I've always had loads of self confidence and loved the way I am. I just finished a nicely portioned dinner and asked my boyfriend if he could take some before pictures of me. I dont really have any "official" ones. I've lost about 20 pounds already to.... but I figured I will NEVER be as big as I am today ever EVER again, not tomorrow not next week not ever.
Then I saw the photos. I took a deep breath and let it all hang out, wanting to get the truest, gnarliest form of myself on film.
I threw up in my mouth.
Its disgusting. No wonder I've been asked a thousand times if I'm pregnant! I LOOK pregnant. I never thought I did. I want to vomit for reals in the toilet. I'm so disappointed in myself for EVER allowing my body to get to this point.
I'm having a rollercoaster ride of a day.