[mimithatsme]

Hello I am new and I have been in this forum a dozen times and looked and read and came back later and looked and read I have been doing this for a couple of days!!CRAZY HUH??!! I guess I am embarrased about having an ED still at age 40. Also I have hid this from everyone for so long so it has always been my "little secret" and here I am just typing this for all to see. Its like saying it out loud or something and that makes it more real. I have always battled my weight not as much as some and more than others but my self image is still OMG horrible. I could probably weigh 90 lbs and still see a fat disgusting person. I heard about "fat people" all my life. My mom was over weight and she was her worse enemy but boy did the way she dieted on & off and cry over how she hated herself and then binge,binge,binge,how that affected me!! It became strong very early in life and has only gotten worse. I STARTDED MY FITDAY FOOD JOURNAL TODAY... SO TODAY IS THE DAY THAT I START LIVING HEALTHY!!! I am really gonna need to be accoutable. Hope you guys will stick with me!! I talk alot but I also listen well if anyone ever needs an ear to hear.

[lilybelle]

Welcome to the forum. I'm proud that you finally reached out for help. There is no shame in that. The people here are wonderful and I hope you get all the support and encouragement that you need.

[mammasita]

Absolutly nothing wrong with how you feel. I've felt that way and honestly still do sometimes. Congrats on taking the step to start posting and welcome!!!!

[mimithatsme]

Thanks Ladies. So far I have received nothing but encouraging words !! I am really enjoying being able to just share a little of this crazy life of mine. It makes the weight a little lighter to carry (didnt mean for it to sound that way but that is funny!!)
Thanks!!!!!

[gremlina]

Welcome!
Admitting it is very difficult and coming here and posting is a step in the right direction I think. Fitday is a great food journalling software to keep you accountable. I used to use it all the time before I started WW.

[justjodi]

hi mimi welcome!! there is a ton of support in here, great job deciding to post. i struggle with body image too and can totally relate to "i could weigh 90lbs and still see a fat disgusting person" looking forward to getting to know ya.

[didi65]

That's awesome that you felt comfortable enought to post Mimi and welcome . I need to check in here more often myself as I find it keeps me on track.

[Trophy Wife]

Mimi,

Good for you! That's the beauty of a support forum like this one. We are all in a similar boats and you won't feel any judgment here. 3FC has meant so much to me just in the last few weeks. It's a safe place where people understand what you're going through.

Welcom and good luck!
Melanie M.

[littlebumblebee]

Being honest with yourself about having an ED is a giant step. It helps me so much to know that others understand my pain and my struggle with my ED.

[ellis]

Mimi, it's not easy to be open about eating disorders, and we're so glad that you've come in here. Welcome.

[sugarbaby269]

Mimi! This site is a great place to find all sorts of tips, encouragement, suport and a host of accountability. Just realize you're not alone and the best of luck with your journey to becoming a healthier you!

[RobinW]

Mimi, Ive been coming to this site for a few years. I just started posting in this section about 2 weeks ago. I know I have a problem, I just never wanted to admit it. So you are definitely not alone.

[Marianna]

Welcome.. declaring that you have eating issues can be confronting - but also liberating at the same time... I hope that this forum provides the support you need