Motivation, Such an Aggrivation
I am completely lacking in motivation. I am a college senior in the middle of finals week. Now let me define a word for you, "senior-itis" is a disease that all seniors get because they know school is ending soon FOR GOOD. Usually I pig out during finals week to help me study but this year finals week has been especially emotionally draining because I know I am so close to the end of college. Don't get me wrong, I love learning and am looking forward to graduate school. I just can't stand all the stupid classes I am required to take by my school - I feel so under challenged and unexcited by these unstimulating courses that I am just pigging out to get myself to focus on work. Ironically, while I am complaining about my work now, I am even more freaked out about when it ends. What do you do when your life, which has been guided by teachers for the past 22 years, suddenly becomes empty and it is up to me to fill it with a job and purpose. For the past 22 years my only purpose had been to get A's in school. What now? I am terrified I won't be qualified for any job. I am just so afraid of the future and that is also contributing to my eating
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