hey all, first of all, date on Monday never happened :( he got confused and thought we weren’t meeting cuz his English SUCKS. but he is the one insisting we communicate in English so it’s his problem. blergh. whatever, I have lost interest already.

In other matters, I have not fallen off the wagon, I have jumped off with both feet while taking a big swing. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. cravings are gone, I know I am not hungry, so why can’t I stop shoveling food in my mouth?? I’ve been kinda depressed and I can’t figure out why… it sucks. I thought about stopping coming here cuz it just makes me feel guilty, but I like this site, it kills time when I’m bored… lol. I haven’t dared weighing myself again, but I think it might make me cry if I do. honestly, I don’t really know what I should do. I can say that I will try again from today, but every day I do good when I’m at work (where there are no temptations) and then I fail at home at dinnertime. gaaaaaah!

krampus, I don’t have cleaning duty *evil laughter*

rainbow, have fun at the hair salon! glad to hear you’re taking things back into your own hands! now if you could pass on some of that motivation my way… lol.

lupos, well at least you’re better now! been sick too so I understand how you’re feeling!

JL, wow, I can’t believe you’re doing so well! keep it up!!

Ughhhhhhh weight bounced back up to 130/59 kg. I'm not sure if I grossly underestimated yesterday's calories or am retaining water or TOM is actually affecting my weight (never really paid attention pre-BC to its effects on my weight) or I need a PW (poop whoosh) or what. I wish I hadn't weighed, I felt confident enough to wear my new pants so that should be enough.

Whine whine whine. Today I am actually going to take action to get my Achilles looked at. Life is too short to do irreversible damage to yourself at 24 just because you were too lazy to walk downstairs to the nurse's office.

KawaiiCandie :( It seems a lot of people are really depressed around this time and losing interest in things. Self sabotage is an unpredictable b!tch but it doesn't have to continue forever!

Laneyy I wish I had taken before measurements too!

MiZ Nice productive day considering yesterday was "Fat Tuesday" for Catholics!

rainbowstripe Glad to hear you got exercise in. Don't you feel better already? No matter what your hair color I don't think you'd get mistaken for "boring" - you have super cute dresses and shoes. Congrats on inches lost!

JLNichols Brrrrr, popsicles in March? 45 calories is great though, that's fewer calories than a big onion!

lupo I've gotten lazy with calories too and am feeling a bit bad about it. I also haven't iced my tendon yet, though I did massage it in the bath last night.

indi it was totally worth it!!!

rainbow only 18 cals each?? sounds fabulous! post pics of your new hair! i turbo jam! it never fails to kick my butt!

fatpants binging on healthy food? Better than on junk food!

miz do what makes you feel comfortable. don't be someone you're not! getting up at 5am sucks. I do it daily. ugh

krampus soba is healthy!! your lunch sounds soooo good!! think i'm going japanese tonight!! tom is the worst! I get all bloaty too! i don't consider it real weight, though!

risssa refined carbs are my weakness too!

fromthebox congrats on the loss!!

lupos you can totally be 150's by june! go go go!

laneyy school is definitely not fun. I'm glad i'm done. your eating sounds healthy!

JL sounds like fun tv shows, haha! i kinda miss watching kids shows!

kawaii seems like a mental thing. mind over matter, my dear! you're strong enough!

WORK DRAMA. I cannot say it enough. Some clients just really tick me off. I don't see how yelling at someone is going to help you get what you want. Worse yet, my manager sided with me, then midway changed her mind, so it made me look bad. I can't stand it. UGH.

On another note, I'm finally down again, after 6 days, to 150.8. Hopefully I'll see the 140s tomorrow! Here's hoping!

where is everybody today?!? ok, i've decided my new goal for tonight is => not binge!! i will not set myself "diet-like" calorie goals, but after several days of crazy irrational eating, i think just eating a normal meal will be a challenge. wish me luck. if i'm lucky, i might even exercise too! lol.

krampus, good luck at the doctors' (FYI, school nurses don't know jack, go to the doctors') and i wish you a PW! lol.

jmko, it is a mental thing. isn't it always though? pooh work drama and stupid managers! but yay for a loss! i'm cheering for you!

MiZ I used to dye my hair black, all the time...it was so hard to get that out I'll tell you haha! I've never been blonde though, don't think it would suit me at all!

Laneyy When stuff gets too big you know you've lost inches heh.

Kawaii Sorry you've been having binging issues! I hope you can get them into control. My motivation and new planning didn't work for that long...hah. I already kind of failed, but I'm back on it again...

krampus I think sometimes how you feel is definitely more important than the number on the scale - yay for the new pants. I need to learn that lesson myself. I do feel better having exercise, kind of accomplished. Now to just keep it up.

jmko They are only small chocolates haha. I hope you see the 140's soon, I'm sure you will!

~ So I kind of already failed on eating better foods during the week. I freaked out about not getting dinner. I had a meeting at 6pm that I thought would go for at least 3 hours and I knew there wouldn't be dinner for me at my boyfriend's unless I went to the supermarket after the meeting to buy something cook. So I gave into the drive-thru. I went to Wendy's. I got a Big Bacon Classic burger. And fries. Ugh. That took me up to 1250 calories - which is ok, but now it's only just after 8.30 and my mind is telling me I'm hungry again. I know I'm not...and I know I shouldn't eat anymore today, but I feel like I'm going to be snacking pretty soon on something.
My hair is brown, with a couple of different colours of copper ish highlights dispersed randomly throughout. In the book thing they called it a "seashell" effect. Not sure why. I feel kind of boring without red hair.

I'll try for some photos this weekend, I'm sure I'm bound to be doing something social and can take photos...maybe...

Urgghhhhhh. Just made a bad decision and ate several spoonfuls of Hershey's chocolate syrup. Nasty stuff, that is. I definitely ate about 200 calories worth and I only had about 400 left in my allotment for dinner. Am going out to eat so I won't have full control over ingredients (though I do have control over how much I actually eat).

This is the first binge of any sort I've had since starting my weight loss process. I'm disappointed in myself. And my stomach hurts.

I had a teeny tiny dinner and another teeny tiny but oh-so-worth-it chocolate cake. And then I stopped and got an ice cream sandwich on the way home.

It's just a munchy time. I still haven't pooped. Not expecting too much of anything right now.

Kawaii – boys boys boys….ugh! As for stuffing your face…yea yesterday I ate 2 pizza pockets and decided to eat two more, but then boy said he was coming over so I only ended up eating one and throwing the other one out haha. So I had 3 instead…oppsy… Also did you not binge last night? Were you successful? I think you were =)

Krampus – Good girl! No lazyness to the nurse’s office. As for the weigh…F the scale if you were confident to wear the new pants then that’s all that matter. :) eat 4 eggs, that will make you poop it did wonders for me on the weekend who needs laxatives when eggs can do that to do!

Jmko – Seems like this is the month for work drama…seriously March = month of child’s play. It’s kind of frusterating if you think about it we spend most of our lives at work because it becomes a second home, you think people would learn to be less miserable and friggen learn to be happy instead of acting like immature twats…Or the fact people can’t make a simple decision and stick with it! that’s so lame!

Rainbow – I know I love red too! I should have been born a red head seriously, but because my hair fades so damn fast it looks blah and dead so I have to continuously dye it repeatedly. As for black oh I know I have to let my hair grow out and keep chopping it off just to get the colour out. It takes a very long time! Wendy’s isn’t so bad, and sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. I’m usually in bed early so I get lucky I don’t do late night snacks. Lastnight I wanted to eat around 8:30 and I was like nope bed time haha.

Indiblue - Don't be so hard on yourself, if it's the first binge awesome! I've been binging all week :)

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Boy came over yesterday we hung out he has some interesting stories about his past relationships ha ha I always love hearing stories like that they make me laugh. I don’t even know why or how the conversation started. He’s not even sure why he told me it haha. I hardly talk, he asked me why I was still shy around him. I don’t know because I’m a shy person (when I like someone I guess) which he thought was surprising because I’m such a mouth piece which I am.

I just at a soft yummy chocolate chip muffin, it was good…This week is crap food week. I didn’t even bother to step on the scale today and tonight I have date night with boy, since the last two days he came over right after work so there was no snuggle time. I hope he wants to come over to my place instead of me go to his, haha but I don’t mind if I go to his it’s easier to say okay I’m leaving now then it is to say, okay get out haha.

I have a pimple on my cheekbone! Who the heck get’s ones there?! Seriously!

Urrggg cramps are worse today but w/i was 139.4 so that means down .4 from yesterday. hope everyone has a greatt wednesday!

Originally Posted by JLNichols07:
Urrggg cramps are worse today but w/i was 139.4 so that means down .4 from yesterday. hope everyone has a greatt wednesday!

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I didn't get mine yet...Last month I got it around this time, and every other time I got it at the 15th. wtf. Maybe it's because I'm no longer sync with my co-worker I'll be back on a regular track! I'm not looking forward to it. :mad:

krampus - coffee always makes me poop.

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205 this morning, first mini goal met :)

I totally need to get off my *** and do my laundry. It's been 2 weeks. I hope I have money for the laundromat.

kawaii i think as long as you think your crazy irrational eating wasn't normal, then you should be fine. getting back to normal meals is tough, but you can do it! ganbatte!

rainbow oh wendy's...somehow i feel like wendy's isn't as terrible as mcdonald's or jack-in-the-box, or other fast food joints. i'm sure you're okay. maybe it's a seashell effect cause seashells have highlight-ish things on them? who knows...

indi hahahaha, i have this image of someone pouring hershey's syrup into a huge spoon, mary poppins style. hopefully your sore stomach will tell you not to do it again soon!

krampus cake is not your friend! although, it does really seem to be attracted to you...i've found since i've started my "lifestyle change" i don't poop regularly either. it's kind of frustrating...i feel like that accounts for all this weight i'm carrying around.

miz omg, tell me about the childishness and work drama. sometimes, i don't know how anyone puts up with it. i do spend most of my waking hours in the office and it drives me nuts when people are effing stupid. usually i can brush things off easily, but yesterday's incident kind of just ate me up all night. ugh, it makes me just want to slap someone upside the head today. good thing i'm off tomorrow. let's make a "no idiots in the workplace" club.

JL warm compress on your lower tummy! it helps!

[B]laneyy/B] hooray for meeting your first small goal! i need to do laundry too. crap.

uuuughhh...so my work drama has been eating me up all night! i know it's stupid and i did nothing wrong, but i can't help but be really frustrated that my manager didn't back me up. i hope this accounts for the fact that i'm still 150.4 and not in the 140's yet. i was so upset last night i really wanted to go to panda express and eat some chow fun. i didn't, thinking i'd regret it this morning when my evil scale told me i was still in the 150's. so i had a salad instead, while i watched the DH eat taco bell. well, i did regret it this morning! cause i'm still in the 150's and had no panda express to blame it on. ugh. hopefully today is a better day since my manager isn't in the office. just me and the girl that keeps trying to get me fired, hooray! i think some retail therapy is in order after work.

Hi Ladies!

Laneyy Congrats on your mini goal!

MiZ This guy sounds interesting, is this the same one who wanted to make dinner for you? Work drama at where I work is crazy. I work in a lab so people are extremely smart, but have zero social skills (and sometimes hygiene skills)

jmko How is someone trying to get you fired?

JL I almost always use a heating pad of some sort during TOM. You can make one easily by sewing a bag and putting dried beans or corn in it. That's what I use.

rainbow I want to see your new hair! I just changed my hair back to it's natural color.
I haven't lost weight but I lost inches the past week, I think it's just due from being sick last week and an off weekend. Even though losing inches is great, I feel like weight is better :dizzy:

krampus It's a good idea to get your Achilles looked at. Hope they can help you. I am really prone to Achilles tendinitis due to my flat feet.

I just got a new exercise ball and I love it! Doing ab work is fun now! I really wish this rain and cold would go away, I'm so tired of crappy weather. I've been on plan this whole week and still no weight loss. GR!

Jmko – The scale is a jerk…I’m still sticking to that!
Lupo – Nope this is a different guy and actually he was a guy I was talking to back in Nov, but never actually met him until this weekend and we’ve been talk for months at a time about stupid randomness. I seem to actually like him…oh my and want to run the other way because I don’t want to get hurt…but I think I’ll just go with the flow and see how it goes and also keep my eyes open for other guys just in case it doesn’t pan out. :)


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I hate feelings...I don't like sharing them (well person to person anyways) and I don't like feeling them!!!

jmko - Punch her in the face! Politely, of course.

lupo - I wish I still had my exercise ball.... I have nowhere to keep it though :( I do wanna see if I can find my mom's medicine ball though, that should be fun!

MiZ - Go with the flow, see where it takes you. Be a leaf on the wind (bonus points if you get the reference).

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Just got to work, had my friends pick up my laundry from the laundromat cause I didn't have time to grab it before work. I have the best friends in the ****ing world! I need to come up with some rewards and incentives for making my mini goals. Like... A new iPod... since 8gb is far too small. Every time I want to add a new song I have to delete another one. An iPad, too, 'cause I was playing with Boy's Roommate's iPad the other night and it was amazing. Shopping spree at some cute store like Charlotte Russe or something... A new tattoo perhaps. All things I can't really justify buying myself, but would make great rewards.

I think for getting to Onederland (only 6lbs to go!!) I'm going to Abercrombie and buying myself a new bottle of their 8 perfume. It's so damn expensive, but I love it so much. Especially since I can't fit into their clothes just yet.