Newbie - and my goal starts tomorrow.
Well my husband and I are finally going to do it.....we're buying a treadmill. I'm beyond excited - I can now run off these extra pounds within the comfort of my own home. I no longer have to fear the looks of people when I run outside - yes people, I'm scare to run outside because I think people are looking at me in disgust. Now mind you I'm not 300 pounds or anything but I'm not the same 119 pound girl I was when I moved to Florida 5 years ago. I am now a woman who has been married for three years now and when through a hysterectomy at the age of 22. Given my body was thrown into menopause 20 plus years ahead of it's time, my body has had to pay for it....I've gained alot of weight. So much that I'm not even going to tell you how much I weigh because I'm ashamed of it. i look in the mirror and point out all my new fat pockets - my cheeks, my love handles, my tummy, my boobs, my butt, my hips, and yes even my legs especially the sides of my knees. I'm a complete bubble of fat. But I now have this new modivation - with this $600+ new piece of equipment I am and will lose weight - I want to get back down to my 119 - okay maybe 130 - frame. I want to look pretty in clothes without worrying if I have rolls, I want to wear cute bras again instead of these huge boulder holders, I want be confident again, I want to go to the beach with my friends instead of making excuses, I want to be able to walk around naked in own house, I want to go to the bar with my friends and actually be the one getting hit on and then turn them down because I'm married, I want to shock my in-laws when I see them again, I just want to lose weight, I'm tired of this.
Wish me luck.
I will be checking in on a regular basis.
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best wishes to you on your weight loss journey...join us over at the runners thread too!
