- I've been struggling for the last 6 weeks or so and am not focusing on losing weight right now (though GAINING is not what I wanted!). Tonight my little victory is that I overrode the part of my brain that wanted mac and cheese for dinner and made a healthier stir fry with lots of veggies, chicken and shrimp! Of course, my calories are still up from choices I made earlier in the day, but one bad choice doesn't mean 4 more. I also overrode the part of my brain that Did. Not. Want. To. Go. To the Gym. That little part of my brain needs a real overhaul if you ask me. Too noisy. |
Zelma, Absolutely loved the dog food diet story. LOL
Michelle, I'm so sorry about your Mom......My dad is ALWAYS asking me if I've gone for a walk lately, or how about you and DH go for a walk together. Makes me crazy. I know he means well, but it still gets on my nerves. My DS had her gastric bypass a couple years ago and she was home in July of 2005. All I heard about was how wonderful she looked! URGH!!! He doesn't know about the surgery......or the fact she's gained most of her weight back now. :dizzy: Littlebumblebee :welcome3: You'll love it here. Everyone is super! Lilion, I LOVE the signature. Where ever did you find it? I was in the shower this am thinking about your nephew. How is he......I mean emotionally? I know you'd said he was healing well physically. I do hope that end of it is still going well. I hope he finds the strength to grow from his ordeal. If he lets it, it will make him a strong young man. Hugs to him from me. Teahoney. Welcome back! You weren't here when I started, but I look forward to getting to know you better. I love what you said about taking care of appearance...not just weight. Our Christmas party for our whole factory was Saturday and my boss had never seen me all dressed up. Two times she repeated, "WOW, You look great!" Made my whole day. And ya know, it only takes a few minutes to put on a smidgen of makeup. I only put on some powder to even my skin tone, a little eye shadow and mascara and a touch of lip stick. No big whoop. At dd's basketball game all the parents kept saying how pretty I looked too. Neat nsv isn't it! It helps us remember our weight loss journey is A-a Journey B-a Healthy new way of eating....for forever. Thanks for making me think about it again. Shadie I'm so glad for your nieces. And for you. Making a difference in a child's life, let alone 4, is an awesome accomplishment. (same for all you teachers out there) Toni & Jill, Great job on resisting all the treats at your parties. I have ANOTHER party tomorrow...it's a carry in. I'm bringing the huge veggie tray. Someone has to bring something sane to eat! Michelle, I hope your kitties do well on the trip. I'm so glad you'll be on the mainland.... Wait, that's what we called the continental 48 when I lived in Hawaii. Anyway, I'm glad you'll be back. Hope your still healing well or even all healed up by now. Doing ok here.....sorta. It must be about TOM cuz I've been cranky lately, swollen terrible and craving sweets like there is no tomorrow. More blood work tomorrow.....again! Let's hope the levels of blood thinners are still good. Sharon, How are you feeling my friend?? I hope well. Gotta go ladies, I gotta check on DD. She's been home sick with strep throat the last two days and I'm hoping she's well enough to go to school tomorrow. I'd hate for her to miss out on the end of the year parties. Hugs to all. OH Katt Where are ya? I miss you. |
Oh, I forgot to tell!!! A major NSV. I've been thinking about my .....
are you ready....setting my exercise goal for JANUARY!!! I haven't come up with a number yet, cuz I don't want to set my self up for failure, but I'm planning it......... :) |
Tracey - Very nice to see you posting again. I am happy for you and your new feelings of beauty and confidence! It's amazing the change that happens simply from being kinder to ourselves!
Zelma - Such a funny story! :lol: I am going to have to share that one. How neat is that that someone at the mall recognized you from the magazines? You are a celebrity!!!!! :cool: Ammi - Nice to see your smiling face out here again. That's really too bad about your tooth and the ulcers. Be well soon! Michelle - Sounds like things are really coming together for the move. I bet you are so excited. Poor kitties on the plane. You're right, they probably won't like it, but once you get them home and settled in they will be none the worse for the wear. Still, I understand you worrying a bit about it. I would do the same. littlebumblebee - :welcome2: Look forward to getting to know you better. Jill - Sounds like you really kept things under control at the Italian restaurant. You are doing great! Shadie - That is amazing that you are willing to take on your sister's 4 children. You are a very special person and they are lucky to have you. Toni - Sounds likd you did pretty well at the office Christmas party. Be proud! Heather - I saw on the exercise thread that your toe is getting better and you were able to do the exercise bike. So glad to hear it. Sandy - I bet those compliments felt great. It's so easy to not feel good about ourselves when we are overweight. When someone makes a nice comment like that it makes you realize you are still a beautiful person no matter your size! As for me, nothing too exciting. Feeling really tired and run down. I ran out of my allergy medicine and had not had time to go get more until tonight. So I am not feeling my best. I plan to curl up on the couch and read my new "You on a Diet" book. My grandmother sent it to me for Christmas. And before anyone thinks that might be an insensitive gift, she had asked me what I wanted and I told her that. So it's my own fault I got a diet book for a Christmas gift. :lol: Take care, all. |
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:wreath: MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL :wreath:
:ginger: :tree: :elf: Take care during the holidays and talk to you in the new year 2007. :present: From, Elaine |
I am SO not liking the direction my life is turning. My mom has had back pain for years (from a fall) and a few days ago it suddenly got a LOT worse - like, going all the way down her leg, eating her hip up, etc. She's scheduled now for more MRIs etc. but she's freaking MISERABLE right now. :(. These are the things that are driving me nuts:
- I found her a cane (I live in my deceased grandmother's house and some of her things are still around) and took it over today - I can't bear to hear or see her in pain. It just makes me cry, though thankfully not in front of her (yet). - Can we move medicine out of the stone age and actually find ways to fix herniated disks and bad backs? Hey, here's an idea, how about if someone's having pain due to disk(s) pressing a nerve or something, how about if we have a way to actually find and alleviate that? But noooooo, the MRIs so far are entirely unhelpful, other than telling us surgery won't help. And surgery? Yeah, let's fuse some bones together. That's some modern medicine there. THOG FIX BACK! ARR! *smash rocks together* Um...otherwise things are smashing though. Except I really ought to begin working more soon. It's bad bad bad to live off of savings. I just am so unmotivated to go sell myself, plus I need to buy new versions of my programs, and the unmotivation is due to kind of being tired of the whole field, but then again I do think a lateral move into web development might hold my interest, just been too lazy to move on it. Here's hoping I get off my behind! P.S. Sorry to be so self-centered in this post. :/ |
Thanks to all--you guys are the greatest :D
Luminous--I'm so sorry you're going through all that with your mother right now. I had a similar situation with my grandparents. Just know that the doctors are doing all they can and that I'm sure you rmother sooooo appreciates your help and doesn't want you to be sad/frustrated for her (although I know it's impossible not to) :hug: Xena--it's funny; when you mentioned the diet book for Christmas, I didn't even think of it to be offensive. My first thought was more along the lines of, "What a great gift!" I think I've been in diet mode too long :p sandy--great NSV! The exercise goals have been helping me, especially this month since I think I will soon BEAT my goal :D Heather--if you were like I am now at last year's holiday season, then maybe fabulous commitment and weight loss are in my future, just as they were in yours ;) I have parts of my brain that still need an overhaul, too, especially regarding exercise. This morning, my alarm went off, and I hit snooze with no intention of getting up. I just thought I'd sleep a little extra and exercise later. Sad that that's my first reaction. Luckily, I remembered I can't go walking during work because we have (another_ holiday lunch party today, and I can't go walking after work because I have to go straight to Jeff's company holiday party. And so, I dragged my butt out of bed...but my butt wasn't happy about it :devil: teahoney--great to see you back here! And how fabulous that you're taking more care for your appearance regardless of weight. I think we have a tendancy to blame a lot of things on our weight because it's convenient, not because it's actually the weight's fault, ya know? I'm glad you've realized that fat does NOT equal unattractive, so that's one less thing you can blame on your excess weight so you can better adjust your focus on the real importance of losing weight (like the other things you mentioned). Toni--congrats on doing better at the buffet! Any improvement at all over old habits is an excellent step in the right direction :cool: And to everyone, I'll join in in wishing all a safe and happy holiday season! I'll be driving down to my sister's tomorrow for the weekend and then up to Jeff's cousins' for Christmas Day and then to his mother's for New Year's, so best to get that in here before I unintentionally disappear for a bit :dizzy: In other news, I have 2 holiday parties today--one in my office and one at Jeff's office. I had to bring a dish to my office party, so I am bringing broccoli with cheese sauce and breadcrumbs, but I'm not planning on really eating anything. I'll still bring my own normal foods for lunch so I can eat beforehand and afterwards like I did yesterday. I think I may even pack a pbj sandwich to eat in the car on the way to Jeff's office party so I won't be hungry when I get there. My scale is down to 286 today (which makes me happy to know I'm down since I would have had my TOPS meeting tonight if not for Jeff's party, and typically on weeks I knew I wasn't going to make it to the meeting, I would let my weight slip because I knew I had a whole additional week to fix it :o ), but I won't change my ticker until it's consistent for a couple days, and this is the first time I've seen that number in some time. |
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Second, exercise is STILL a problem for me too. Yesterday I was running errands. I had my gym bag with me in the car. I STILL had to fight with myself to get myself to actually GO to the gym. Even when I got done at Target, which is right NEXT to the gym! I don't know if it will ever get any better for me (and it's not like that every day), but as long as I keep choosing the gym over the couch, I have a fighting chance of keeping the weight off. So, not exercising is still often my default. I am headed out to visit my family tomorrow and likely won't be checking back here til after Christmas -- play nice and have fun, everyone! |
Okee .. this is literally a fly by post .. at least I think it is lol .. Im so tired so if there are typos please work out what I mean rofl.
Work is going great .. my little part time job has become a full time with over time job! I am security of course .. but tonight (for example) I was also the trolley girl, returns, customer service, rubbish girl, sweeper, checkout girl and I had to climb ladders a few times to get items for customers .. oh .. as well as guard the door, keep the foyer area clear and tidy, answer enquiries, check bags and receipts, do walk throughs of the shop and observe the staff as well as the customers to ensure that all protocols were being implemented. IM POOPED!! I keep thinking that if I was offered this job when I first started this journey of mine then there would have been no way I could have done it .. Im on my feet for a min of 10 hours a day now .. my ankles are still killing me from when I get home to when I go back to work ... but its getting more tolerable. I have had 12 hour shifts all week this week .. THANKFULLY I have tomorrow off .. so when I have caught up on my sleep I am going to come in here and try to catch up on all the news! Im sure I will have missed heaps .. when was I last in here anyway??? I am losing track of time and days! Oh that brings me on to my next "GIVE ME A SLAP" moment .. I have a pile of Xmas cards sitting next to me! I havent had a chance to get to the PO when its been open to get the darn stamps .. soooo .. I am hoping that you wont mind getting a belated Xmas card in the post lol .. I feel really terrible about it too .. Im usually so well organised with all of this sort of thing .. but this job has screwed me up in so many ways! Here is another "SLAP ME" moment too lol .. gawd Im gonna be sore! I have NOT been OP .. not that I have been naughty and eaten a bunch of things I shouldnt or anything .. its more a case of Im really not eating right ... and I KNOW it .. its just Im too tired to really worry about it right now ... here is my food intake for this week (from Monday - Thursday) 4 cheese slices 1 small chocolate yoghurt 1 bowl ice cream 3 KFC Snack Burgers 6 Bread Rolls with Ham & Cheese HEAPS of water about 6 cans of Coke Zero Oh and 5 peppermints and 3 chocolates, and 150g chocolate raisins :) See .. told you it wasnt good lol ... its just by the time I get up and get ready to go to work I havent got anything arranged to eat .. then at work when I have my 30 minute dinner break I spend it zipping home on my bike to let the dogs out for a run and a hello .. then its back to work in time for a drink of water and back to work! In a way its just as well really lol .. I was Terrible on the weekend with my hunny and food rofl .. I put on 4 pounds!! I dont know really that I did all that bad with eating .. but it sure came back quick! .. Happily Im back to the 275 .. so Im still 5 pounds ahead of my Xmas goal. Happily Saturday is my last midnight shift so will be able to get back to a better routine again .. talk about happy to have Xmas over with rofl. Before I go .. just wanted to add a few positives :) 1 - We have been told the South Island will be having a white Xmas! I know that seems weird for our side of the world and while I wont be near there it still makes it feel a little more Xmassy lol. 2 - I have finally managed to keep Scoots pressie a secret from him ... just a few more days to make it through rofl 3 - Its Scoots and my 5th Anniversary today .. well .. Thursday lol .. and while we havent been able to be together we talked to each other lots today .. and he got me a lovely original teddy bear! 4 - I HAVE THE DAY OFF TOMORROW! lol 5 - I didnt think my daughter would be home for Xmas. She went over to my mums last week and I was pretty upset thinking that she wouldnt be home for Xmas this year (was ready to pack up the tree and forget about Xmas this year .. hunny talked me out of doing that) ... but she sent me a text message yesterday to say she is coming home tomorrow (Friday!) .. so my baby will be home for Xmas .. my best Xmas pressie (not that I aint curious about the first Xmas pressie my hunny has bought me rofl). Okee .. me babbled enough .. will catch up with everyone that I can asap when I wake up lol .. Huggies everyone!! Love and Laughter! |
Katt -- SO good to hear from you. You sound extra-busy. Hopefully in time you can figure out how to eat better at work and the hours won't exhaust you so much!
And congrats on having your baby with you for the holidays! |
Sandy: Thanks so much for thinking of my nephew! That's very sweet of you! I last saw him at Thanksgiving and he seems to be coping fairly well. At least I heard him gripe at his mom to leave his food alone and let him do things for himself – which I think is a great thing. I'm talking it as a sign that he's not given up at least and isn't doing the "poor me I can't do anything for myself anymore" that I had worried about. I think I'll see him again this Saturday too when we do the family thing.
Teahoney! Welcome Back! :D I'm so glad to hear you have had a self-esteem boost! You know, I think that is the biggest obstacle to losing weight – feeling bad about yourself makes everything you do to improve yourself harder! And we always knew you were beautiful! Jilly, I am incredibly impressed! Not only about the restaurant – where you did what I NEVER would have done, and the parties (ditto) but the getting up this morning too! GO JILLY GO! :cheer: Luminous: I've had back problems for years, with the whole spasm-going-down-the-leg thing! I don't envy your mom…it was worse than labor, I swear! They managed mine with epidural steroid injections, but it was rotten at the time. Keep in mind, they often do get better, it just takes time! :hug: A quick update from me. I did not get up and do the elip this morning. :( I overslept. But I WILL get up and do it tomorrow! Walking in to the office this morning I could feel a soreness right at the junction of my butt and thighs – Could it Be? :eek: Gasp! Muscles! :lol: Got to keep that up!!! Food-wise I did okay and am maintaining at about 237, which is NOT what my sig says, but I'm lazy and haven't changed it. Oh! Did have one teeny weeny NSV today. 'Tis the season for goodies and the office always has some. Today it's peanut butter fudge. Not one to forgo free food :p I ate a tiny piece. Then without thinking really, I got a second piece. While chatting with a co-worker, I suddenly thought "this really isn't very good, certainly not as good as what I make" and decided that it wasn't worth the calories and tossed it in the trash! That's right. I threw away food! That never happens. :lol: Got to run, justice to dispense and all that jazz!!! |
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