I've made it down to 285! I wish I could speed up time to make the weight loss go by faster, but I'm still going to count a 3 pounds loss over a week and a half a win! My first goal is technically to hit 283 (10% weight loss), but really I'm shooting for the 70s right now!

Hi ladies,

Sorry for being so MIA. I haven't done very well since I've been home (gained like 4 pounds. Sigh.) and have been avoiding making myself accountable for it by updating on here! Just when I thought I was out of the 280s forever, I saw 280.4 on the scale this morning. OUCH. Means I really need to buckle down and cut back on sugar and carbs again, and seriously watch my calories. Sugar has definitely been my biggest problem lately. I've also been stress-eating. I'm a little annoyed with the weather--the sun should be out, it should be a little warmer than the 47 it is right now!! Ugh.

But hey, even at 280, a year ago today I stepped on the scale and it read 323. That's still 43 pounds less than a year ago, which is much better than nothing (or gaining)! Also, right around now (after midnight) exactly a year ago I was experiencing one of the worst nights of my life. I made the mistake of reading the AIM conversation (the program I use saves them all) I had with my ex at this very moment one year ago. It's just so crazy that it's been a year and it's so fresh in my mind. I hate that it still makes me a little sad when I think about it. I actually think it's because I don't have any other "guy" in my life (be it a crush or otherwise). It's funny though, I do like being single, and don't really want to be "dating" or "in a relationship" right now. I still need to work on myself. So in honor of it being one year, I am doing my bazillionth restart in the morning! And I know I'll fall off the wagon again eventually but I'm just going to stick with making this coming day a good one--my top priority. I hope it turns into lots of good days and ultimately a 30 pound loss by the end of the summer. My goal is to be under 250 by the time I go back to school...I know I can do it if I set my mind to it. And then, under 200 by graduation next year, at least 196 ideally, which would make me overweight instead of obese. Ahhhh.

I'll update again tomorrow evening and respond to everyone's posts, but I think I'm gonna try to go to bed now. :) Ttys!

Yeah talk about restarting! I'm hoping to get on track in the morning. I'm going to the grocery store to get the things for my 2 week smoothie diet. I've tried everything else so why not? Last time I weighed I was back at 281 but hey! It wasn't 285 or 287. We can do this ladies!

Does anyone have days where you all of a sudden loose a couple of pounds? I'm keeping myself hydrated and trying to stay around 1500 calories. Is it normal with a weight this high for it to come off a little faster? I'm beginning to worry it's just water weight.

Deborah - Congrats on 285! Yes, it is possible, in the begining to loose quickly, especially if you have made a drastic change to your diet. Also, keeping hydrated with water will cause you to lose weight quickly in the begining as well, look at what you ate before vs your 1500 cals, you may have been taking in a lot more calories then you thought before, causing your great results. Some of the weight probably is water weight (not all of it), but water weight is weight too and you lost it! Keep up the good work you will see the 270s soon!!!

imtrying - I will use smoothie diets on occasion to detox my body, I love them! I always get more energy and my skin feels better! You can do this!!! Let us know how you smoothie diet is going!

Taliee - I was begining to worry about you! I'm glad to see you back on. Can you believe that you, me, Shelly, and Phoenix have known each other for a year now? AND look how much you've changed in a year! You are almost at your 50lb mark, you graduated jr year, and you are on the right path to reaching your goal!!! Soooo proud of you! Yay for restarts, it is ok to fall off, as long as you get back on! I think you are right about being sad when you look back at your AIM, but once you are ready, you will find someone and then you won't look at that AIM and be sad, it will have just been a learning experience. *BIG HUGS*

As for me, I have started Michael Thurman's 6 week body makeover, it is a hard, very restrictive diet, but I made most everything on Sunday evening, and that has made things much easier!!! I was WAY up, talking right at 270, I have been doing horrid since we got home from the hospital, but I'm back on track, and although this isn't official, when I weighed in this morning I was down to 267, so I am hoping for maybe even a 265 (yes, drastic, but I'm hoping) by Monday (my official weigh in day). I'm glad our little thread is moving again! Keep up the fantastic work ladies! I am sooo proud of all of you!

Tailee--Very happy to hear from you again! I have been guilty of avoiding our thread to keep from making myself accountable as well. I even had a bit of a break down last week about only having lost 50 pounds in this past year but I have to remind myself that it's 50 pounds gone. 50 pounds FOREVER gone.

Deborah: Sometimes I do get a swoosh of weight loss. Two pounds at a time. Usually if I've been working out for about a week and nothing happens, the day I get frustrated and stop going, the morning after shows a two pounds swoosh. I did read into it a bit and it takes our bodies some time to catch up once we work out or change our diets drastically. Our muscles hold on to water and other resources for safety measures. Then once it has adjusted it all jumps into gear again.

Lorie-I'm scared to get started with a new diet and exercise regime for some reason. LEt us know how it works out for you will ya?

Imtryingto: LEt us know how your smoothie diet goes. In the very beginning, May last year, I did a 2 week fruit and veggies diet as cleanse and it worked well but I was so sick of fruit. Weird, right? I'm not much of a sweets person so it killed me.

As for me, I have completely committed to my graduation and wedding goals. I'm going to make it happen. None of my goals in the past worked out and it, inevitably, my fault. I didn't stay on track. I'm going to make these happen now. I want to be able to say that, yes, I actually did lose 10 pounds a month at least once in my weight loss journey. It's pathetic but my motivation right now is purely to prove to my mother (who I will see at graduation) and Bill (the wedding) that for 1.) I am strong and WILL be what I say I will be and 2.) F U, You are a fool (Bill, of course, not my mother). I'm really looking to make his ex be the LAST thing on his mind when I walk into the room. This may not be the healthiest motivation but right now it is keeping me going and beggars can't be choosers.

NSV-I did have a bit of an exciting event this weekend. I usually wear spanx under all of my clothes--I'm quite addicted--and not wearing them makes me uncomfortable. I also have this same addiction to tank tops. Anyway, I had to go somewhere in a hurry and just threw on my pants, without my spanx, and my belt went up a over a hole. It was quite exciting. With my spanx it won't go over a hole, without, it's like I lost 10 pounds. Weird and ironic.

Hello ladies!
I'm still here, and I apologize for being AWOL these past few days. My DD got very sick with the norwalk virus, and so of course yours truly also caught it. What a mean and nasty bug! The upside is I lost 4 more pounds (although not the way I wanted to.) Tomorrow is my official wi day, so I will update my siggy then. I figure it doesn't matter at this point that I lost the weight by being sick, so long as I can keep it off. (it's not like I dropped half my body weight by being mortally sick or anything, 4 lbs is a reasonable amount to work at keeping off)

I'm still pretty queasy, and not quite all better, so I'll keep it short and just wish everyone all the best for this week! Keep up the great effort y'all!

I'm new to this thread! 280 is my highest weight and I don't want to be there again lol. I am right at 280.2, so I won't be hanging around this thread very long, but I thought I'd jump in to say hi anyway!

Hi Ladies!

I don't know if I'm "back on track," but I'm definitely trying to eat less. The day after I last posted I had NO sugar/carbs the entire day (just meat and veggies, basically) and ended up with a 3-pound whoosh, lol. Since then I haven't been too strict, but I'm back to 276ish, at least. I AM going to do my best to be in the 260s by the time I go to Vegas on my birthday in 4 weeks (even if it's just 269)--which is totally doable. I've realized attacking one decade at a time is really the best for me, just because it makes everything so much less overwhelming, e.g., "I just have to get to 269," and then "I just have to get to 259," etc. I'm still a little disappointed because I've been keeping track of my 1st of the month weights, and since March I've been averaging a 2 pound a month loss. 2 pounds a month?! I should be doing 2 pounds a week!! Ughhhh. I mean, it's better than nothing, especially gaining, but still...frustrating. So on May 1 I was 276, and there's a week and a half left of may--I am 276-277 right now--so I'm gonna bust my butt for 273, which would be a new low (and the official 50 pound mark)!

Lorie- I KNOW!! It's so crazy it's already been a year. You ladies have been so awesome through all of this, and it's helped a LOT to have you all. Thank you soooo much for all the support, it means a ton! :) Keep us posted on the 6 week body makeover--glad to hear it's going well, despite the strictness! I may have to try it if the scale doesn't start moving soon! XD

Shelly- YAY you can do this! My motivation is pretty "bad" too--for my graduation next May, I'm shooting for 196 (which would put me at overweight instead of obese) so when I get up on that stage it can be like a big FU to my ex's girlfriend (she's heavy too, was a total brioche to me last year, and will be there because she's a college employee). The last time I saw them I was in the 320s. CRAZY. I know I shouldn't have it as a motivation, but I can't help it! lol. (Also, I want to look good for graduation pictures...haha.) LOVE your Spanx NSV. It's always so nice when things happen like that. :)

Laura- hope you and your DD are feeling better! The only "up" side to being sick--you lose weight (but you're right, not really the best way to)!

Chloe- Welcome to the thread! It's funny, we're not necessarily like some of the other threads that are like, once you're out of a certain decade you stop posting haha. Even if you're not in the 280s right now, you can still stay with us! There are a few of us who've actually been posting in the thread for a year now (I still can't believe it) and are past the 280s! So you're welcome to stay and keep us all updated if you'd like--280s and beyond! :)

Oh, I forgot to mention I FINALLY got a job! I start at Old Navy tomorrow!! I've had a bunch of friends who've worked for ON and thought it wasn't too bad, for retail at least. I'm also getting paid a little more than the other jobs I've had, which is nice. Plus, I can work at the one up in Vermont once school starts if I want. YAY. :)

Tailee- COngrats on the new job! I worked in retail for several years. A hip hop clothing store (which got me into a lot of different groups of friends...not all good) and The Children's Place. It was a lot of fun be careful about the food. If this ON is inside of a mall or surrounded by food places, DO NOT GET TRAPPED. I made a lot of friends with some of the food people and was given so much free food...free UNHEALTHY food. Be careful babe! I know you know better but it sucks you in before you know it!

Chloe- don't worry about having to leave just because you make it out of the 280's. I've been here since the 280's and I've said goodbye to them forever!

Ladies-I have to tell you about an amazing new app I found for my phone. If you guys have an iphone or an Android- look up My Fitness Pal. It helps to track calories and your weight. It's awesome. It tells you how many calories you need to lose weight. Apparently I'm suppose to be down 10 pounds by June 27th. I'll let you all know how it goes.

Also- some pretty crazy news. I'm sure those who know the history between Bill and I might actually roll your eyes but....I spent the weekend with him. Nothing inappropriate and I asked him to be a gentleman-which he was. He took my to dinner Friday night and we stayed up until 10 AM the next morning talking. He told me why he's been kinda hot, kinda cold. We don't have a full on relationship but he did say that he was not dating anyone else and would like to see where we could eventually lead. He's on a business trip right now and it is driving me crazy not hearing from him all day. I'm wondering what it will be like when he gets back. I told him my concerns and he told me his. Ironically, they were the same. Who knew... Anyway, another pretty amazing thing he told me, that I really needed to hear (or not), was that he loved my body and everything about me. Wow. I was kind of speechless. I am just hoping this doesn't detour my weight loss goals. I don't want to get too comfortable.

Its getting hotter and hotter by the day. It will be in the 100's by the end of the week and the clothes are getting skimpier. I am a little depressed about it considering this time last year I was telling myself I'd be in a bathing suit by now. Hmm, well I've matured in my weight loss mind set and I know better now.

I hope all the ladies are doing well! I look forward to receiving updates from you all!

Yeah, I am under 280 now but decided to hang around anyway! A lot of the other 20-somethings threads are for 170s or 150s, etc. and I'm a little bigger than that lol. Yesterday I was 2766, but I ate a little bit too much and am back up to 278.2. I stayed within my calories, so I know it's just sodium and I am eating clean and drinking lots of water.

Shelly - I was really afraid to start this diet myself, because it is soooo restrictive and my older kids are now out for summer, so instead of having 2 home all day, I've got all 5 of them all day. So, I have to try to feel them what they like, plus stick to my diet, it is going to be a chore, but so far, I am loving the results, so that is incentive to stay on plan. I am glad you are set on your wedding and graduation goals! You can get there, I've seen how much progress you make when you set your mind to it. As for Bill, just be careful and take it slow. Remember to focus on you and the goals you want, don't focus on pleasing him, focus on pleasing you. If you are happy with you, chances are much more likely you will both be happy in the relationship :) I'm glad you got answers you needed from him, keep me posted on how it's going!

Taliee - WOW! You are sooo close to your 50lb mark! I love it! Congrats on your new job! It's wonderful you will have the option to transfer when you go back to school, one less thing to worry about!! I like your idea of just focusing on eating less and no real plan, paying attention to what you eat can really help a lot and I think you'll start getting some really good results! Let me know how you are doing!

Chloe - I'm glad you have decided to stick around. As you might have notices, there are a lot of that vary in weight, some in the 240-250 range and others that are a little about the 280 range. I think 280 was were most of us originals started, but it is just an average. Good luck on your goals and can't wait to get to know you!

As for me, I was going to tell you all about my week, but Abel is getting fussy so I must get off. It is bath time for the kiddos anyway, I will get on, probably tonight or at nap this afternoon when all the kids are asleep and fill you all in! Good luck ladies! Until this afternoon.....

OK! Sorry ladies, I know I said I would get back in the evening, but as you know, I usually get behind with my crazy household.

Well, so far, I am loving the 6 week body makeover. It is really restrictive, but it isn't anything I can't do. The hardest thing was getting all the low-sodium and sodium free things (since I live in a tiny town, we don't have a lot of variety, which makes it difficult to find something out of the norm). I prepare most of my items on Sunday, so all I have to do is open up the fridge and nuke whatever I put on my plate. It makes it a lot easier to stay on plan since I already have everything cooked and pre-measured. Sunday is the day I cut and organize my coupons, so..since I'm home anyways, doing all my prep for the week is pretty easy. The first week, I dropped 8 lbs. That 8lbs was really not even totally on plan, since I started before I found everything I needed, just to get semi-use to the plan.

I think I may have found a new form of exercise as well. My husband and I bought the kids a trampoline, and while doing research via the internet last night, I found that jumping on a trampoline can be a good form of muscle toning and calorie burning. So, I found a trampoline routine via youtube (does that sound silly, trampoline routine???) and I plan on jumping late at night when the kids are in bed and none of the neighbors can see me. I'm not sure if it really will work too much, but I figure any form of movement is better than nothing. I'm also starting the insanity workouts! I think they are going to be a little much in the begining, but I'm going to do the best I can and maybe after the first round of the series I'll be in good enough shape to do the entire series without stopping on the second (ok, maybe third) go around. Something is better than nothing. Plus, it is summer time, so the kids are wanting to get out and swim, go to theme parks, and do other things, so I hope I am going to get a lot of workout this summer. I was hoping to be able to wear shorts and swimsuits with no t-shirts this summer (Oklahoma easily has over 100 degree days most of the summer) but I just don't feel comfortable with my body yet.
Ok ladies, I know that was long and a lot of rambling, but I have a lot on my mind and was trying to get it all out before the kids lunch time got here, and now...it's time to get up and cook for the little ones. Until next time ladies.....keep reaching for your stars! I believe in every single one of you! We can do this!

Well ladies,

I was just passing time here on my laptop and I realized that if I lose 3lbs each week (which is roughly 12 pounds a month) from this point on, come January 1 (with is in just about 6 months) I will be right under 200lbs!!!! Did I just find a new motivation.......I think yes! Just wanted to share! I hope you all are doing fantastic!

Hi Ladies,

So I updated about a week ago? I guess I was 276ish then, but I think the next day I was 275--because I know I've been 275 at at least FIVE DAYS IN A ROW now. SO frustrating. I mean yeah, it's good that I'm not gaining, but I'm also TRYING to be good, and nothing's happening. I guess I need to step it up and cut out more of the white bread (because, admittedly, I am still eating a good amount of it). It's weird, though, because I don't think I've been eating more than 1800 calories a day. Maybe that's the problem? My calories are too high? I guess I should try taking it down a couple hundred, cut out more carbs/sugar, and see how it goes. I'm also going to grab my newer scale that's at my apartment in Burlington when I move on Wednesday (I'm moving from my old apartment to my new one). My goal is still to be in the 240s by the time I go back to school, which is only 26 pounds away! I think I can handle that this summer.

Shelly- Luckily, this ON detached from the mall (about a mile from it, actually) and the only food places near it are Starbucks and Applebees, lol. However, after 10 years at the current location, they're moving into the mall at the end of the summer--when I won't be there, yay! Haha. It's definitely easy to be tempted, though. I will keep your advice with me for sure! Oh, and don't even worry about Bill updates. I like reading them!! I'm glad you had a good time with him. Hopefully he's not too bad of a guy after all, and that he ultimately makes you happy. :]

Chloe- Glad you are sticking around! Sounds like we're kind of in the same spot. You can do it! I look forward to more posts from you.

Lorie- is the 6 week body makeover expensive? It sounds interesting, I mean, I'd try it. Sometimes I need a little restriction, haha. Keep us all posted, I'm so happy for you and I definitely think you can achieve all your goals!! I too am excited for SUMMER! Both you and Shelly are much farther south than I am--right now, New England has been having pretty crappy weather, but I think it should be getting nice soon. We've been getting LOTS of rain and very little sun, with temps in the 40s, 50s, and 60s. It's 73 right now, though, which I think is the highest it's been so far, haha. (Not sunny, though.)

Tuesday is supposed to be nice and my friend and I have planned our first full beach day:
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(That's her nine year old daughter, my little BFF! Haha. At one of the many gorgeous beaches in my area.) I can't wait. I'm so glad I started going to the beach again last summer, I LOVE it.

Alrighty, I have some errands to run but I'll talk to you all later. I start class tomorrow--AHH!! Biology, blegh. lol. Hope everyone has a fantastic week!

Ugh I FINALLY did well enough yesterday to break my d*mn 275 curse. 274.7 this morning...off to a good start so far, too. Have a great day, ladies!

Taliee - Yay for 274!!! That is fantastic!! I think you are right, your calorie intake may be your problem. From what I have read, most women trying to lose weight should eat around 1500 calories and if they are trying to maintain, they should eat around 1800. So, maybe try dropping your calorie intake a bit and see what happens. Also, are you drinking enough water and staying hydrated? I notice that when I start slacking on my water intake that my weight loss starts to come to a hault and even creep back up sometimes. The 6 week body makeover (which I love so far, even though it is restrictive) was $120.00 + shipping. So, it was a bit expensive, but you can make monthly 6 payments of 19.99 a month I believe if you choose to go that route. The food that you need isn't really expensive though, so I think I have actually saved money on food since I've started it. I will def. keep you informed! I love your picture! I am soooo jealous! I would love to live up north and near the beach! As far as your summer goal, 26lbs before school starts back is absolutely do-able! I know you can reach that!!!

As for me, I am back down to 265 this morning, so I am hoping to be right at 260 by next weigh-in (which is next Monday). So far, the 6 week body makeover is going great. I have gotten all the items I need and gotten use to doing all my prep-work on Sundays, so I just go in the fridge, grab what I want and stick it in the microwave. THe "eating out guide" is also going to come in handy because starting next week the kids are going to be wanting to go out and do fun summer things. I promised them that after we "deep cleaned and de-cluttered" the house their real summer could begin. Needless to say, they have been little cleaning demons this past few days. Well, everyone is down for nap so I am going to work on the laundry and tonight I'll be starting my insanity workout. I will let you all know how that goes (I am sure it's going to kick my butt!). I hope all of you ladies have a wonderful summer!!!

Very happy to hear from you, Lorie, and that you're back down to 265! Sounds like you're following a program that's really working for you and I'm so glad that it is! If I could send some of the beach to Oklahoma, I totally would! :P I actually got a little sunburned on my back yesterday from sitting on the beach with a friend, hahaha.

So, I'm at 273 now and I guess I've hit my official 50 pound mark, which is nice. I do want to get out of the 270s, though, haha. My friend texted me this morning and told me in the week she's been on her own diet, she's lost 16 pounds. 16 pounds!! Can you believe it? The most I've ever lost in a week was 10 pounds, and I had pretty much no sugar the whole time. I'm super happy for her but definitely jealous, hahaha. (She went from 278 to 262.) Lucky!

Hope to see more posts from the rest of the ladies soon. :]

Oh ladies, ladies, ladies! I am doing horribly. I haad way too much happen this weekend. Seemed to have taken the whole "1 drink" rule of mine out of context. Had a birthday party plus a couple of bbqs and a dinner to olive garden. Well, four pounds later. My doctors appt is Thursday and I was really hoping to have lost a few pounds but instead here I am, up 4. I know it was probably just a shock to the system so I will be down but it still discouraging. Decided to do south beachphase 1 for a bit so I can get back on track. Still 4 months til the wedding-still hope!

Lorie, I'm glad everything is working out for you!!

Tailee- did she just start? I know sometimes some people when they first start watching what their eating and they cut out some stuff they drop off lbs like a brick. I missing being able to drop them quickly!!

Tailee----I forgot to mention. CONGRATS on the 50!!! WOOHOOOO!

shelly- Join the club! I ate waaaaay too much over the weekend and gained the 3 pounds I lost last week. I finally got access to a gym, so I've been throwing in some extra workouts and trying to work off the extra weight. You can do it!

Trying to recover from my Memorial Day weekend eatfest. Just trying to eat clean, drink lots of water, and workout a ton!

I haven't posted in a few weeks. I hope everyone is doing great. I haven't been on my plan in almost a month. I weighed a few weeks ago and as usual I gained like 5 lbs back. So hopefully monday I'll be starting back. I have too much to do this weekend and I know im going to cheat so monday it is!

Tailee- Congrats on losing 50 lbs! That must feel great.
Shelly- I also wasn't do too well during May but I just kept trying to better and better each day until I got back on track. Good luck.

I am at 274.5 right now I have been doing fairly well these past two weeks I really hope I can last throughout the summer. My best friend is moving in with me and she is going to help me, so this summer should be fun.

Hi all! I hope I can hop in this thread! I'm at 282 (roughly) right now... I haven't weighed myself today because I was very bad this morning. Bah. I'm grocery shopping tonight, though, and getting a whole bunch of healthy foods so I'll be back on the wagon soon! <3

Hi ladies! Hope everyone's doing well. I've been 272 on the nose the past couple of days, which is good because it's the lowest I've been so far. I'm really hoping to be in the 260s by my birthday--two weeks from today! Just 3 pounds, I'm so close!!

Well it had been a few days since I had been on here so I figured I'd check for updates, and it looks like I need to bump our thread! Lol. I just got TOM so I've gained like 2-3 pounds, and last night for dinner I bought a bunch of unhealthy frozen food and a bag of Doritos and ate a ton of it. Definitely not a good choice, BUT my eating hasn't been as bad as the last time I PMSed/had TOM, so hopefully when it's over I'll be right back down again (if I do well the next couple of days).

What a week! I've been pretty busy. I actually like my new job at Old Navy, I'm just SO tired by the time my shift is over! I know it's mostly because I need better shoes. Fun fact about me: I hardly EVER wear anything other than flats, and I don't have any socks (if I do, I have no idea where they are) because I either wear tights or just the flats. Which brings me to another fun fact about my wardrobe--I own one pair of jeans I never really wear, and two pairs of pants. It's not that I don't like them, I just prefer dresses/skirts lol (and the more dresses/skirts I wear, I've noticed, correlate with how happy/satisfied I am with life, haha).

Hahaha so there's my random, off-topic blab for the day.

I'm heading to a big graphic design conference in Portland (I mean here in Maine, of course) tomorrow so I should get back to bed. My face is all sunburned from being at the beach all day yesterday, and I've been chugging water like it's going out of style haha. Hope everyone is doing well!!!

Hi taliee!, well Im not a 280's lady anymore but oh well lol, you seem to have had a hectic couple of days. Congrats on the new job!

I am now 267, I've been working really hard and It's been paying off, Im almost at 30 lbs lost from my starting weight of 295, I kind of fell off my plan for the first 4 months of this year but I've gotten better. Im going to be moving back to California with my friend and my sister in October, that's going to be exciting. I am hoping to be at 230 by then or at least some where near it.

Glad to hear from you, Honeybee! Maintaining your loss is always better than gaining, so good for you!! Good luck with your move, I'm sure you can get to 230 by October!

Well ladies, I have TOM and I'm up like 4 pounds. UGHHH. Yesterday was an absolutely terrible day food-wise. Today's not looking so great either, but I'll try to do better as the day goes on. Tomorrow I need to get back on the ball. I NEED to be in the 260s this month. Need to need to need to. My July 1 goal was originally 265, and right now I'm 276 (but, will hopefully go back down to 273 after TOM ends)--at this point I'll be happy if I'm 269 by then! AHHH OK...low carb it is for a little bit. Goodbye sugar, after today I'm kissing you goodbye for a week!

Well I've gained about 5 pounds. So frustrated. Not sure what to do. I feel out of control. LEss than 5 months til this wedding, my mom will be here in less than a month and I feel like I'm fatter than the last time I saw her (even though I know I'm not). Ugh!!! I've been struggling on trying to decide whether I want to stop doing my new graduate program for awhile so I can concentrate on my weight loss. I'm also considering buying a house in the next year. I feel like every single weekend and weeknight is taken up by my friends and homework. I don't have time to just be able to chill at home or go to the gym anymore. I know it is partially my fault too. I need to better manage my time but I'm soo incredibly tired all the time. It's ridiculous. I still feel way out of control.

I hope everyone else is doing better than I am right now!

Shelly! You can get back on it. I know you can. I know it can be difficult to concentrate on weight loss when you're trying to juggle a zillion different things, but I know you can do it. Start with ONE good day. Just one. Go one day low carb/sugar, and don't drink soda--I think that's what works best for you, right? I know for me it does lol. It may give you the woosh you need to get you motivated and back on track (again, it does for me, haha)! I wish I could help you more as how to manage time and feel better overall, but I kind of suck at time management hahaha. I hope you start to feel more in control soon, with whatever you decide to do. We're on your side!!!

TOM ended two days ago, and I've been really good since then, so I hit a new low of 270 this morning, YAY!!!! Almost in the 260s, I can't effing wait!!

Tailee--Thanks girl! i need the encouragement sometimes. Although i know i haven't lost all of my motivation , it sure feels like it at times and little pushes from your guys definitely help to keep me on track here!

Speaking of TOM, I don't get mine unless I take my birth control, which you shouldn't take if you smoke plus it makes me gain....so it's a lose/lose situation. Here is the even more unfortunate part...I don't get the actual TOM but I have all the symptoms. Lower back pain, salt and chocolate cravings and not to mention the serious cramps and fatigue. It sucks so badly because I can never tell if I'm just having a bad week and gaining or if it is my body just freaking out with its ghost TOM. Either way, it is very annoying and I have been going through that this past week.

I went swimming the other night, sort of. Spent a lot of the time talking to my friend who was outside of the pool but I was still moving around. Afraid to get my hair wet and mess up the beautiful color that I spend a small fortune on!

I still haven't lost anything, i was 240.0 the other day. This morning 240.8 and I've been good and calorie counting but i have to remind myself that even last year when I first started calorie counting, it took my about 2 weeks to see real results. i think my body just has to readjust again. I am still trying to stick to low sugar and cal foods but I'm not going to deprive myself as much as I did before--for fear of indulging of course. I have decided to allow myself one night a month to go out and drink and party. Other than that, if I go out--no drinking!!!!! It has really stalled me and I have not lost anything since the wedding....in fact I have gained a little. I'm ready to do something drastic but I am keeping myself at bay and telling myself everyday that it will catch up. The good work will pay off. I'm going to try to go swimming at least a few nights a week and work in the gym too. I need to start working on my muscle building so I don't get jello-y!!


I hope everyone else is doing well!

Hi ladies!

First, let me say I'm sorry for being AWOL for a while. I have been around, pretty much lurking and not posting. I have been under tons of stress (for financial reasons) and I am trying my best to overcome them quickly. To make a long story short, I gave up on all my diet goals and got all the way back up to 278!!!! I was so ashamed I didn't even want to post. Well, I am trying my best to be optimistic (I am thinking things will get better soon) and I have started eating right again. I am back down to 263.2 so I am hoping to see the 250s again very soon! I will try my best not to go so long without posting, we're on a little bit of a hard time right now(nothing I can't get us out of) so I get stressed and try to hide sometimes.

Imtrying - I have been off for a while to and I'm just now getting back on track! It is so hard to let ourselves slip when we have lots on our mind! Just take it one day at a time!

Honeybee - WOW! Congrats on your lose! You are doing great! Glad to hear you are going to have a buddy working with you. I'm sure it will help to have each other to motivate! Keep up the good work!

Jen - Welcome to the thread! Glad to have you hear!

Taliee - You are sooooo close to the 260s! I can't tell you how proud of you I am friend!!! You have done soooo wonderful! I am so glad you like your new job! I love your random sections of your posts, it is always good to hear things about everyone besided weight struggle. It makes you feel more real to me, does that sound strange? Look how far you have come so far!! OH! I wear flats as well, I think it is because I have a complex with my height. I'm 5'9 and my husband is 5'10 so even a one inch heel makes us the same height and that just makes me uncomfortable. I'm sure that sounds silly, but I've always had that complex I suppose. Anyways, I think you are doing fabulous and I think your July goal of 265 is soooo reachable!! Congrats!

Shelly - Oh buying a house is a wonderful thing and very rewarding in the end! I have been off plan lately as well and I'm just now getting back on track! Swimming is a really great way to burn calories and I think with your plan to swim and work out you will start melting those pounds away again! I think your idea of allowing yourself one night a month to drink and party is a good thing. If you try to completely cut out something you like doing, then you are more likely to binge! I think your goal is perfect, moderation is key! Keep your head up, you already look fantastic and look how far you have come!

Well ladies, it is lunch times and the kids are getting restless. I am glad to be back, sorry for the small vent, I am just stressing! I'm glad to be back and see that everyone is still here :)

Shelly--I will keep the drinking thing in mind. I turn 21 tomorrow and all my friends have been saying we need to go to the bars when I get back from Vegas!! Just take it all one day at a time, you can do it! ;D

Lorie--SOOO good to hear from you! I was wondering where you went! Hahaha yeah sometimes I think it's good to talk about other things besides weight loss because of how long we've "known" each other...over a year! So crazy. I'm very glad we've kept this thread going. I'm happy to hear you're back down to 263, that's awesome!! Keep it up, and hope everything's less stressful soon!

Good news...I'VE BEEN 269 THE PAST TWO DAYS, NEW DECADE YAY!!!! Lol I was so excited to get here and now I want to be 267, 262 because I'll have a BMI under 40, and then 258 because it'll be not only another decade, but 65 pounds down AND the lowest I've been in 5 years. :D

It's not only my 21st birthday tomorrow, but I'M GOING TO VEGAS! So I'll talk to you all soon. Have a GREAT week. <3

Hello Everyone!

Sorry that I haven't posted in so long! I've been super busy and just returned from my trip to Japan! My weight loss was put on hold for the last several weeks to get everything ready and whatnot. My trip really changed my view of meals. Food in Japan is so SMALL. Servings are tiny compared to Americans. I went to a Golden Corral when I got home and was embarrased at how much food others had and ashamed that I used to eat like that all the time. I got a plate with a salad, a piece of steak, fruit and mashed potatoes and I was STUFFED after 2 weeks of Japanese eating. I got just a little more and felt almost ill. I used to down two plates of food and salad and desert. Uhhg. I dont know where I am weight wise, but I am hoping that my two weeks of healthy food will put me on a track of better eating.

I havent read anyones posts so sorry that I dont really know whats going on with you ladies, but I hope all is well! I didnt want to make anyone worry anymore so I decided I ought to post. Anyways, Im very sleepy (my body hasnt adjusted back to local time yet!) so, hope you all have a good day and hope everything is going well! Until next time!

Hello ladies!

Taliee - OMG!!! I am sooooo excited for you! You are in the 60s girl!!!! That is so great! I know what you mean about getting your BMI under 40, I just got mine under last week and I'm talking it was like 39.8, but I can't tell you how good it felt just to have a BMI under 40! You are going to get there soon! I am sooooo proud of you! OH Vegas sounds like so much fun! I hope you have a great time! You deserve it!

Phoenix - It is good to hear from you again! I am glad you had a great trip, Japan sounds great! I think it's wonderful how you got to view another culture's eating habits, and it sounds like you learned from them too! I think you may be pleasantly surpirsed when you step on the scale next time! Glad to see you back on the threads!

Ok ladies, I stepped on the scale this morning and it read 260.0 lbs!! This is even with my visit from TOM right now, so I am having high hopes to see the 50s by next week! I am going to start a part time job soon so with housework, working, the kids, the hubby, classes, and clinicals I am going to be really busy, but I'll still be here on the thread. I'll do my best to check in daily, and I always read everyone's posts, but I may only post once or twice a week if things get hectic, but I promise to be around. OH! I was wondering if anyone had Facebook accounts. I do and if you want to be friends let me know, I have loads of pics and things on there, that way if anyone is wondering more about me or my family (I know it is sometimes easier to put names with faces) I'd be more than happy to be facebook buddies as well! Well, I'm glad everyone is still here and still doing great! Keep up the great work ladies!!

Phoenix! Yay. I'm so glad to hear from you and Japan sounds like such an interesting place to visit. I'm really happy you got to experience something like that and the culture shock food-wise I'm sure would help so many people in America to understand food portions! Glad to see you posting again!


Lorie!! Fantastic! You are almost in the 50's! WOW!!!! So so so happy for you...and a little jealous if I might say so!

Tailee---a new decade baby girl!! YAYYY!! Wow, we have so much to celebrate this month already! July should prove to be even better. Something about the Summer time always helps with weight loss in my past experiences anyway.

OK, so I have big news. I haven't lost anything and in fact I was up to 241.8 yesterday morning. That doesn't sound like good news but this is....I got my period! On my own, with no BC pills. I have been wondering why I feel like crap for the last week and I knew what the symptoms generally meant but they aren't always followed by the actual TOM. I officially started back on SB on Tuesday hardcore. I've only had one slip up and it was yesterday--for some reason I couldn't turn down a chocolate candy! ;-) Hehe. I don't know if I can say this yet but PCOS is going down.... along with my weight! So I'm hoping to have a better grip on my weight once my TOM has gone away. By the way...I have completely forgotten how miserable IT makes me feel when I'm not on BC...but for some reason I'm also kind of enjoying it! Anyway, I can't wait to weigh once TOM is done! I have 16 weeks until the wedding. Need to make them count!!

No new, exciting news about Bill. :-( I feel like I'm in a weird cat and mouse game. One day he wants me, the next he doesn't. Ugh.

It's so great to see posts from you guys! I got back from Vegas on Wednesday and have spent the past couple of days catching up on sleep. It was fun but I'm so glad to be home. I'd never been somewhere like NV and not seeing trees and water EVERYWHERE was definitely strange! Oh, and the DRY heat! OMG! How do you deal with that?! My lips are STILL recuperating from the dryness, hahaha (they were chapped like crazy)! lol. But yeah, it was fun. I didn't do any gambling and actually didn't get drunk (a little buzzed on my birthday) but the shows we saw and the food we ate and the places we saw were awesome! It'll be a while before I go back, though, haha.

I got back, stepped on the scale to see 274! AHH! Luckily, I'm not really 274--just games my body is playing with me, thank god. Back to 269.4 today. YAY! I'm so looking forward to conquering the 260s in July haha.

I would respond to your posts but I'll have to later--I have to get ready for work! Talk to you soon. xoxo

Whoa, Vegas? Fun! Did you go for a special occasion or just summer vacay?

I guess I should introduce myself to the group - I'm new, I don't have my ticker yet, but I'm fluxuating b/t 282 and 279 right now. Biggest I've ever been, and pretty hard to deal with. I just started C25K after seeing how many girls here swear by it and its going pretty well, I think :P I'm looking forward to being a part of this community - lots of great girls here, I can tell! :D

Tailee, I'm so glad you had fun in Vegas. Yes, it is a dry heat. Welcome to my life! It isn't too bad though. My mother, who is in Florida but grew up in AZ, has troubles coming back here too. We go through a lot of liquids, thats for sure!

almostatty--Welcome! Good luck with your C25K. I'm not really sure what it is but have definitely heard a lot of people having success with it.

Back to the grind tomorrow, ladies. Haven't had the best weekend food-wise--and I'm up two pounds to show it. Blegh. Salads/veggies and chicken all week for me! XD