I've been thinking a lot about what it would be like to be skinny recently. I've never been thin my entire life. And while I was sitting there looking at my legs I realized the thing I wanted most was to have nice legs. My definition of nice legs is to not have this bulge of fat next to my kneecap. I want a distinct calf and thigh...not just a blob of fat with an indentation to show where the joint is...
I want to fit into a "normal" size of clothing. I realise that is kind of number related, but it's not about an exact weight. I want to no longer be "plus-sized".
I want to feel comfortable naked and feel comfortable in my body in general - I don't want to continually think about how I'm standing or holding myself or how my tummy or thighs look in a certain position.
I want my thighs to not be so huge! Stupid thighs haha.
I want to comfortably wear a bathing suit. Not necessarily a bikini, but something, on a beach or by a pool, with other people, where I'm not constantly thinking about how I look or whether other people are thinking.
Hah look at the can of worms you opened - I could go on.
I would not like to sweat like a pig every time it's hot. Okay, maybe nature will make me sweat anyway, but it's nice to think that I won't if I lose weight!
If I eat something highly caloric (on occassion) I don't want to be wondering if people are thinking "should she be eating that?"
For me it's the opposite! I want to eat 'diet' foods (asking Starbucks for skim milk, for instance) without people thinking that I'm just one of those fat girls that tries to diet in but will fail/ eat a dozen doughnuts when no one's looking.
For me it's the opposite! I want to eat 'diet' foods (asking Starbucks for skim milk, for instance) without people thinking that I'm just one of those fat girls that tries to diet in but will fail/ eat a dozen doughnuts when no one's looking.
This is interesting, I'd never thought of people ordering diet food from that perspective. I have always figured - no matter what weight a person is, that they are just making healthy choices.
I want to not cringe at every single photo I see of myself.
This. I don't do pictures. There are very, very few of me at this weight. The last time I didn't mind the camera, nearly 4 yrs ago @ 175 lbs. I was a bridesmaid for my friend's wedding in June. There were a few pics of me. I cried when I saw them.
Also, I really just want to be healthy. Whether I'm 140 or 170. I want to make working out second nature. Doing well with that one... Been to the gym 12 of the last 14 days.
Having nice legs in a dress would be one. I'd also like to run a 5k, then some distant day, a 10k. I want to go to NYC and blow obscene amounts of money on over priced designer clothes that will easily fit me. Aaaand, pleeeeease don't judge me on this one (I should probably put this in the evil motivation thread, haha) because I'm totally not conceited, but if I were thin.. I'd hands down be the prettiest girl in my little circle of close friends.
Oooh, and I want the guts to take one of those stripper classes! Like workout classes, not "become a stripper" class, haha.
1. size 10 pants
2. a hot dude who worships the ground I walk on (and I think I deserve it)
3. my 5yr old to stop telling me I'm pudgy...she's pudgy..lol