I don't know about anyone else but I think about the fact that I am overweight constantly. I wake up in the morning and I think about it immediately. Especially if I oversleep and don't make it to the gym in the morning. I go to bed thinking about it and how I am going to do better the next day. The cycle continues... some days I do exercise and eat pretty well. Other days forget it! As I get closer and closer to my goal date (okay it's still about a year and a half away but c'mon almost 150 pounds by then... not going to happen!) I start to realize something. Why? Why a goal date? Why a goal weight? *It's good to know where you'd like to be but it's not like you can stop at that weight and go back to how things are now - hardly exercising, eating what you want* Losing weight isn't some magical cure for all of our problems. Why obsess? I feel like it should be simple... I know what I have to do so I should just do it. I must like to obsess about it! But, I don't. I mean really, who wants to obsess about their weight or anything else? We all have something that stresses us out and we obsess about it. Life doesn't have to be THIS hard. I think if I ask myself WHY more often before I do or don't do something crazy and if I can make a immediate decision, there shouldn't be a problem.
The facts are...
* I don't want to be overweight anymore so I have to do something about it or shut up!
* I don't want to obsess about things anymore so I have to either do something about the problems I obsess about or accept that they are there and shut up!
If I keep obsessing and stressing out and feeling negative about EVERYTHING no matter how much weight I lose I am going to be unhappy and die from stress instead of being fat. So, no more!
I am going to make this change. No MAJOR time limits. *Sure my 25th birthday would be dreamy but if not OH WELL!* No MAJOR total weight loss goal. *Okay so I am sticking with 145 but I think my body will get to the weight it needs to be and stay there - regardless if it's more of less than 145* Most important NO MORE BEATING MYSELF UP OVER EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE... WEIGHT RELATED OR OTHERWISE!
Thank you for reading. Have a marvelous day!