well my mini goal <20lbs> is a pedicure. then when i hit 140 my dad is going to give me $100 to shop with. my final goal is a trip to the beach in Greece. I have never been to a beach or Greece for that matter and can't wait.

I am going to go back to my hometown in a brand new outfit and see if I can get some locals to buy me drinks. :-)

I want to have a wardrobe filled with BEAUTIFUL clothes.... not clothes that are cheap... and I bought them only because they fit... but clothes that actually look damn good. I will take fewer, more expensive, classic clothes, over cheap, badly fitting clothes, any day of the week.

I would also love to just chop my hair off... but... I don't know if my face shape will EVER support a shorter haircut :)

The boyfriend says we'll go to Hawaii when I reach my goal... but when I asked if he was paying, he was like, "HA!!!" mmnnn hmnn...

I think the rewards (other than the clothes! ;) ) will be the relief when a picture is taken of me, I won't be obsessing if I have a double chin or not. And to not feel self conscious all the time. And to actually BELIEVE someone when I receive a compliment. It's all that little, day to day stuff, that will make it all worth it -- and will be a bigger reward than anything material...

Oh, definitely shopping will be more fun, not just because of size, but because it will finally make sense to pay for quality, since I won't grow out of it. I can't wait for that.

O/T but you have a CD?! I'm assuming you're a vocalist, or is it an instrument? Either way, that's so cool! I can relate a bit to the performance aspect--I'm in an a cappella group at my school and I can't wait to be something other than "the fat girl with a good voice." There's a girl in our group who is really tiny and beautiful and has a really powerful solo voice, and she always gets approached after our concerts... There's no doubt in my mind that she's known as "the hot girl with the good voice." I wanna be that girl!! :tantrum: Haha. Of course I have confidence in my voice and get plenty of compliments on it now (cuz I'm d*mn good! heh ;)) but it would be awesome to feel good about moving around while I'm performing and not worry about my fat jiggling or that I might be standing in an unflattering way, etc... I am REALLY looking forward to that. I'm an actress, too, and I also can't wait until no role is out of reach for me just because of the way I look! Yea! That'll definitely be one of those "ultimate rewards," like kukristen said.

the only thing i can think of as my ultimate goal reward is a bikini :D Ive never, ever worn one :o

OMG, you reminded me that I did have one, size 8 I think. Wonder if I still have it tucked away somewhere or if I got rid of it. I just know I have some stuff from that period somewhere, just can't remember where. I'd really like to compare my memory of what size I was with reality.

that would be pretty cool to compare. Lucky you, having the guts to even buy one!

I want to fit into my skinny jeans and to go to my favorite store (a little boutique) and get a few very nice outfits...or maybe not a few! ;) Either way, I'm very excited about it all. I wish I could do a bikini, but the skin on my stomach would not look good at all! Jeans on the other hand are very forgiving. :)