Good Morning Everyone!
This is my rant, my story, my confession. Whatever you'd like to call it. I need to put what I'm feeling in writing. I chose to post here instead of the support forum, because I have always found a lot of support and inspiration from a lot of people here.
My weightloss journey began on February 14th 2006 and everything was great for the first 6 months. I was able to lose 30lbs and I felt just wonderful. Then, I slipped a little. For the next 2 months I maintained that weight.
Then wham!! Somewhere between Halloween and now I completly lost control of everything.
For the last month I have been in lurk mode because of the embarassment that I feel. I feel that I have let myself down, my family down and all of you down. Somehow I have managed to gain 12lbs back in only 4 1/2 weeks.
This weekend was a real eye opener for me. My husband got up the courage to ask me what was going on and why I have given up. Part of me was hurt and the other part was grateful that he was geniunly concerned. He made me realize that I have come way to far to give up now. He also said he could really tell that my attitude and self esteem was going back to how it used to be.
With that being said, I have decided that I need to seriously pick myself up and start from the beginning. I sat down this morning and thought about all of the things I did at the beginning that made me so sucessful.
I started off by changing my ticker to reflect my weight gain, which was really hard to do. Then I went into my Fitday account and updated all my information. I had a great work out this morning and plan to have a second workout this evening. I packed a good breakfast and lunch to bring to work and have already planned what we are eating for dinner.
So it's back to the basics for me.
Lastly I have come to 3FatChicks for support today. I really do realize all of you have been a great help to me and when I decide to stay away because I think I'm not doing very well then it gets even worse.
Even if I get no responses I am greatful for a place to come and share my feelings. Thanks for listening.
I already feel 100% better, knowing that somehow, someway I will get to my goal. Whether it takes me 6 months, a year or more.
So wish me luck!
Have a great day!!