no , i know exactly what you are saying.
i just have gotten so into him that i have lost the ability to just relax and have a normal conversation without worrying that it will go anywhere.
which is easy to do with him, and i know he is a nice guy and he wouldn't do anything mean to me.
but yes, i am like your sister, i think that is why when i was younger i would have crush after crush that never lead anywhere
but i'm TIRED of that! and i want to at least step out on a limb and see if anything might happen!
but do to my shyness and pretty much lack of people skills, it is such a hard thing for me to do.
like you said, i just need to be comfortable.
i just have not felt this strongly about anyone in a looooong time, and quite frankly, i thought i was not attractive to the opposite sex anymore, so i was quite the skeptic when i first met him that he would actually be attracted.
i think too that i might have without realizing it made him think that i wasn't that interested, so now i feel bad about that.
i just don't know if i should be blunt about it or just see where it goes....or some intermediate that i'm not sure how to go about.