So in a little over 4 months, I've lost about 60 lbs. I've done it by eating healthy, and TONS of exercise (1.5-2.5 hrs/day every day).
Sometimes I deprive myself so much because of "fat days" that I allowed myself to have and then regret. I just basically eat less than 1100 calories for about 3 days straight, and the extra weight I gained seems to come off.
Today at the gym, I was REALLY craving some fajita tacos, but kept debating on whether or not to have them as I had already treated myself to a Caesar (sp?) Salad last week when a friend invited me to lunch. I, at that time, did not know that this was the most high calorie salad on the menu!
So...I was talking to myself, as I'm sure many of us do
. And thought to myself, "What's the rush? Why do you want to lose weight so quickly? As long as you don't pile on the pounds all week, treat yourself when you feel like it. Just don't go overboard."
I came home and went and got my tacos. Now....I'm feeling guilty. Why? I don't know. I talked myself into being able to have these tacos, and now I'm regretting it like I always do!
I really want to be at 160 by my birthday (Sept. 17). I guess since it's only 2.5 months away, I'm afraid I won't get there or something. But I'm only 16 lbs away! Maybe 17 now that I've had these tacos today, but either way. 2 months is a very reasonable amount of time to lose 16 lbs. But for some reason I don't think I'm going to get there in time, so I try to make up for it by super restricting myself to get there sooner.
I hope this makes sense, and it's just an open rant about my view on my weight loss.
Don't get me wrong, I'm ecstatic that I've lost this much weight in this amount of time, but I guess I won't be satisfied until I reach my goals!
Thanks for reading
*maggie*