First and foremost, congratulations for breaking 200lbs! That is a great accomplishment! I, as well as I am sure many others struggle with "why can't I just DO it" and wondering what is wrong with us. Sometimes I would find then when I would lose a few extra pounds one week, I would think "woohoo" I don't have to diet or work out, and I wouldn't and then that is how I would yoyo around. Like the more weight I lost the less motivated I'd be to continue...kind of like graduation, when you get that degree, you feel relieved like, all the work is done now, I can relax. I guess we just have to get to a point where we see the "diet" and the "exercise" as not work, but as part of our lifestyle that we will never want to stop doing...if you succeed in doing this, let me know how!