I don't understand how come I cannot seem to stay on track. The minute anyone tells me how great I look, I start eating. I thought it would motivate me to lose more, but noooooo not me, me all I do is head for the buffet and celebrate the compliment. Then all of the sudden a year goes by and here I am again, chubby and feeling really dumb. I know I can so this, I know what works well for me and yet I don't do it. Why?
Alot has happened in the last year. First I broke off an eight year relationship, then my sister decided she no longer wants to be a mother and leaves her 14 year old alone and he is now with me, then my other younger sister is killed by a teenage driver who was talking on her cellphone and hit my sister while she was riding her bike. So many other things as well. Got a huge promotion at work and hate the new job but love the money. Had to put my cat to sleep because he could not walk anymore, my father passes away and my daughter becomes a teenager! My best friend in the world falls for a jerk and no longer talks to anyone anymore and finally got back together with the ex and trying to deal with not being on my own again. Being pulled in a million directions and watching my food was the last thing I wanted to deal with.
You want to know what made me decide to take this step and begin again? My dog. You see I always fed her scraps of what I was eating and the vet just told me that she is obese. So not only am I affecting my weight, I have also put my dogs health at risk and I feel terrible. She gets no exercise because I was too lazy to walk her more then up the driveway and she cannot even jump up on the couch, she cant lick herself like most dogs do (not that I am missing that part) because her stomach in too bloated.
So not only for me but for my "Sabrina" as well I am making this journey again and I am determined to succeed into a new healthy lifestyle that includes knowing I have a drinking problem and must STOP. At times it feels like there is just too much to work on and I wont be able to do it. So when making the decision I thought of you guys and how helpful you have all been in the past and I know I am going to need you all now and I don't know why I stopped coming in the first place.
Hoping you will forgive me and welcome me back cause I missed you. Whew that was a mouthful, so much so I dont even feel hungry right now
ok maybe a little but I can handle it.