Hi All! Sorry, late post..because guess who left work early again today and again left me holding the friggin' bag! Yeah, and of course I was slammed all day. So, I got home after tanning, ate some turkey and swallowed down 1/2 a Corona and now I'm about to crawl into bed...very tired!!! Hey Slim, I sure hope you feel better muffin! :hug:

BTW, back up one poopin' pound this morning doggonitall! Grrr......

Ok all, hasta menana!!! Love, MO

Okay, First of all ~ I don't think we are cycling together ~ I believe it's because there is a full moon on Wednesday. And that always effects everybody. Just ask nurses and daycare teachers. (right RR and Sheila?)

I had a crappy day today myself. I have decided to count calories starting today. Yea, not good ~ and I am still hungry. GRRRR!

Lisa

PS, good to see you RR and KarenK. Sure did miss ya around.

Ok I need to vent or I'm going to go nuts and this is not directed to anyone here cause you're all totally awesome and I sit and have a water and turkey sandwich with any of you.. also please no pity but I'll always take a hug.

I don't get women and they're nuts. They say one thing and mean something total different and I'm wrong cause I didn't know this wtf really. 30 year old we should all be able to say what we think or feel and not have to play games. Oh I want a guy who will treat me nice and take care of me. Yet you go to the guy who treats you like a door mat and your reason for this oh but he loves me. Dude got 3 kids by 3 different women but there nothing wrong with him. Just cause I can fight and I can hurt people doesn't mean I want too. I like being the teddy bear granted I'm the size of a grizzly but still. I don't feel the need to have a huge *** truck or car that got 500hp. You don't understand why I have an issue with you saying I'm too heavy yet in 15mins I watch your kid eat 6 moon pies?? wtf. You don't what drama in your life but its like every day you go looking for it and if don't come you latch on to some else and make it yours??? I make 40k+ a year have a car thats paid off money in the bank and all my bills get paid on time. Willing and want to take care of you got kids np I'll take care of them too. Yet I have no say what so ever in how you raise him even when marriage is on the table. An you ex who you refer to as the *******. I can't help make him come thru with the child support nor stop the hoops he puts you thu for picking up or dropping off said child. More then once I've heard its alway been me and my child and thats how it will always be he will always be #1 in my life. Ok I understand that and will not argue that. But isn't part of having a child and raising them is so they have the skills and the knowledge to leave you?? For them to become their own person and have their own life?? What then?? If you don't find a balance for yourself and your life after 21 years your going to find yourself alone waiting for a phone call maybe. I would walk thru hot coals and fight the devil himself for my woman and my family and I'm not good enough? when your ex take a baseball bat to your car and says hes coming for you its me who meets him at the door. I'm not good enough.

I swear I'm doing something wrong don't know wth it is I can't even buy a vowel. Why is it when the crap hits the fan I'm the first person to get the call yet not even thought of during the good times.

Why do I put myself thru this and multiple times like 7 times now why do I put my heart on my sleeve knowing I'll just bleed maybe I am the crazy one. Or its cause I hold on to this silly idea that it wont happen one time and that I can't win if I don't play.

Why can't it be as easy as walking up and saying Hi I don't know you but I'd like to. I must have been a very bad person in a past life or something and karma still kicking my *** for it. An if that is the case I'd really like to go back and kick his *** so mine would stop already.

I hope everyone has a great Tuesday I'm going to bed.