Hi Ann, have you read the book "You are not what you weight?" I was given this book a few years ago and was going to read but gave it to a friend that wanted to borrow. I never got the book back, but I have heard so many good things about it. It's a Christian book and it talks about what you're going through right now.
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Remember, if you are feeling condemnation where does that come from? Does it come from the Lord? No, it comes from the enemy. God is peace, love, joy and so many more things. If you are feeling anything but those things, then it's not from God. I have a tool that really helps me when I'm feeling down and depressed and don't want to do anything. If you're interested, in it PM me and I can email it to you. It's changed my prayer life and changed how I look at things and problems.
In our weakness, He is able to be strong. You're not alone!