The "Venti" Thread
 

As for me, this whole year is bugging me. I just found out my grandmother is sick again. She was diagnosed with lung cancer last year and against all odds, she made a full recovery. It's back now, and they're giving her 6 months to a year tops.

This is on top of my grandfather (from the other side of the family) passing away in April from Alzheimer's, and having to put my dog to sleep in June. (He was epileptic and went into a seizure that didn't stop...)

So yeah... bad year. Is it 2011 yet? :mad:

That's terrible about your grandmother :( My dad just began treatment for a Stage IV diagnosis and my DH just got laid off.

I totally agree about being over 2010.

:hug: for singforthedayx and junebug41.
Best wishes for both of you and your family members.

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:hug: :hug: <----hugs for both of you, I'm very sorry.

I hate that i can't ever get closure on an ex when he just keeps coming in and out of my life whenever he so pleases. He comes in and it's okay. . . then poof he stops everything for months on end. I want to get over him, but how? And once I think I am over him he pops up again. =[

Aww:hug:

I'm sorry about your grandfather. Mine died from Alzheimer's last years after 11 years of sickness. He reached such an awful stage of vegetation that when my dad told me he died my first reaction was that I felt happy that he died and he wasn't suffering anymore. And then I felt so awful for this. :( I hope your grandfather didn't suffer like mine did. I wish no one that. :(:(

Well, he got to a point where he didn't want to eat or drink anymore... and he was pulling out his IV, so we think it was a choice he made all on his own. He honestly didn't look like he suffered too much. When we visited him on his last days, he still had a smile on his face and was being the wise guy that he always was. I understand what you mean about being relieved, and it's totally okay. I was too, not only so he wouldn't be starving anymore, but because playing that waiting game was so hard. And now I'm doing it again... *sigh*

I'm sorry for your loss. I totally understand what you've been through. If you want to talk more about it, send me a private message. :hug:

My vents aren't as serious as some, but...

My 9 month old is *slowly* cutting a new tooth. And is consequently back to waking up 4 or 5 times a night for an hour at a time. I wish babies were born with all their teeth.

Also, my husband won't get off his butt and get moving on his homework! I hate sounding like his mom, trying to get him to stop procrastinating, but he's the one who wanted to go back to school! If he doesn't do well he'll get all depressed and then I'll have to deal with that too! I'm 'bout ready to just do his work for him...

Oh man, this was me with my husband. He gets stressed soooo easily, so I'd totally have to deal with that too! Luckily he's a little smarter these days and doesn't take so many classes at once.

I'd like to vent about a few random things, but mostly today it is the perils of working with your mother :-/ We own an insurance agency, and often it isn't such a big deal but maaaan, when she's feeling sub-par, and my dad happens to be by the office being a bit of a grump, it makes for a really crappy Monday. That would be long story short, anyway. About a dozen other things are ticking me off today, also about work.. but it requires so much detail, and I don't want to write a novel or two. Sometimes feeling backed in a corner just blows. And I don't like that after such a great weekend, when I start the week feeling pretty good, I get that positive bubble burst 10 minutes after walking into work. :mad:

My lame vent - I am sick with a cold and it sucks bad. Oh, and I took Nyquil last night and still feel out of it. I just want to feel better.

:hug: for all you lovelies, vents big or small.

Mine falls into the smaller category. I am feeling so lethargic and sleepy this week. I thought that my change in foods and increase in exercise had changed this, and it had - for the first 6 weeks. Its like now I'm in Week 7, I have hit a wall. And my weight doesn't appear to be dropping this week either. So that's my vent. Maybe every 7 weeks I'll have a week like this for the rest of my life. Or not!

Another vent - I'm meant to be an artist, I rent a studio to paint in and I'm meant to be looking for opportunities to exhibit and sell my work. But I haven't painted in over 2 months and I don't feel like painting or making anything at the moment either. It's sad, I feel like I'm losing what I'm meant to love.:(

Even though I know I have to lose weight, today I went to the doctors for a blood test and she began talking to me about losing weight saying "Next week when you come back in we will talk about diet and nutrition, you are carrying a little too much weight for your height. I guess I just got my feelings hurt. I told her before she asked that I was putting more fruits and vegtables in my diet and starting to go to the gym. I know she meant it to help me but it just really hurt. I still went to the gym afterward but I don't know it just made me feel really crappy inside. Not motivated to lose weight but more like I wanted to go indulge on a box of zebra cakes just to say screw her. Even though I didn't do that, I just wanna lay around and cry.

I have a few friends that are amazing, professional artists and they have these ebbs and flows as well. They always come out of it. Sometimes it's just waiting for the inspiration to make its way around again :hug:
That would frustrate me to no end. You're working your behind off and one of the benefits is NOT having your doctor harp on your weight and because you're not at goal yet you STILL have to hear about it! Ugh! I promise, in due time...

Wow! Do I know EXACTLY how you feel!! I have been dating this guy off & on for 5 freakin' years. It's been going really well for the last 2.5 years or so and then about 3 weeks ago he broke up with me. This Friday would've been our 5 year anniversary. I'm freaking miserable. I miss him sooo much I can barely stand it. And I'm afraid that just about the time I seriously accept that I'm going to move on, that he's going to come back. It's what he's done every other time. I just want him to make up his freakin' mind.

Oh and i'm with you guys with the over 2010 thing. My boyfriend (well, ex now)'s aunt died in June, and my grandma died in July.

There have been good things this year, but right now the bad is seeming to overwhelm them :(

:hug: to everyone, I feel you on wanting 2010 to be over. This has been, without a doubt, the hardest year of my life. No one died, but as far as personal struggles and stress, I'm so ready for it to be over and to leave it behind!

I know how you feel :hug: I'm 'supposed' to be a screenwriter but sometimes it's really difficult to get into that creative mode and you feel like all your ideas are crap (I do anyway) and that nothing good will ever come out of it so it isn't worth your time. Your inspiration will come back soon, mine hid for about a year and everything I wrote at that point was pretty bad, so don't force it unless you feel like that will help! Maybe forget about the exhibitions and selling and just paint for you for a while until you get back into your groove :)

This morning I got on the scales and they read 117.5 and I was flabbergasted! :yikes: so i got on again just to make sure, and it went up to 118.3 :( I tried two more times but it still had the same bigger, ickier number :( still a loss from yesterday, but not as nice as my first number.

silly scales, you break my heart!

Oh summershine, I know how you feel. I have two sets of scales at home, and I know one of them is out, but I'm tempted to take the number from those ones anyway as it's always lower than the real number. I measure in kilograms too, being in New Zealand - I saw 78.5 this morning on the inaccurate scales and then hopped on the ones I know are more on par - 79.1.
NO loss this week. It's frustrating. I was getting used to losing 1kg a week!

Ladies with men problems: do not keep going back to him. Try something different. Just because you love someone, does not mean you should be with them. A relationship is based on more than love.

I am in a relationship, but reading this interesting book called "He's Not Your Type...And That's a Good Thing" by Andrea Syrtash. It might intrigue you. Love and learn. Love and learn.

I'm trying to sing this song, and my grandmother is trying to sing with me, but she's off-key and throwing me off and also sings like a frog in the back of her throat and I can't say STOP cause that would be mean but I just want to sing the damn song alone.

*feels like a horrible person*

My husband is currently in a really dangerous part of Afghanistan, I haven't heard from him since Saturday and I heard on the news today "18 US troops killed in Afghanistan in the last 3 days." It's stressing me out really bad and I just miss him so much. :(

I don't like that I am waiting for the "you look good, did you lose weight" comments.

I know I am doing it for a variety of reasons, but it is nice when other people notice and guys start hitting on you again (as a combo of weight loss and improved confidence)

Hugs to everyone xx

I am stressing out about uni. I am really behind with my statistics paper :( And I dont really get it to be honest. May have to get a tutor. Also money is pretty tight. Keep going into my overdraft which I shouldn't.

I hope your husband is okay!!!! :hug:

I'm just so frustrated about my weight loss efforts, I am so up and down about the whole thing. I'll have a good day then mess up at night or the next day by eating junk!! And I'm starting my last year of school which is stressing me out ahhhhhh!

This thread was a good idea lol

FreeSpirit, I hope your husband is okay. Please keep us updated!

Yea I second what Freedom said. My thoughts are with you hun xx

Free, you and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers! I hope you hear from him very soon! :hug:

FreeSpirit, my thoughts are with you!


Today? Today I want to take technology and the interwebs and kick them in the nads. Every single day this week has made me wish for Friday that much harder. It doesn't help that it has been way busy; of course the internet wouldn't go down until the phone rings 15 times a minutes.

I hate that the start of Fall means that traffic inexplicably increases and no matter what time I leave the house I am late.

Ughh I know my problems are small compared to so many posts here, but I need to vent.

I'm SOOO stressed out. I really feel that I've taken on too much. I have 6 classes, all of which involve soo many projects and papers and a million hours of reading a night (out of books that cost a gazillion $$), an internship, and am assisting a professor with research. Add that to a two hour daily commute, and I still have to work out, spend time with hubby (who has a really strange/variable work schedule), and sleep and everything else. I've just been feeling hopeless lately. I know that sounds so awful and depressing, but it's true. And, when I came home from school today, all I wanted to do was eat. And I did. And it wasn't pretty at all. It was half a jar of peanut butter (the other half? Oh, I ate it yesterday :() and some other stuff. So I'm counting it as an early dinner and moving on. I just don't know what to do with myself at the moment. I have work to do but I seriously do not want to do it now. I just want to make myself feel better and more hopeful. I want to talk to hubby because he makes it better, but he's at work and isn't answering :( And, I'm sick right now and it's just really adding to it all.

I'm sorry I'm so depressing. Hopefully I'll gain some control and find a way to deal. I just had to get it all out.