Am I the only one...
 

who is scared of my body changing every single day? I've lost just under 40lbs over the past three months and a little part of me is absolutely terrified of this change. I'm getting lots of compliments about my weight loss but my body is changing every single day.

I'm noticing changes every time I wear something again and it's an amazing feeling but it's frightening to think of how quickly I'm changing because as a person I am so resistant to change. I want this change more than anything and I'm doing the hard work for it.

Please tell me i'm not the only one. I refuse to lose the weight by hating myself and hating my body. I want to make this as positive an experience for myself as possible. Has anyone else experienced this?

I've been experiencing it lately. I've lost 15lbs in just 2 weeks because I've changed what I do JUST WITH FOOD. And clothes fit differently, my body looks different, I can bend down and tie my shoes, I can walk farther.

Who is the new me? Is she like the me I know? What does she like? It feels like she is another person. Like I'm stepping into another body and trying to wear it, to get used to it. It's causing me anxiety. And I want to eat to calm the anxiety.

Do you feel that way?:hug:

I don't recognize myself in the mirror sometimes and it's a little freaky! I had posted a few weeks back that I saw my husband in a reflection but I didn't know who was beside him (duh, it was me). But I also remember seeing pictures of me at my biggest and I didn't recognize myself then either. :(

Congrats on your weightloss so far, it's the best feeling even with these other issues we are dealing with!

You're not the only one :hug:

I have 2 main fears:

1. Unwanted attention once I've lost weight, and
2. Having nothing to hide my failures behind once I've lost weight

I'm dealing with the first one by remembering I can become strong and agile once I'm smaller. I'm not sure about the second one, but maybe facing my other problems will be a better idea than hiding them behind being overweight.

Really, I don't know exactly who I'll be once I'm smaller. But I guess I can never know the answer to that, at least I'll be someone I want to be, rather than just being swept along with whatever happens, if that makes sense?

I know it's hard, but try to just focus on right now. This meal, this workout, and if you're not eating or working out, then whatever you're doing right now. It's easier said than done, I know, but I find that it helps to calm the "what if??" anxiety :) :hug:

I'm definitely weirded out by my shrinking body. My ankles and wrists look like they could snap! For some reason, my limbs look smaller now than they did when I was at lower weights. I don't know if I just didn't pay as much attention to such things before, but I really don't remember my legs & arms looking so thin before. Not that they're actually thin, just a lot thinner


Just read the OP more closely & wanted to say I totally feel you on being resistant to change; through most of my life, nothing was more scary to me than change. I can handle it a lot better now, but it still tends to freak me out.

I'll be the first in here to say - NO! I love that my body is changing, the reason I wanted to lose weight in the first place is because I was unhappy, so the change is the best feeling in the world! I feel epic whenever I compare before and current pictures, because that's when I really see the change and it's amazing!

Try and not be scared and embrace it, you're working hard for this change. If you are genuinely terrified then maybe maintain for a while until you get that desire to move forward again.

I LOVE all of the changes going on with my body, but I have had a hard time integrating them. It just seems like so much so fast, even though I haven't really lost fast. It's been hard to accept that the person in the mirror is really me.

I'm sorry you are having a hard time with what you are feeling about your body these days. I wish I had better advice.

I will say, lately, I have stopped noticing as much, even though when I pay attention, I know I am still changing at the same rate. It's little things that catch me off guard these days - whacking my hip bone against something and it hurting because there isn't much padding there anymore. Things like that.

I walked by a mirror in Bloomingdales today and did a double take. Holy ****- I look NORMAL!

Thank you girls for getting back to me. I think I should have expanded on all the other changes taking place in my life.
We have a joint family business, and that is splitting at the moment. I work for a huge company and they're planning on shutting down as well. My parents have decided to move to a new home, and that means saying bye to my family home where i've lived all my life.
It's a lot happening, and everything is really stressful at the moment, and the only change that's making me freak out is my own physical and mental change.

I have noticed that since i've started my weight loss journey i've lost patience with time wasters and I am changing as well, I'm putting myself first. I love that there are so many people here who are on the same journey as me.

Its okay, I live in constant fear of gaining weight again. I weigh every day and feel ill when its higher. Eventually it will go away!