Back on the Bandwagon
I hate being the person who is "back on the bandwagon". I don't know what it is about me, but I just can't seem to get this whole eating right thing down.
Well, exciting news---I finished my third half-marathon in October, but I have kind of been incognito since then. I am trying to get back to eating correctly, and trying to stay accountable with what I eat.
I have been giving myself some breathing room.
Recently, a guy at work told me that I wasn't "skinny" like the other girl. What does that mean? Why do men sometimes feel like its OKAY to say these things? I've been disgruntled lately by the amount of men who have felt that it's okay to tell me how they percieve my weight, and it's gotten me angry enough to try and lose weight again.
I get very tired of men telling me these things. On another level, I am just not okay with weighing myself anymore. I get too obsessive. The way that I view my weight, I think that it's important to develop a healthy mentality of who I am as a person versus how everyone else percieves me.
Well---I'm back!
Scared, and slightly wondering if I should start doing the daily weigh-ins agian. It may be a good idea for me, may keep me on track. I have a fear of the scale again, and I don't want to get back on until I know that I look good in the mirror and that the number on the scale reflecting back at me will say the same thing.
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