So I went on a date... and it went really badly, but let me tell you why I am happy about the whole thing.
First off, I didn't think it was a date. After I agreed to hangout I was told by others that he thought it was a date... and that became very obvious when I got to the restaurant. The whole thing was really awkward, especially when he tried to kiss me... so I still have to deal with all the weirdness of being around him now.
However, I am feeling good because besides the fact that it is flattering to know someone is interested in you... it was nice to know that I am not interested. Let me explain... with my weight and lower self esteem I have been likely to become interested in guys because I know they like me... not because we have common interests or I have feelings for them... just because they are showing interest. However, 3FC has really been a wake up call for me and I realize I don't want to settle for someone... when I do date again I want to know that it is because I really want to and not because I am feeling needy. I want to fill my own needs and love myself first, ya know.
So... thanks to all you chicks who have made me realize I am worth it. I was thinking of you last night at dinner and just wanted to show my appreciation. Lots of love...
OK, that really was a bad date if you were thinking about US! Hee, hee. So if you go out with someone and we're the farthest thing from your mind, you'll know there is more heat there!
I went on a date... hmmm...
Awesome!! I am glad you aren't going to settle, and you are feeling a lot better about yourself. 
Go Kae!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
on your realization!
