I won't go into long drawn out details, but basically I had this good friend for seven years. In the last year (and sort of before that too, but not as much) she went through a divorce and started acting kind of crazy, making bad choices, being obsessed with guys and always putting me on the back burner, etc.
Finally, she ended up moving in with this guy after only one month of knowing him, and felt it was okay to dump off this poor cat on my doorstep even after I told her I didn't want to take the cat, guilting me into taking it (my own issue, I know).
So after all those resentments building up, that was the final straw, and I wrote her an email basically saying, "I don't deserve to be treated like that, and do me a favor and never email me or call me again".
So that was in October 2008. Recently I have been thinking about my actions, and I feel sorry for that "hit and run" type email that I did. I should have owned my feelings and told her about them and discussed it instead of taking the easy way out and dumping a seven-year friendship that way.
I wrote her an email yesterday basically saying the above, and I haven't heard from her. I pretty much know that if she hasn't written back by now, she's not going to write back.
So, in a way, yes, I guess I know that she's not the type of friend that I want back in my life if she's not at least willing to respond to that email, and that's fine, it's her decision, but I can't help feeling sad about it.
That's all.....
~CGH~