Okay, so I've slipped. But not in the usual way. It started out with good intentions and now 8 days into it I am confessing in hopes that doing so will get me back on track
I've lost about 50 pounds since February. It took a long time compared to the previous times when I've been able to lose 40-50 pounds in 3 or 4 months. I ate healthy. I worked out a LOT. I put on lean body mass. I was doing it right, and I was feeling like I finally was doing it right for the last time.
Last week we had company, mutual friends of my house mate's and mine. One of these friends talked with my house mate, and she said she was getting "tired of all the vegetables" that I was cooking (LOL) and she was missing the structure we had when we went to Physicians' Weight Loss center for 3 weeks back in March. Then I unexpectedly had to go up North for the summer, and she fell off the wagon, and I was doing my "the right way" thing up there, and she expressed to my friend that she'd like to go back to PWLC.
So my decision to go back was primarily to support her, and help her get started on her own weight loss journey. She has about 175 to loose, so it's a serious matter of health combined with the other health issues she has (arthritis, COPD, etc.) I felt like this was a good reason. I figured that I would add some extra protein bars or cereal or whatever, to have the energy to continue my workouts.
PWLC gives you 800 cals the first 4 days. 900 cals the next 4 days and then 1000 cals thereafter. I KNOW THIS IS NOT ENOUGH even if you're not working out
I know this.
But old habits die hard. And delaying of instant gratification is not one of my strong suits.
I've posted here before (as many of us have) about the frustrations of doing everything right, and losing only 1-2 pounds a month. Or none. So when I did 2 days of PWLC with her, and lost another 1.6 pounds on top of the 1.1 pounds I'd lost after last weekend's "food holiday"...
For 8 days the temptation has been hard to resist. I've slacked off on my workouts - BIG TIME, because 800 calories a day is not even enough to breathe nevermind lift weights and kickbox and plyometrics. I realize the movement on the scale is almost surely water weight. Or Goddess Forbid - lean body mass. The part of my brain that is making these bad decisions right now doesn't care about such technicalities. It just wants the scale number to go down. And fast.
I know I need to get back on track. I know that eating less calories will slow my metabolism. I know that trading a healthy weight loss plan for quick weight loss is HORRIBLY stupid.
I've posted these things to other people looking for quick solutions. Forgive me
I'll go back and read what I've already written, to save anyone else the time for reminding me again what a poor choice this is.
I WILL get back on track. I will tell the voice in my head that's saying "Just do this until you get to 155 and then you can go back to the other way" to shut up and let me do my healthy thing
I just needed to confess to someone who would understand.
Thanks for reading