I didn't blow it!
I posted the other day how I was pretty mad at myself for throwing away everything that I was working for and just pigging out for about a week and a half, it was about four days ago, but I learned something in the the past four days of renewing my healthy eating that has surprised and encouraged me and may encourage some others, hopefully.
Before throwing everything out the window I was down to about 192.5 during my daily morning weigh-in, my lowest point in more than fifteen years, I was so happy and proud of myself, but then some pretty tough times hit and I couldn't handle it, during that time I would see up to 204.5 on the scale, sure, at night, but I hadn't seen the terrible 2's in more than a month, I was so ashamed of myself. Unlike in the past where I would just chuck everything out the window I told myself that this was nuts and that I was not going to ruin the hard work that I had done just so that I could pig out on food that I wasn't even enjoying. I mean, when I am eating well, I love what I am eating, I work hard to plan meals that I enjoy because I know that I'm getting less to work with, but when I was eating whatever we had in the house just to fill my face and some nameless void, I wound up eating stuff that I really didn't even like, it's silly.
Anyway, it's only been four days since I got back to eating in a more appropriate way and i haven't even really exercised and the scale said 194.2 this morning, yeah, about a pound and half higher than my lowest weight, but I can deal with that much better that seven or eight pounds. I didn't do anything drastic, I'm not starving myself, went back to about where I was, yeah, I can't have exactly what I'd like to because since Shaun lost his job about a month ago and the car decided to torture us and take any extra money we have, we've had to be pretty spare in what we get, but I'm learning to adapt and Shaun is great, he knows that I need to buy certain things and he will go without some of the stuff that he loves so that I can get what I need.
The moral of the story being that even if you think that you blew, if you get back to what you were doing you may see that it's not as bad as you think, whether it was a week and a half or three years, this is a life change, there are going to be rough spots, but get back on that horse!
YYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
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