Leenie and Liz- Glad to see ya'll are doing ok.
Canadian_Mickey- hang in there! You will make it through the night honey! And no the cleaning never ends. It's the great cosmic joke. As soon as you get everything done you have to start all over again.
Cin- Hang in there hon! The recovery time might suck, but just remember how much better you'll feel when it's all over. Congrats on selling the kayaks!
thecanadian213-
We have a great little group here. Pull up a keyboard and make yourself at home!
Candi- Happy Belated Birthday honey! I'm glad you had a good time in NY. I'm sorry to hear about your dad. Can you call his doctor and let them know about his state of mind? Maybe they'll change his meds or re-evaluate him for different treatment approach if the current treatment isn't working. WTG
on breaking the 200's!
Cathy- I'm sorry you're going through sooo much with your teeth. That really sucks! All that pain and they're not even sure whether or not you'll end up with implants or if you'll be ok they way things are.
Buddly- Glad to hear you had a good weekend, and you got so much stuff done despite icky weather. WTG! I will definately send all the positive energy and well wishes I can out to your friend, and here's a
for you too, cause I know it's got to be nerve wracking and awful to have someone you care for so deeply be soo sick.
Well all I got my workout in with DH last night I weighed in this morning at 198.2 but I won't officially weigh in for a couple of more days so I'm hoping it truly is a loss cause I really need a boost.We had our meeting with the school today to see if DS qualifies for special education preschool services. They said that his delays are within the range and he does qualify, so he'll be starting in the fall, when school resumes after summer break. So when school goes back all 3 of my kids will be going. One into 5th grade, one into Kindergarten, and one into preschool. I'm mixed about this. While I know it'll be good for him to get the speech therapy and special ed. services I have to let my last baby go to school 2 years before I thought I would, so I'm a little sad right along with the happy.
I don't know if it's because I'm in pain all the time or because I'm still so limited on the stuff I can do (even the way I can sleep) or maybe because I haven't slept well since the accident (I can't get into a comfprtable position that doesn't hurt my knee worse), or maybe it's just the downward cycle of the bi-polar...I don't know, but I ain't doing so well. The last couple of days have been really hard. I can feel the depression setting in and I am trying my hardest to fight it off but...well you guys understand...sometimes it isn't that easy. I feel like crying all the time and I'm really irritable and I want to sleep..ALOT. DH says I'm being a ***** to be around and that makes me feel worse. He's trying so hard to make things better or easier around here for me I don't want to be that way towards him. I just can't help it. I'm trying soo hard and I can't seem to get my mood under control. All I want is just one full day with no screaming kids (or hubby yelling at the kids), no housework or meals to worry over, no running all over **** and back doing errands and pick ups or drop offs or going for tests or physical therapy or to the gym. I just want a day to be by myself, and I know there's no way I can get that and that's frustrating. I just want to hole up in my bedroom and cry and cry. I have been trying really hard lately to be positive and upbeat around everyone..even in here..even when I don't feel that way cause I know this is my problem and no one else should have to hear me whine.. but today I just can't. I'm sorry. I needed to let some of this out before I exploded. I feel so lost right now, so sad. God, I hate this!! I mean I tell DH I'm getting depressed and his response is "no, you're not allowed". I mean he means it in a joking way, but this isn't a joke. I go to him for support and he admits he doesn't know how to give me the kind of support I need because he doesn't understand. Then he gets into a bad mood which of course makes everything worse. So other than you guys I feel like I'm alone. I'm alone in dealing with this, trying to make it through each day, trying to make myself feel better. I can't go back into therapy because we can't afford the $65 a visit. I don't want to be back on the meds again cause they never found a combo that worked for me and I was shelling out a couple of hundred $'s a month on meds that weren't working, or meds that were constantly changing and I can't afford that either. i can't find a therapist around here that I'm comfortable with. It's such a mess. All I have is ya'll. Coming in here everyday ( or as much as I can) keeps me going. It really helps to have people understand what you're going through. Thanks for being there for me guys! I know that none of us have actually met face to face but you guys are truly my friends, and I appreciate all of you. Maybe someday when one of us hits the lottery we can all fly out and meet up somewhere and have a party to celebrate one another, our triumphs and our friendships. Now there's something to wish for!
Anyway I gotta go. The kids are tearing up the house, yelling at eachother, and giving me a headache and I have to go get DD#1 from school soooo....I'll "see" ya later. TTYL