I have control issues
Someone here has a sig file with a quote which goes something like "If you want something you've never had, you must be prepared do something you've never done."
For me, my weight loss is taking control of part of my life - but, as I'm learning, in a non-control-freak way. Today I learnt to see a particular way in which this is happening.
You may recall a thread I began earlier this week about feeling tired and such: some people said I might be underestimating my activity level (as well as the fatigue being a side-effect of my anti-d). I realised that when I wake up in the mornings I can "feel" "light" or "heavy", and that based on this I would have an "idea" as to whether my weight that day (I weigh daily, but accept daily fluctuations as a face of life) would be up or down.
Those "feelings" are not an accurate indicator.
Over the past couple of days I've been eating more (whilst still trying my best to write everything down - my personal trainer wants to see what I eat). In the mornings I've been "feeling" "heavy"...and yet I've been losing weight.
I think in the past I've had this idea that in the mornings if I "felt" "light" (i.e., hungry and empty), it meant I had lost weight. Conversely, if I "felt" "heavy", I was at the same weight or had gained - and thus often wouldn't dare weigh myself.
Now that I'm in a regular pattern of weighing myself each day, and understand (due in no small part to this fantastic forum!) that weight goes up and down, I'm able to see that I can "feel" "full" and still be on a healthy weight loss curve.
Which is new, unexpected...that is, not something I could "control" based on my past experience. And it's kind of funny to me that my taking control of my weight and health involves this having to let go of those old "feelings" and what they "mean" - but then, as I said, I'm a control freak (my doc said as much!), so I suppose this is par for the course, huh?
Ok, thanks for reading this far if you have
Just some thoughts mulling over in my mind at the moment. Input would be appreciated if you'd like to share.