I can sympathize. I joined in 2008 and weighed 338. Fully committed and excited about weight loss I went down to 288 and vowed never to go back up to 300 again. I gained the weight back and stopped coming to the site. Then I bounced back and forth between 360 and 330 for the next 3 years.
With my 30th birthday approaching I saw my body not bouncing back as fast as it had when I was in my early 20s. A cruel reality. I've recommitted myself.
It was hard to get over my initial shame when I came crawling back to the site after be unsuccessful in my weight loss. My feelings were all for nothing as the people on this site offered nothing but positivity and support.
My big ah ha moment - realizing I'll always have issues with my weight. I learned the hard way that maintaining is just as hard as losing, and having the support, especially from those who have had the same struggles, is inspiring.
The most important thing to me is to figure out how to live and maintain a healthy lifestyle. The fact that I've figured this out when I'm 30 is a positive thing in my eyes. I'm breaking the cycle in my family by not letting it take me another 30 years. I watched my mother struggle with weight issues her entire life. She started dieting when she was 15 and she is now in her 60s. I watched her struggle on every diet program - weight watchers, deal-a-meal, weight-loss shakes, TOPS, cabbage soup, low-fat, no-fat, sugar busters, somersize, on and on and on. She is always on a diet.
The point is we are all on different time frames in our journey. Celebrate for staying on path. You'll do it and when you do, you can tell me I can do it too when I see you on the maintainers board.