As I sit here with two lunching kiddo's (they have natural pb and honey on whole wheat with peaches, mandarins and yogurt) and Lady Gaga BLASTING on the stereo and we're all groovin... I can't help but think that I might not even BE here if it weren't for all of my hard work this year. I saved my own life and now I get to FREAKING LIVE IT.
Well, I am not listenting to blaring music....... but I do feel good today. Like you, I put in a lot of hard work..... Losing this much weight had nothing to do with "luck" it had to do with EFFORT. As I sit in my office where people are eating candy left and right and ordering take out..... I remind myself that this time last year, everything was a chore for me..... and now I "get" to do certain things like take a walk during my lunch..... instead of feeling miserable about what I ate.
I feel GREAT! Like another poster said on another thread, I feel like I have won the lottery!
I'm having a rough day... TOM is here, I'm tired and cranky and just want the kids to vanish.... but it's a good day, I have drank my water and am right where I should be with my calories for this time of the day.... and if I can muster the desire to get out of the house this evening, I'm going to go buy new underwear because mine are falling off my butt!
A friend asked in all seriousness last night if I was going to start modelling again, something I haven't done since I was 20 years old, LOL. Yeah right. But it's been a good day, nevertheless.
Everyday that I stick to plan is a good day for me. I think my journey is my new obsession. It's on my mind all the time. For me that's what keeps me strong. This is the first time trying to lose weight that I have stuck to plan religiously for 5 months. I try to wake up everyday with a positive attitude. I feel proud of myself everyday...and thats what makes it a great day!
Today I'm happy because I'm in love, and I'm not terrified by the prospect for the first time in a long time. I forgot how good it feels. (And it's great for weight loss too, the scale has been plummeting lately.)
cfmama: Congrats on your awesome success with weight loss and improving your health. Congrats also on feeding your kids in a healthy way. I am happy for you to have such a happy mood today. You are amazing and you deserve many days of great moods.
I'm glad others are having good days too. I hope there are many more for everyone and that there are good days headed in the direction of any of you chicks who are having not so good days right now.
Happy Birthday Thighs.
I am having an extremely happy day too because I have also saved my own life. I won't take the space to type it all again here, I already put it in a thread called MAJOR NSVs, but I will say that I have kicked diabetes' butt. I am sooooo happy right now.
I am so happy today too!! I just feel so alive... excited to BE. I had a walk in the cool sunny fall weather and the smell of leaves just made me happy.
Unfortunately for this house it has not been a good day. My two year old has swine flu and is pretty miserable (she'll be fine, just lots of vomiting) and so I was up with her all night. Then my one year old was awakened by her crying and decided to stay up fussing too, so sleep was non-existent.
It's been a very long day already. Fortunately she is now taking a nap and little sister is playing in the living room, so the day is improving. But sick kids are never fun!
I am not a member of this forum, but just wanted to post and say, cfmama, I LOVE your message. It is so life affirming and you are so inspiring! Thanks!
Seriously... the longer I go on this journey, the more I find myself walking on that good ole Cloud 9!!! For the first time in a long time, I feel content with the direction my life is going..... makes you wonder what in the H*LL we were thinking to let it go so bad and become so crappy feeling!!!