Hey Purple!
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I have my new plan. New motivation (clothes, of course! ) I just have to do it. Which seems to be the hardest part.
I get so frustrated with myself when I fail. I just want to be healthy, I want to be fit and sexy and comfortable in my own skin.
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I have found, through a long process of learning, that making big plans and giving myself big incentives don't always work "on the ground" -- that is, in the day-to-day grind. I don't stop in the middle of the binge and think, "Oh yeah, better stop if I want to fit into ___!" My mind just doesn't make the connection, because there is no direct connection. Having a practical, by-the-minute plan
does help me a great deal...and finding new motivation that I can benefit from immediately...e.g., "If I don't binge right now, I'll have more energy & accomplish more."
It has also really helped to have goals that are unrelated to weight, and to spend some time on those each day.An example: I'm always saying I'd like to start running, so today I just got off my *** and did it for 15 min or so. And it felt soo good!
It can also be learning about a new subject, getting back in touch with old friends..anything.
In the end I think it comes down to how are you going to find the self-regard to stop beating yourself up when you "fail"? Because that is wasted energy, energy you could be using on something much more interesting than your weight. I feel crappy about myself pretty often. But I'm training myself to allow those thoughts to sit there while I ignore them and do something else.
Novel!
Your plan sounds fun by the way! You're gonna be so buff! Go lady go!!
This is it.
) I just have to do it. Which seems to be the hardest part. 
