

but what to do????
krazeedaisey , 06-11-2007 10:49 PM
dont know what im going to write about yet . . . but im just going to go for it. i dont plan on being published i just want to give it a try.maybe ill post a little when i get some for some opinions!
i still dont know what im meant to do, i hope i figure it out. i've always thought i would make it in the music industry but , im scared what if im not good enough. .. then im a hobo. . ya know? check out my music guys i'd love opinions on that too www.myspace.com/neverknown . thats what i love though music. but theres still that what if i dont make it then what? and sad to say the statistics ARE against me.
. i didnt know what to write about so i wrote a fiction story or the begining of one at least that is about a girl that has a lot of my qualities. I wanted to write about being over weight in high school. so here my little portion i just did . . . tell me what you think, i can handle honesty dont worry. “RL” I’d rather that then Rose, said in such a manner i can only think of an overweight ,older white woman with red hair and a polka dotted red dress. Rosa Linda, a beautiful rose, why is it no one see’s me in that light? I'm am overweight, i know, i know “ then change it! Do something about it.“ I have been, I’ve been complaining for 20 years straight. I don't want you to read this about me and have this picture in your mind of some hopeless fat girl, i have a beautiful face and I am fierce. But its invisible to everyone staring at my stomach. Well this is where it started. A few years back i had just entered my freshman year of high school. Although not as excited as one might hope. I remember it so clearly. Dressed in my favorite outfit that consisted of a pair of white skater sneakers, some baggy black cargo pants and a cute white spaghetti strap. I rolled into to school with my backpack and my blades slung over my right shoulder. I can take on the world i thought to myself. While what felt like millions of people were whizzing by me in such a hurry i was momentarily at a loss. I had my cd player on full blast with the mighty mighty bosstones giving me the courage that i could be the “rascal king" of Malibu high. I met my best friends that day. My clan, my posse, my back-up. “J” the girl just like me if i were girly. and “G” probably the only guy in the world that understood my jokes. They were nothing like me J and her sandy brown hair , skinny, with bright eyes, who giggled at any word from a mans lips. I would have hated her if i didn't love her. She always brought out this side of me i had always hid in the back of my head right behind the secret about wishing i was barbie when i was three. G made made me feel so comfortable, never hit on me , never gave me that look. .. . you know the one, where they stare at you when your not looking thinking about whether they have the courage to just grab you and lay one on you. That look has always scared me. I don't like unpredictable people. Not that he wasn’t good looking , every girl wanted him. Its so strange that I had no interest in him in that way, yet i felt oddly protective and jealous of the girls like J that flocked to him. He was tall, dark, and handsome, and a bag of chips (the fattening kind of course). He always laughed when I’d stupidly quote half baked without thinking about who i was quoting it too. My bud...