Rant
 

i just need to let things out cuz im just blah. as of feb 5th i will be the same weight as i was when i started last time to lose weight back in 05. i had lost 65lbs and quiet honestly i dont know if i have the willpower to do it again. i know i have u guys as support but thats basically all i have besides my mom and that was 1 of the big reason y i gained 118lbs back cuz i didnt have that support and im afraid ill be stuck on a plateau again and just say forget this n gain it all back n prolly them some, lol. i honestly want it to work but i dont know if i can. i do love the feeling that i accomplished something

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You can do this and you will.

I've never been a normal weight in my adult life. I will sometimes go off on a worry tangent "What if I never make it? How do I know I can even do this since I've always been fat?" but with support, and an honest commitment I wake up and realize I CAN and I AM.

You can do the same. Failure is not an option. If you tell yourself there is no quitting, there is only continuing to eat heathfully, then that's all there will be.

Vince Lombardi said It's not whether you get knocked down; it's whether you get up.

Keep on trying and you will get it. You've already proven that you have the willpower to do it, now you just need the confidence. ;)