So this is a hard post to write...
 

For years I've been reading all your weight loss journeys and passively participating. 'Thank god it's not that bad for me'. As though being 25 and 250 lbs was not a big deal ... Now I'm 37. 222.

I can't remember a time since age 8 that I Wasn't the big girl, even though I was the short girl...in HS I was a nice 180lbs. No friends. I wasn't "fat enough" to be in the fat crowd, not thin enough to be in the thin crowd. It's been an isolating life, for a really long time.

Last March I dropped to 208 when I've been so I'll that I Can't eat. Not able to hold down a relationship. Now have type 2 diabetes. Well, that was 7 years ago. 2 months ago I saw a specialist that says I should have bariatric surgery. And that scares me.

I've done Atkins, and Sure SLim, and LA Weight Loss, worked with trainers, the HCG diet... Now...my specialist is giving me 2 years to get things under control. That's the wait list for the surgery. I've made a few changes in the past few weeks.

1. Changed personal trainers
2. Signed up here to find some support and maybe an accountability partner
3. Stopped pretending that the weight is only about body image. I actually know and feel beautiful. But this is about my health. And being alive.
4. Decided that the focus of 2016 is not dating and finding love and starting a family. It's about finding ME. And being alive.
5. Recommitted to attending yoga atleast 1x.week
6. Recommitted to drinking 2L of water while I'm at work

The specialist wants me to do a modified version of Atkins. 20g of net carbs a day. I'm Struggling for the past 2 months on what to eat and how to plan for the day. I hate eggs...can do a day or 2 but not every day.

It all hit home so much on New Years Eve this year. Everyone had plans, and because I'm always the "cheerful, happy one", not one friend thought to ask if I had plans. So I Was home, alone, for the first time ever. And I realized that if I don't start seeking support and caring about me - there won't be anyone else who cares.

So here's me. Day 1. Registered. Check. Admitted I'm not perfect. Check. Acknowledging I can't do it alone. Check.

Thanks for reading <3

*Hugs* You're in the right place. I'm at the beginning of my journey too, so I can't even begin to try and give you advice, except stick around!

Thanks <3. It's amazing how writing your truth can bring you fully to tears. I'm going to go charge my Fitbit (been unplugged for a MONTH?) and gonna hit the treadmill for a bit.

Good luck to you too, and THANK YOU for the reply.

You are definitely an inspiration! So brave to write this as it must have been difficult for you! I'm sure you can do this, you have the will now and a deadline. If you ever feel lonely again, feel free to get in touch!

Welcome. You CAN do this! Losing weight is mostly about diet. If you think Atlins will work, then give it a shot. I like carbs too much to let them go, haha, so I am just doing simple calorie counting with a 1,000 calorie deficit. I've lost over 50 pounds since August. I've always been heavy as well, but I'm changing that now, and so can you. Good luck!

Welcome Aloravictory!
I understand how you feel. Atkins/low carb is really the only thing that works for me. It is amazing to see how addictive and detrimental sugar is to the body.
Check out the Atkins forum. I started a thread about daily accountability
http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/atki...ntability.html
There is a challenge one until Valentine's DAy and also a challenge about who loses the first 5 pounds.
http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/atkins-226/
Come on over, you will find genuine support and understanding!
Lots of support and encouraging people, food ideas, etc.
Best of luck to you :)

thank you all for your warm welcomes. :)

Thank you! That's such a touching response. With weight loss I have never thought I'm an inspiration. :)

You can do it! You WILL do it! I am glad you are here, and I'm glad to be here with you. Sending lots of love.

Hi Aloravictory! Welcome to your new life! I don't have those same medical issues, but I do have fertility issues, though not necessarily because of my weight. I am sure it plays a part. I am with you where in high school, I was not the fat friend, but I was also not in the skinny club. I have actually recommitted myself to my weight loss journey since the week before Thanksgiving. I have not been visiting this site. I just decided that since I have committed without it, I should re-enter the 3FC world for the extra support. I have just been calorie counting and walking 30 minutes a day minimum. It's been working. I am down 13 lbs since I started back. My goal is to go down a total of almost 60 lbs. When I weighed in at the Dr office and saw my weigh, I wanted to cry. It was almost 20 lbs heavier than I ever had been.

The point of this long post is... you aren't alone, and I'll support you. :)

thanks all. I'm a bit low today as a friend died under unusual circumstances over the weekend, I'm dealing with my parent complications post diabetes since the spring (and it's not getting better), and work ahs been tough - combine with a business trip and god I want to eat cake. And I don't even really like cake!

Oh my goodness. Thank you for being courageous enough to show your vulnerability. Women are usually the supporters and nurturers of everyone else. Yet, when they may need help and care they don't seek it out. I believe there is a direct link of emotions, self care and weight issues.

I'm glad you know you are beautiful though. :) Women of all sizes (even the skinny crowd) struggle with body image. Congrats on telling the real truth.

I'm also doing a low-carb, Paleo somewhat Veganish thing. I'm not sure what to call it, Paganish? :)

I've been drinking my own remix of Bulletproof coffee in the morning or a low-carb power smoothie, but I happen to like eggs as well. I could send you a few recipes I've tested (w/out scrambled eggs) if you'd like. What do you like to eat for breakfast?