So I've been working at my job the past 3.5-4 months, as far as I know I have no problems with anyone.
I feel lately like people don't want to talk to me- unless there is no one else to talk to- of course I don't feel this way with everyone.
But for me, when I have free time I try to go and ask anyone if they need help- our front office is slammed with paperwork and I go a few hours a week and help them out.
Today one of the girls says to another "you going to happy hour tonight?"
She says she doesn't know, and I say "Oh is something going on?"
And she doesn't say anything, I continue to stare at her- like uh you gonna answer me? And she finally replies, well there might be something going on tonight...
And that's it- turns back to her work- it's like talk about a slap in the face! I felt totally excluded, and I also heard some other's talking about tonight's happy hour- but they are whispering it as I walk by and say hi. I wanted to say "Okay I guess I'm not counted in!" I just finished my work and when they asked if I could do something else I said sorry I'm busy but I'll come back later... OR NOT.
I'm like dang am I that fat and ugly and grotesque you don't want me to come? I mean I'm a nice person, I don't go around bragging about myself or something, I'm not ugly or something, I'm polite, I like to joke like the next person, I feel totally excluded right now and at the same time feel like would it be different if I weren't overweight?