Fall off the Wagon
 

So this has been one heck of a year so far. I have fallen off the wagon since September and have regained over 10 lbs since then. A lot of it was due to not eating correctly, not working out, not caring and being very stressed. I got lucky and found a workout buddy online who lives in my town and we are doing workouts together. She is a former roller derby skater who is working on losing weight. Tomorrow is our second workout at the local sports center and I am looking forward to doing some weight lifting. I need to get my lazy butt back in gear and get this weight off. I am logging (when I remember!) my food in MFP and trying to get my water in every day. I am one of those people who weighs myself every day as, for me, it is a better indicator of weight loss and helps me to pinpoint what foods/combinations make me retain water/retain weight. I am trying to be conscious of what goes into my mouth but by the end of the day when dinner comes around, I go into a "I don't give a crap" mood and I'll eat whatever and however much I want without even thinking about it. Here's to a better start for this week and getting my butt into gear and shape (other than a pear)!

Oh man I totally feel your pain and we have very similar SW, CW, and goals! I always stall and give up around 250 so I'm kind of nervous to be at 249 right now. My first month with my bariatrician did not go so well- I had phentermine and I still only lost 7lbs (not enough for my first month, I'd be satisfied with that down the line of course). I had spent about 75% of the month with bronchitis and couldn't exercise like I normally did. I also stress ate about 25% of the time. The nurse actually had to re-take my BP at the end of the second visit with the bariatrician because my anxiety over my failure caused my systolic to go up 30 points compared to the test from the last visit. But I left the clinic with medication that would help with the stress eating and with some encouragement and I quit beating myself up over my mistakes.

In addition to getting help from my healthcare team I've also been reading a books about changing habits (The Power of Habit is my favorite and I have it on audiobook if you want a copy) and am VERY enthusiastic about the process. I don't have the issue of wanting to eat whatever at night anymore since I'm not currently working, but when I did work I had a similar problem. I used some techniques I learned from that book to help me problem solve. I would be okay with breakfast and lunch since I did meal prep on the weekend but I often fell flat at dinner time. I started taking notes on what I was thinking, feeling, ect and I realized that my problem wasn't really about dinner. My problem was related to my fiance. He goes out on fishing boats as a biologist so I spend about half the year without him. So when he is here I want to spend every second I can with him. We don't really eat the same foods or at the same time (he's picky and I have food allergies-- it's just easier for us to take care of our own food when we want it) so when I had to cook in the evening I felt like it was taking away precious time with him. I resented the time I spent in the kitchen. After some discussion we rearranged things so he could hang out in the dining room and keep me company while I was cooking and I was able to stay motivated for the whole day.

I hope you're doing well with your reboot!

Same, boat for me as well. Finally found an awesome program i've been able to make it more a lifestyle then anything. Hurt my knee about a year ago and put on the pounds. Now i've dropped 12 pounds in the last 2 months. Feeling amazing again. Good luck