| migotokokoro |
12-09-2008 01:42 AM |
Frustration Anyone?
Hello everyone! My name is Basia. When I was 13 I was maybe 5'3", 5'4" and weighed 190-195lbs... I did some crazy exercise and did some other things (bad things) over a period of 4 - 6 months. I ate things like cheerios for breakfast, and baked chicken for dinner. However, I grew up with a binging problem and I couldn't control it for 4 - 6 months. So my solution was purging. I became bulimic for 6 months until my mom threatened to have me hospitalized. I lost a total of 40lbs during that time, and managed to keep it off because I did other physical activities. During freshman and sophomore year of highschool I was in weight training, so I gained like 5-10lbs back, but it was muscle and I looked slimmer than before. After that I went into a program called running start which allows me to go to college for both college and high school credits. I stopped doing as much activity, I took Pilate's and kickboxing 2/3 of the year. Then I hit my real problem... The past months I slowly gained, but the begging of that summer is when I gained 20-30lbs in about a month or two. So here I am at around 205-215lbs and I am 5'5". I keep fluctuating because of my attempts to lose weight.
I need some friends that will support me and remind me what I am working for. I don't always think about what I'm eating, sometimes I don't even realize I'm eating. I need some inspiration and some motivation. Just someone to talk to about it at least every day to every other day would help me out so much. I just recently turned 18 and need to get myself together for the life I'm hoping will be a great one.
P.S. I'm a lot better with binging, but still eat out of boredom. My direction of healthy food has gone down the drain. Living with 3 people and our income of less than 10k a year is sort of a tight budget to get healthy food, so I need to work with what I have.
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