Gretchen,

Please don't feel ashamed. I can completely understand where you are coming from. A few years back I was to the point where I thought my husband didn't love me anymore because of my weight. The stress became so high that one day I had every intention of killing myself. Luckily I was able to get through to my Mom, who was out of state on vacation, and she talked me down. The next day I was admitted and put under suicide watch. You think that things would've changed? Nope! I continued to gain weight until I was at the 300 mark. Then I made the decision to do it for me. Not for my husband or my parents but for me! You will get over this slump. The past is behind you. Look at tomorrow as a new day...your day! Keep in touch...I'll be thinking of you!

:hug:
Sarah

Hi Gretchen! I'm fairly new here myself, so I unfortunately don't remember you. But, I know what you are feeling. BTDT.:dizzy: I lost over 110 pounds 7 years ago and if I let myself just dwell on my failure to keep it off, I get ticked off. But lots of good things also happened in these past years...(besides gaining almost all of the weight back). Including babies!! I have to remember that! Anyways, this is my 2nd serious attempt to get healthy. I struggled terribly after my 2nd baby was born last April - she had some failure to thrive/feeding problems and I on the other hand coped by eating. She's healthy now and will turn 1 next Tuesday - but for me that dark "funk" lasted 9 months. I just got down to my pre-pregnancy weight a couple weeks ago. All I can say is it will "click" again and you'll be in a groove anytime now! The great thing is you know what you need to do, you've done it before and you'll do it again. Just work your plan and before you know it you'll have your groove back! Congrats on your new house! Congrats on coming back here and being honest! Looking forward to sharing your successes!!!:D

How's it going??

Gretchen,

It's great to see you again. Like Sandi says "How's it going??"

Its going... I went and had some blood work done a few days ago and everything is normal. This weekend, I was really active and it felt great to be on the go! My eating is better, I've stayed away from snacking and have made my portion sizes less. I'm starting with small steps.. I've realized that I just cannot hit it full force as I did before Carson was born. I've got an obligation to my child and to myself now so I'm splitting up the time! Things are going well-- I have not weighed in yet, I'll do that after a few more weeks of being good--- I'm terrified of what number the scale will yield! I'm usually an all or nothing kind of gal, however, If I want to succeed this time around, I've got to take it as it comes. I really appreciate all your support. I hope to have more good reports in the future!